Chapter 40: Forgive Me, My Soul

[JIMINIE]

"You're right, Jiminie. I'm sorry. I didn't come here to fuck you. I came here to make amends," Agust said and Jiminie let out a loud dissatisfied growl, earning a chuckle from Agust who was challenging him with his eyes.

The king was waiting to see what his beautiful Erasthai would do. He was sure he had crossed so many limits and as inhumane as Agust was, he hated that he had been the reason for the tears in Jiminie's face.

Sure, he could fuck the alpha and make him feel all sorts of things, but then he wouldn't always be there to fuck the alpha, and the pain would always be there. He had begun a trail that wouldn't ever make it any better, but perhaps he could try, right?

"If you can't fuck me, get the fuck out of this room. You fucked whores looking for me, right? Well, here I am, with a pen cunt pulsing for you. All you gotta do is unsheathe your dick and thrust it in, case closed," Jiminie said harshly but Agust didn't do shit, if anything he stepped back.

For the first time in his life, King Ming Xiao Zhu stepped back from the person he loved. He had promised to be on Jiminie's side and right now, he didn't see himself keeping that promise.

He didn't see himself as the strong king anymore, especially when he rushed off the bed and went to sniff the pool of blood that had been there. The blood was slowly fading, almost like its mission had been done.

It was unheard of, really, blood disappearing like that, but Agust knew. He knew there was only one other person who could make shit like this happen, and as he looked at his Erasthai who had an open cut waiting for him to fill, Agust's heart broke.

"No… Please, no," Agust whimpered, an action that got Jiminie snapping out of his trance. The last time he had heard Agust whimper was when the king had a ripped back and was in too much pain to even ask for help.

"Please, no," Agust whimpered again, as he knelt on the ground, his nose sniffing the blood that had stopped disappearing again. It was like it was held there by magic, but the kind that scared Agust himself.

This was something that scared the shit out of the king and he couldn't handle it. Perhaps he was always meant to be like this but damn, his Erasthai? This isn't how this shit was supposed to happen.

Then again, Kim So Hee had warned him weeks ago and Agust had not acted on it. He should have been faster, and instead, he had delayed and only remembered that shit when he called for the mating ceremony.

The ceremony was supposed to be his cover-up for him to see his Erasthai and now it seems like that wasn't ever going to happen. Happiness had been in his hands and the Lycan king was helpless as it dared to slip right past him.

Agust looked like he was holding on for dear life, and Jiminie hadn't ever seen this shit ever. It was like something was happening, but what the fuck was that? Perhaps they could have someone explain to them, right?

"Are you okay? Should I call someone— aahh!" Jiminie asked only to break out into a series of cries, while his Erasthai watched with sad eyes. Jiminie knew Agust would never hurt him. Granted, the bastard was twisted but Jiminie was twisted too.

In their own twisted mess, Jiminie was certain that Agust would die before he hurt Jiminie ever again. It was crazy, seeing as in everyone's eyes, Agust was the most toxic creature the universe had ever seen.

"Arghh… help me, please," Jiminie whimpered as he let his silent scream into the mind link they shared, and in less than three minutes the doctor, the Lycan, the Lycan king's enforcer, and the Kiyoto beta were all here in this room

Sure, it looked creepy as hell seeing as Jiminie had just tied a rope on him to cover himself but the stench of arousal filled the air. However, along with that stench, was the bitter scent of the king's breaking heart.

"Help me… please, Xiao Xiao," Jiminie begged as he fell unconscious on the bed. He had just been cleaned up so it was clean but fuck everything else, there was no way to explain this.

Agust, the same mad king who would kill everything before he hurt his Erasthai or even saw him in pain, was bent over at the sight of blood, tears silently flowing from his eyes, a sight that got everyone shocked and worried.

The Lycan king could cry?

Well, that was new to them.

"What is happening to him? And what the hell is with the bastard who was claiming to make things right with my son?" Luna Park Jieun asked as she looked at the slumped shoulders of the clan's king. She couldn't deny that this was a shock even for her.

Ming Xiao Zhu was easily the proudest man on the face of the realm and yet as they stood there in Jiminie's room, while the doctor tried to figure out what was happening. They couldn't quite understand the mad king. It was like he had lost his senses.

"No!!" Jiminie suddenly cried out, as he clawed his stomach, the same part that had become clawing earlier. This time there was a lot of blood coming out of the pigeon that Lee Tang and Kim So Hee had to tie his hands and legs on the bed so he couldn't hurt himself.

All this while, Agust was skull crying softly on the floor.

"What the hell?" So Hee asked once they were done with retraining Jiminie.

Doctor Jung Hwa opened Jiminie's robe, even though she knew that the alpha would be naked beneath. She was sure Agust would rip her hands off of his Erasthai, and yet as the doctor undid the robe to reveal the effeminate alpha, Agust did nothing.

"Holy shit," Lee Tang let out as he took in the sight before him. His alpha had a cunt and full breasts. They looked so mature and tantalizing that of the hunt, best friend Lee Tang would have jumped him first.

But right now, Jiminie needed their help.

"Don't even think of it, beta. My brother may be out of it, but I will swat your head off your neck like a fly if you dare look at the prince consort differently," So Hee warned as she kneeled to see what was wrong with her brother.

"Sorry," Lee Tang gasped as he watched in surprise. He knew the woman meant every word that came from her mouth and he could tell that he would be worse than Agust because she would have the backing of GAust no matter what happened.

And the mad Lycan king wasn't exactly the best person to piss off at the moment.

"Agust… what's wrong?" So Hee asked while the doctor continued her examination of the defeated alpha who was calling out for Agust, his Erasthai, and yet the same Erasthai who wasn't even looking at him at the moment.

It was like something had snapped and the king wasn't even in his right mind anymore. Maybe hell had become known because there was no other explanation for the sudden switch that the king had at the moment.

"When was the first time you consummated the bond?" Doctor Jung Hwa asked and Agust looked at the doctor with sad eyes. He knew. He should have been careful and yet he had failed for the first time.

"What the fuck does that mean, doctor?" Luna Park asked and Agust looked into Jiminie's eyes. The memory of their first time together wasn't exactly the most pleasant one and Agust didn't want Jiminie to reminisce about it.

However, he wasn't ever going to be able to erase that memory like he had erased all the painful memories that Jiminie had of his father. He had intentionally left that memory there because he had planted a seed that he shouldn't have.

Now it had come back to haunt the both of them.

"The alpha was with child… but he lost it," Doctor Jung Hwa said, looking at Agust who was already as defeated as broken Erasthais ever came. It was unexpected, for everyone and none more than So Hee who stepped back.

It wasn't because she was in love with Agust, no. But it was because the dots finally connected. Why Agust has not tried to stop or even help his Erasthai. Why Agust had watched as they chained up his Erasthai.

So Hee knew what the answer was and why, and she felt the world crumbling on their shoulders too. And just like her master, her tears began flowing for the innocent alpha who had no clue what had just happened and why.

This was new to Jiminie, it hurt more than anything ever hurt. The stench of pain filled the air and the wrangled unique lavender scent that they hatred with Agust had grown bitter, but fuck, this was cruel.

Dejectedly, the Lycan king got up, and dragged his feet to where a shocked Jiminie was laid, before uttering the words that Jiminie had never thought would come from Agust's lips.

This man was supposed to tell him that all of this was impossible and yet as the tears fell from Agust's eyes, Jiminie knew it was true and there wasn't shit he could do about that.

"Forgive me, my soul," Agust said, knowing it was probably the last time he would see the love of his life.

King Agust gently kissed the alpha's forehead, before he turned to So Hee, "Please take care of him," then he disappeared like wind.

"Nooo!!!" Jiminie's cry tore through the room as they helplessly watched his heart shatter for the hundredth time.