After my phone call with Abram, no matter how I tried to close my eyes to sleep, I just couldn't even though my eyes started to itch, pleading me to shut my eyes, my brain was too adamant and busy thinking. In short, I 'm looking forward to seeing him again.
The second my alarm started blasting throughout the walls of my room, I pressed the off button and couldn't contain the smile spreading out on my face. I just hope that this day goes through as I imagined.
I'm not usually someone who takes time getting ready or someone who cares about what to wear or someone who dresses to impress. On normal days, I would just pick what I see first and wear it but today was exceptional.
For the first time, I was putting an effort to look decent or should I say pretty?
But what if I'm not enough? Not good enough, or not beautiful enough? I thought to myself as I stared at my image in front of the mirror and that's when it has drawn to me how pale my skin is and how tiny and thin I looked for someone at my age. I look like a teenager rather than an adult.
Brushing off all the negative thoughts away, I started getting ready in a simple dress as I don't want Abram to think that I'm really desperate and looking forward to this lunch. I'm just going to act as if it's all normal. I'm not going to mess this up. I'm not going to be weird or awkward. I'm not.
As I finished doing my last touches of makeup which was torture for me cause I was too scared to make one wrong move and ruin the entire look.
There's some time before my lunch with Abram so meanwhile I'll just spend some time with the kids rather than sitting at home alone with crazy thoughts running inside my head making me go insane.
As usual, Rico was already outside waiting for me and upon seeing me his eyebrows rose he looked at me up and down making me want to hide my face into my hands.
"You look different today," he said as I advanced towards him.
What? But that's not what I want. Maybe I did too much, maybe I should change and remove the makeup.
"You look beautiful though, don't worry" He tried to assure me as he opened the backseat door for me.
"Thank you" I whispered as I got in.
"Is there any special occasion today?" He questioned as he drove out of the gate while I contemplated whether to tell him about Abram.
He's my only friend here and I know I can trust him but I still think that I should just keep it to myself and tell him about it later on. After all, I shouldn't forget that he's still my bodyguard who reports every single tiny thing that I do to my father.
"No, it's just I will be going out for lunch later on with a friend of mine" I replied, looking out of the window, praying silently that he won't catch me lying as I'm terrible at lying and out of all people Rico knows about it all too well.
"Ohh, so do you want me to drive you later on to the place you're having lunch?" he questioned making me think twice about it.
"Umm yeah sure" I replied trying to cover the uncertainty in my voice.
"Okay, just call me" he answered.
Thank goodness, he didn't ask me which friend I'm going out with even though he knows that I don't have friends. I just hope that he doesn't get suspicious and call my dad.
Time in the orphanage flew by so fast that I wished that I could turn the time and take some time before going to this lunch to prepare myself from what I'm about to face. Abram already texted me the address and also insisted to pick me here from the orphanage but I declined, and since then I just couldn't tame or relax down my anxiety. I feel like I'm going to throw up my stomach contents but I know it's just nerves.
I already texted Rico and was currently waiting for him, tapping my foot anxiously at the wooden floor and playing with my hair as I bit into my lips as thoughts ran inside of my head at full speed when horning made me jump in surprise.
"I'm so sorry I'm late. Traffic caught me up" Rico apologizes as he opened up the door for me while I just smiled at him assuring him that it was completely fine for me.
"I hope this friend of yours won't mind that you're late" He added as he proceeded up towards the address that I would be meeting Abram.
"No, it's alright. He won't mind" I answered, looking down at my phone to check if I had any message when Rico just hummed in response.
As we reached the restaurant, I bid Rico a goodbye telling him not to wait for me as I would take a taxi back which he agreed but not before casting me a suspicious look.
Advancing towards the entrance, my heart was in my mouth, my legs were slightly shaking and my hands felt clammy.
Please god, just help me not to embarrass myself, please. I chanted like a mantra to myself, and then I realized what could go wrong, right? After all, it's just lunch.