“Am I really didn’t have any chance with you?” she asked while standing still behind him.
She looks so frustrated that she’s unable to understand why does he being extremely nice to her and always acted so dearly towards her and making her misunderstood of every situation and yet he doesn’t wants her to expects something from him at all.
He turns around and looks at her once again, his brow knitted, in his mind the only that matters to him right at that moment is to keep her safe because he’s absolutely hates it seeing her getting hurts.
“You need to tell me why?” Lin insisted hoping for his honest answers, she always believed that there are more reasons of why he’s rejecting her.
His eyes are suddenly closed; overly concerned thinking of what he should say to her and makes her believed that he’s got nothing left inside his heart for love.
***Lin... Please don’t make me say it…***
His mouth just feels so heavy but he obliged to say it, “You’re just like a sister to me, your brother loves you; so am I”
Her heart feels so hurt again by his words, but still she doesn’t want to believe that, she tries to hold on from crying but then her tears just never listened from flowing down through her cold cheeks.
***I really don’t want to believe that…
***No! My heart just doesn’t feel like it...
Jay saw that, and tries to wipe those tears from her but for some reason he just stay put. His fist begins to ball up and flex, holding it tight together, as if he was trying to hold himself from to do so.
He might didn’t do anything at all but his eyes shows differently, he keeps staring at her so heartily. For all the reason he feels so guilty.
Being trapped inside of his painful past only led him to the path of confusion about finding out how does he really feels about her.
After his parents left him without any reason, he began to shut his heart to people and so many years have passed since then, and he’s finally grew up without the capabilities of recognizing his own feelings anymore.
Lin somehow understands him completely and never questioned him at all.
The only that matters to her, she wants him to understand and knowing that he wasn’t alone in this world and there’s someone that will always stay beside him no matter what happen, apart from that she wants him to accept her not as a sister but as a women whose love him with her whole heart.
But that promised and thought somehow desist him over the years.
Should he hold that promised?
Or let his truest feeling that he had buried deep inside his heart unleash and took over him?
Does he really love her as a sister or just pretended to love her only because he made a promised with Lin’s brother?
What if he really did love her?
*** - their inner dialogue,
+++- a change of character POV