since i dont have anyone to rant to except myself, here i am
Author: pigeon_hit_and_run© WebNovel
Chapter 1: "try harder"
i sat there by myself, listening to my teacher speak to another student.
i could not help but feel ashamed and frustrated towards myself as he spoke
these words:
"you just have to try harder."
try harder. try harder.
that is all it takes.
i really wanted to give him a good punch in the face the moment these words left his mouth.
not because he was wrong, but because i knew he would never understand just how much there was to 'trying harder'.
there were so many steps to 'trying harder' the he did not know of, and that angered me.
its not like we could just suddenly try harder the moment someone tells us to.
well, at least something people like me would never be able to do.
im so sick of people trying to tell me to just 'try harder'
because, damn, i would love to but i just cant.
i simply cannot find the energy to do the things i have to do
i mean look at me:
i feign sickness just to avoid school
i ignore all my responsibilities
i constantly think about the steps to things i have to do, thus making me not do them in the end
im literally the embodiment of the word 'lazy'
so, im sick of people lecturing me like they know my body, my mentality, and my mindset.
"you cant keep on doing this"
oh, i wish i could stop being like this
"you have to try harder"
oh, i really really wish i could, trust me
"who do you keep on doing this?"
i dont know i dont know i simply dont know