It's raining so hard and I'm soaking wet now and I don't care about those people staring at me right now.
I feel numb.
I entered the house even though I am still wet and went directly to my room...
this feeling I'm having right now is so heavy to carry...super!
"Steffany wait, Did I do something wrong? Why are you like that?" I nervously asked her... Tears are trying to escape from my eyes but I'm doing my best to hold it back.
I tried to hold her arm but she just rebuked it violently... It hurts to see her being like this, Ignoring me and it hurts how she rebuked my hand violently.
She angrily faced me and looked at my eyes fiercely.
"Wrong? Yes! Because in 5 years that we've been together I never experienced happiness when I am with you" after she said those painful words,
The rain suddenly poured out.
"Damn*t Dawn....a sorry can't erase everything."
I looked at her in the eyes and I am confused about what's her real emotions right now, seems like I can see sadness and guilt.
"Can we start again?" I knelt in front of her at beg but she just looked at me.
At the same time as the rain is falling, so are my tears... I can't hold it back anymore, For the longer I hold it back the painful I get.
She also knelt to level up with me... We're both soaked in the rain right now.
"End it... Start again.. Or even if we continue it, Dawn... We will just hurt each other. So I think it's better to stop it already? I know that you're also tired... so maybe let's both take a rest." She stood up after saying those words.
I want to shout and ask her 'what happened to our promises?' 'What happened to your promise?... That you'll stay no matter what?
I wanted to stop her from leaving but I can't... I feel like I'm completely numb... I could no longer lift my head to watch her leave.
But she left a word before finally leaving.
"It would be better if I only give you this kind of pain, than giving you a severe pain when the day will come"
🕙•End of flashback•🕙
I was in the shower for about an hour... thinking about what happens earlier, I then wore my clothes then walked out of the comfort room, I don't plan to stay there any longer.
My forehead frowned when I saw my Dad holding a sheet of paper that came from my table when I realized what paper it is I immediately took it from him then put it back to my table.
"You'll transfer?" He seriously asked while his forehead frowned and giving me sharp looks... Tsk! As if I care!
"If you're that clever enough why don't you answer your question?" It may sound rude but frankly speaking I know that he is my father but I don't have respect left for him.
He was about to slap me but it didn't happen because of sudden voice we heard.
"Tsk! Such no shame.... And no respect!"My Mom said with a smirk but I just looked at her flatly.
Because I don't care.
"Why will you transfer?" Dad asked with a heaving sigh, controlling his anger.
We stared at each other's eyes for a split second, looks like he's trying to read my emotions... Tsk! As if I care.
"Isn't it a shame for you that the DAUGHTER of one of the biggest companies here in this country is studying in a public school right?" I sarcastically answered.
The truth is, I don't care if I go study in public or private school, For all I want is to escape... Escape from this place... Escape from them... That's why I picked a university that's too far from here and I don't plan to tell them but seems like Dad found it out now.
And another thing is I want to, 'Escape from my past'
"Then give us 3 great reasons why would we transfer you?"
" GREAT? wow! big word!" I intended to emphasize the word 'great' to tease their anger but seriously talking? I don't care.
"YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH... WHERE DID YOU LEFT YOUR RESPECT? AT THE BURIAL OF YOUR GRANDFATHER? AT THE PROVINCE?" She pulled my hair hard and it hurts.
My chest tightened when I heard grandpa's name...
I just stayed calm even if I want to curse my Mom for including my bereaved grandfather in the conversation...
I didn't pull back her hair... nor I can't yell at her and throw some unwanted words because I've been hurt for what she just said...
Dad tried to stop us...
And when dad pulled her away from me Mom's still yelling.
"I! SAID! SHUT! UP!" Dad shouted in anger.. Seems like he can't control his temper anymore.
Mom just crossed her arms while I sat down in my bed.
"Okay, Then it's settled! Tomorrow I will be the one to transfer you in that university that you want!" And after that, He dragged Mom out from my room.
They've been liked that, Since I came into this house, My life had never been peaceful, I never felt a family, I never experienced a happy life with my biological parents.
But back when I am still in the province together with my Grandpa! I can feel a real love even though it doesn't come from my parents...But Grandpa fulfilled all the love, Care, and support that I needed! and I couldn't ask for more.
And FINALLY, I can leave this house, this place, this life tomorrow.
No friends? no problem.
No Family? no problem.
No Lover? no problem.
For tomorrow I WILL live my life full of protection far from destruction, I won't be as gullible as I am before.
I think tomorrow will be the new start of the chapter of my life,
will be reborn
i know that i am not that good at writing for i am still a beginner but your criticism is highly appreciated..Godbless to us all