The Love I Have Hoped For

I am Jessica Myers. 30 years of age. I am an introverted type of person who spends most of her free time at home, watching Netflix. I don't usually go out and I don't have a lot of friends. Despite my age, I still keep a diary with me and every time I want to share something to someone, I write it on my diary.

Everyone might think I am boring, but this is the life I am comfortable to live with. I was bullied as a student which makes me have a hard time trusting other people.

Like other women, all I want is to be loved. I hope to meet someone who can make me feel special, who can make me feel that despite my characteristics and despite my flaws, I can still be loved. I am an ordinary woman who wants to be pursued by a guy, receiving flowers, going on dates in cinemas or simply walking in a park. My ideal man? I just want to meet someone who is nice and who can listen to all my stories no matter how simple and boring they are.

I don't think I am a difficult person to deal with but why is no one liking me? I am an NBSB (no boyfriend since birth). And because of that, I have low self confidence. I think I am not capable to love and to be loved.

I hope someday, like in fairy tails, my pronce charming will come. I hope someone out there will see the beauty in me, maybe not physically but with my character. Don't get me wrong, I am happy with my life now but I am sure I will be happier to be spending it with someone.

Will someone come and rescue my lonely heart? Will I still get a happy ending like the characters in fairy tails? When can I experience the love I have hoped for?