The incident took him back to those years when he had first felt an attraction towards the same gender. He was curious and that thought had scared him out of his wits. He so badly wanted to talk about it with someone but that possibility was erased when his father defined what a real man was, a definition shaped with hammering from generations of patriarchy that made Yul lock up his curiosity. Since that day, he never allowed himself to look at any other guy that way. He was a real man, his father's pride, the one who would be becoming a police officer in the future. He couldn't risk it for a fleeting moment of confusion, at least that was what he had thought of it and made him hide in a shell.