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Yupp Meng always describe JJ as cute but that's like a word most guys don't want to hear in shoujo manga. I don't think they mind it in kdramas though, but then there's different kinds of cute. Meng describes him as like little kid cute. She keeps treating him like he's a lot younger than her even though the age gap isn't much. Wonder what she will think of him during the wedding with fresh eyes now. She was probably too focus on the bride and father than JJ during that wedding. How will she view it looking back? View More

CCmei: Yaaaasss you got it, that complex feels of lacking&comparison of her own broken relationship/family issues in the face of this happy one, especially towards the father figure.
(which is why Freddy and Rosa is so necessary/important in this story)

Phew, thank you for answering my question. I do get worried bc I don't want to make it too obvious when I describe JJ- (but I can't help but love the character) and I really don't want to turn into those Chinese novels that spend 3 pages uselessly explaining a someone's looks/appearances.

Yes I do like to describe, from mama Maria's hair and dress to papa Freddy's swoon-worthy Darcy-ism, even the old dudes. How Rosa sees Gable *sparkles sparkle* how Gable sees grampa Ron in that one chapter- etc. But I try to paint a picture/create a feeling from that image. So I feared I was going a little overboard on JJ (oh god pls don't let me end up as a generic Chinese novel), glad to hear that the right impression is coming off.
(The whole Meng is actually attracted to JJ and thus has to self detonate her thoughts- shoot them all right out the window- deny deny deny)(just a kid, just a cute little dumb kid- that's ALL he is, who cares if he's growing 20+)

Great, that's exactly what I'm going for. Thank you very much. Your feedback helps speed up the writing process.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
1 hour ago

CCmei: Yaaaasss you got it, that complex feels of lacking&comparison of her own broken relationship/family issues in the face of this happy one, especially towards the father figure.
(which is why Freddy and Rosa is so necessary/important in this story)

Phew, thank you for answering my question. I do get worried bc I don't want to make it too obvious when I describe JJ- (but I can't help but love the character) and I really don't want to turn into those Chinese novels that spend 3 pages uselessly explaining a someone's looks/appearances.

Yes I do like to describe, from mama Maria's hair and dress to papa Freddy's swoon-worthy Darcy-ism, even the old dudes. How Rosa sees Gable *sparkles sparkle* how Gable sees grampa Ron in that one chapter- etc. But I try to paint a picture/create a feeling from that image. So I feared I was going a little overboard on JJ (oh god pls don't let me end up as a generic Chinese novel), glad to hear that the right impression is coming off.
(The whole Meng is actually attracted to JJ and thus has to self detonate her thoughts- shoot them all right out the window- deny deny deny)(just a kid, just a cute little dumb kid- that's ALL he is, who cares if he's growing 20+)

Great, that's exactly what I'm going for. Thank you very much. Your feedback helps speed up the writing process.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
1 hour ago
I feel like you don't talk a lot about JJ's appearance because Meng shoots those thoughts out, thoughts that she is actually attracted to him so she just try to view him as "cute" like a kid even as he gets older. It would be a waste of a wedding if you don't bring the flashback so I'm hoping it'll show up. Also Meng feeling upset over it makes sense since she doesn't have that relationship with her father. It's probably a mix of jealousy and self loathing while trying to feel happy for her unnie. :( View More

CCmei: I don't get to fully control my own writings.

My brain says yes, there will be that wedding flashback next chapter. Bc Rosa gets triggered. As random as the triggers seem there are reasons and sources for each trigger. Like how in this chapter one memory leads her to another and that reveals TWO WHOLE flashbacks plus the connection to 'being sold' in this life time.
The wedding is too obvious of a trigger for me to not use. She's already sensitive from this chapter.

OF course, they're very different weddings- a local Italian countryside village wedding & feast under the open skies is vastly different than a modern-day banquet reception that a Korean family would host. But they're weddings and it links back. A reminder after reminder until she's Meng again, and we can see things through her eyes.

(and there will be some time with Grampa Ron, bc Rosa is getting too many fells to just NOT ask about the past. If he feels it too? The weight of two lifetimes. And what can be done with that,)

So yesssss yes you will all be forced to see that flashback. You're forced to read Rosa go from fashion disasters and wedding roasts to suddenly being Meng again. Happy and sad moments, watching EJ in her pretty wedding gown doing to the first father/daughter dance. She's genuinely happy for EJ unnie and whole family, but that doesn't stop her from drinking her 7th? glass of champagne.
You all will be forced to read about her buzzed and maybe unconsciously mooning over, JJ dressed to the 10s, bc there's just something about men in a well tailored suit. No overbearing CEO jokes to laugh off this time, just JJ at his own sister's weddings looking fiiiiiiiiiiiiine.
(I don't talk about JJ's appearances TOO much do I? In the chapters that is? In ways that aren't relevant? Like in this current chapter he's about 16 so I wanted to showcase that, along with Meng's shutdown of any growing feels, without saying outright his age. )

(Of course this is not me promoting starting relationships with minors or anything. But feelings exist at any age and JJ has had a crush on her for quite a while by now. )

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
8 hours ago

CCmei: I don't get to fully control my own writings.

My brain says yes, there will be that wedding flashback next chapter. Bc Rosa gets triggered. As random as the triggers seem there are reasons and sources for each trigger. Like how in this chapter one memory leads her to another and that reveals TWO WHOLE flashbacks plus the connection to 'being sold' in this life time.
The wedding is too obvious of a trigger for me to not use. She's already sensitive from this chapter.

OF course, they're very different weddings- a local Italian countryside village wedding & feast under the open skies is vastly different than a modern-day banquet reception that a Korean family would host. But they're weddings and it links back. A reminder after reminder until she's Meng again, and we can see things through her eyes.

(and there will be some time with Grampa Ron, bc Rosa is getting too many fells to just NOT ask about the past. If he feels it too? The weight of two lifetimes. And what can be done with that,)

So yesssss yes you will all be forced to see that flashback. You're forced to read Rosa go from fashion disasters and wedding roasts to suddenly being Meng again. Happy and sad moments, watching EJ in her pretty wedding gown doing to the first father/daughter dance. She's genuinely happy for EJ unnie and whole family, but that doesn't stop her from drinking her 7th? glass of champagne.
You all will be forced to read about her buzzed and maybe unconsciously mooning over, JJ dressed to the 10s, bc there's just something about men in a well tailored suit. No overbearing CEO jokes to laugh off this time, just JJ at his own sister's weddings looking fiiiiiiiiiiiiine.
(I don't talk about JJ's appearances TOO much do I? In the chapters that is? In ways that aren't relevant? Like in this current chapter he's about 16 so I wanted to showcase that, along with Meng's shutdown of any growing feels, without saying outright his age. )

(Of course this is not me promoting starting relationships with minors or anything. But feelings exist at any age and JJ has had a crush on her for quite a while by now. )

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
8 hours ago
I would like to see the flashback but most people might want to see more of Rosa's current life. Will we ever get to see that flashback? View More

CCmei: The ghost ship is powered by sweet sadness. The salt of tears with the heartwrenching sweetness of fluff. If you could tap feelings for power, we would never have to worry about an energy crisis again. By-products include all the corner mushrooms grown on the ghost ship.

It really hurts (bc we care) and it's all my fault.
Bc I gotta make a well fleshed out character and believable chemistry- this story/what I'm attempting doesn't work if there was NO chemistry between them. No solid relationship to HURT and YEARN for....ow ow ow.
JJ needs to hurt, it needs to hurt so bad, and we don't get to see it bc we can only follow Rosalia. NOW we gotta make Rosa/Meng hurt. Comparisons will be made, they're already being made, another one is being made in this next chapter draft BUT the pinnacle of pain is yet to come. When all those feelings really hit, when she realizes what she's truely lost bc of how much she did love them. Love 'everyone' ... love Jung-Joon- oh god she loves Jung-Joon. The truth she's always been biting down. She's in love with him and it's gone. All gone. Nothing but memories that might as well have never existed.
She'll cry she was better off not knowing. This heart does her no good as Rosalia now.

As captain and shipwright of the ghost ship and literally over all cannon ships in this story, I'm very much in pain. The ghost ship hurts in multitude for every sweet/good moment, there's the recoil....

I'm writing the Barbara wedding right now and it hurts so softly. It's a happy event and it hurts bc my brain is telling me:
"you know what needs to happen here? Another modern flashback. We need to see JJ again. Eun-Jung the eldest Park sis is married, let's do her wedding. Let's put JJ in a suit. "

Which is a bit of a debate bc I know a portion of readers will find it too much. They want to see Rosalia and this fantasy isekai world, not the past that 'holds her back'. Two chapters in a row, is it too much JJ & modern memories? Am I being a sports anime with the flashbacks? Gotta consider that as I write.

I swear it's not just me being a masochistic/sadistic ghost ship captain. JJ's character exists for reasons! Beyond the flirty fluff- really he does!
(I've kinda said it before to others, that not all readers have to be members of the ghost ship. But oh boy do you get the "Full" experience of this story if you are. Apologies in advance. )

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
9 hours ago

CCmei: The ghost ship is powered by sweet sadness. The salt of tears with the heartwrenching sweetness of fluff. If you could tap feelings for power, we would never have to worry about an energy crisis again. By-products include all the corner mushrooms grown on the ghost ship.

It really hurts (bc we care) and it's all my fault.
Bc I gotta make a well fleshed out character and believable chemistry- this story/what I'm attempting doesn't work if there was NO chemistry between them. No solid relationship to HURT and YEARN for....ow ow ow.
JJ needs to hurt, it needs to hurt so bad, and we don't get to see it bc we can only follow Rosalia. NOW we gotta make Rosa/Meng hurt. Comparisons will be made, they're already being made, another one is being made in this next chapter draft BUT the pinnacle of pain is yet to come. When all those feelings really hit, when she realizes what she's truely lost bc of how much she did love them. Love 'everyone' ... love Jung-Joon- oh god she loves Jung-Joon. The truth she's always been biting down. She's in love with him and it's gone. All gone. Nothing but memories that might as well have never existed.
She'll cry she was better off not knowing. This heart does her no good as Rosalia now.

As captain and shipwright of the ghost ship and literally over all cannon ships in this story, I'm very much in pain. The ghost ship hurts in multitude for every sweet/good moment, there's the recoil....

I'm writing the Barbara wedding right now and it hurts so softly. It's a happy event and it hurts bc my brain is telling me:
"you know what needs to happen here? Another modern flashback. We need to see JJ again. Eun-Jung the eldest Park sis is married, let's do her wedding. Let's put JJ in a suit. "

Which is a bit of a debate bc I know a portion of readers will find it too much. They want to see Rosalia and this fantasy isekai world, not the past that 'holds her back'. Two chapters in a row, is it too much JJ & modern memories? Am I being a sports anime with the flashbacks? Gotta consider that as I write.

I swear it's not just me being a masochistic/sadistic ghost ship captain. JJ's character exists for reasons! Beyond the flirty fluff- really he does!
(I've kinda said it before to others, that not all readers have to be members of the ghost ship. But oh boy do you get the "Full" experience of this story if you are. Apologies in advance. )

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
9 hours ago
Why author, why must you remind me of JJ? I was trying to not mention him. Thinking how sad he would be after Meng's death. Let me just borrow myself in some mushrooms in this corner on the ghost ship.

Rosa/Meng are strong people so yea I'm sure she would eventually get through it all, the isekai could either be a catalyst or the long road since now she would have to deal with Rosa's past as well but that could be a catalyst to letting her know what she had lost as Meng. She can make comparisons now. View More

CCmei: JJ does too!

Technically all the Parks do are bc that's how they technically met her. Anyways, JJ particularly dislikes him. If Meng ever says she going to visit her father or has a phone call with him, JJ is like right behind/worried/ready for the aftermath. It's hard for him not to judge both of her parents for the hurt/situation they've put on her.
(lol wasn't their first meeting romantic?)
M: I looked like the ghost girl from the ring and scared the hell outta everyone. Esp this one.
JJ: .....o/////o
M: See he's scared just from remembering it. -_-*
JJ: ....you were pretty...small...and pretty....like a fairy....
M: there there no need to lie to make me feel better. I was a drowned rat.
*JH pops in: Super ugly! Everyone thought I brought home a water Gwisin! ヽ(.◕ฺˇд ˇ◕ฺ;)ノ
*JS pops in: True. She wouldn't move or talk to anyone after JJ dragged her in. It was quite ghostly.
*Sunny (2nd sis SJ!)pops in: Yeah yeah! I only got her in the bath after like an hour, she's only nodded or responded to JJ but that's like bc he was a little kid and shit. (๑꒪▿꒪)* Hey MengMeng did you know JJ still kept the dress you wea-
*EJ (eldest sis!) enters: Ah I remember that. We kept sending food and messages through JJ like he was a little runner. Ah it was so cute how he kept finding excuses to stay by her side. (✿◠‿◠)
JJ: o/////o
M: Where the hell did you all come from?!!!

Okay enough of the Park siblings cameo- you guys go back into my drafts. Get back in there!

A concept of this story is "Letting go". Just not in the way a lot of readers (esp romance readers) are used to.

The goal/journey is for Rosalia to let go of the resentment/rage/hurt of her first life with the Ventrellas, as you slowly see her fall for them (and maybe readers are falling too). They're not perfect but there were just so many misunderstandings and stories cut short between them all when this wacky family had always had the potential to be something more than what they had.

With Meng, it's about letting go of the 'love'/loyalty/toxicity that ultimately stems her hurt/trauma. It was a toxic family love she should have let go of, but that's easier said than done. It wouldn't hurt so much if she 'didn't care'. But she did (and she still does)

Rosalia/Meng can't fully love/trust again bc she's still holding on to that pain.
It's like she let an arrow wound heal over without ever pulling the weapon out. Sometimes it can't be helped, bc pulling it out means bleeding out- and she's escape mode since that time. At the time she couldn't afford to pull it out, she had to keep moving. Later, that sharp arrow is still in there, scar tissue and all, and if she moves in the wrong way it still cuts her from the inside. Because she let it scar over, it hurts every time anyone tries to help her remove it. Because that means ripping through all that scar tissue and opening the wound all over again.

I feel like....even if she didn't become Rosalia....she would have reached that point eventually. She would have still been able, would have been able to pull it out and heal right (bc she's already healed, she's already been slowly healed elsewhere).
That's why, even though she's been thrown in this isekai type rebirth with double the trauma as Rosalia, she has a better chance of healing NOW. Not to mention all the meddling butterfly effects she's having on everyone.

Lots of complicated relationships- thanks for reading through it still.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
10 hours ago

CCmei: JJ does too!

Technically all the Parks do are bc that's how they technically met her. Anyways, JJ particularly dislikes him. If Meng ever says she going to visit her father or has a phone call with him, JJ is like right behind/worried/ready for the aftermath. It's hard for him not to judge both of her parents for the hurt/situation they've put on her.
(lol wasn't their first meeting romantic?)
M: I looked like the ghost girl from the ring and scared the hell outta everyone. Esp this one.
JJ: .....o/////o
M: See he's scared just from remembering it. -_-*
JJ: ....you were pretty...small...and pretty....like a fairy....
M: there there no need to lie to make me feel better. I was a drowned rat.
*JH pops in: Super ugly! Everyone thought I brought home a water Gwisin! ヽ(.◕ฺˇд ˇ◕ฺ;)ノ
*JS pops in: True. She wouldn't move or talk to anyone after JJ dragged her in. It was quite ghostly.
*Sunny (2nd sis SJ!)pops in: Yeah yeah! I only got her in the bath after like an hour, she's only nodded or responded to JJ but that's like bc he was a little kid and shit. (๑꒪▿꒪)* Hey MengMeng did you know JJ still kept the dress you wea-
*EJ (eldest sis!) enters: Ah I remember that. We kept sending food and messages through JJ like he was a little runner. Ah it was so cute how he kept finding excuses to stay by her side. (✿◠‿◠)
JJ: o/////o
M: Where the hell did you all come from?!!!

Okay enough of the Park siblings cameo- you guys go back into my drafts. Get back in there!

A concept of this story is "Letting go". Just not in the way a lot of readers (esp romance readers) are used to.

The goal/journey is for Rosalia to let go of the resentment/rage/hurt of her first life with the Ventrellas, as you slowly see her fall for them (and maybe readers are falling too). They're not perfect but there were just so many misunderstandings and stories cut short between them all when this wacky family had always had the potential to be something more than what they had.

With Meng, it's about letting go of the 'love'/loyalty/toxicity that ultimately stems her hurt/trauma. It was a toxic family love she should have let go of, but that's easier said than done. It wouldn't hurt so much if she 'didn't care'. But she did (and she still does)

Rosalia/Meng can't fully love/trust again bc she's still holding on to that pain.
It's like she let an arrow wound heal over without ever pulling the weapon out. Sometimes it can't be helped, bc pulling it out means bleeding out- and she's escape mode since that time. At the time she couldn't afford to pull it out, she had to keep moving. Later, that sharp arrow is still in there, scar tissue and all, and if she moves in the wrong way it still cuts her from the inside. Because she let it scar over, it hurts every time anyone tries to help her remove it. Because that means ripping through all that scar tissue and opening the wound all over again.

I feel like....even if she didn't become Rosalia....she would have reached that point eventually. She would have still been able, would have been able to pull it out and heal right (bc she's already healed, she's already been slowly healed elsewhere).
That's why, even though she's been thrown in this isekai type rebirth with double the trauma as Rosalia, she has a better chance of healing NOW. Not to mention all the meddling butterfly effects she's having on everyone.

Lots of complicated relationships- thanks for reading through it still.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
10 hours ago
This family certainly has more room to grow than Meng's family. To begin with, Meng already passed away. Also her parents already divorced and doesn't seem to have love for each other anymore, but at least you left a clue that Meng's mother and brother are slowly healing, so I have hope that even after she left that world they will continue to heal in the midst of a dead family member. Not sure how I feel about Meng's father. I guess I really dislike him for what he did to Meng... View More

CCmei: Shushie >_>

Stop calling me out on my animes, shussssssssshhhhhhhh, you know too much. Or about any of my maybe references. Don't think about it any further!!! >_>

Ventrella menfolks......*sigh*, at least, this father and son in law combo get along quite well. Despite what some ppl may think of their characters/personalities. What a.....fun....family. There's a reason why everyone falls under Maria's hands in this household. (though she certainly has her own messed up actions and problems too) It brings....some sense of order?

Please work on and raise the twins well in this timeline, please? (well...they're trying....even Gable) and Freddy multi-tasking....lots of things to dabble in. His work, more design projects, playtime with his dau-er I mean Rosa's lessons, getting distracted with the latest fascinating object, Alfonso's schedule putting him back to work, lots to do. Yes. noooooooo time to mess with Ladki at all. Nope. Why ever would he do that? noooooooo.
(be prepared for needy/sulking Maria next chapter. Be prepared for the grossness) (a*** she's still young- even parents get sick of their own kids- want alone time) (pls pray for Freddy when his wife gets her claws on him *_*)

As awful as they ALL are, I still really like this family and their dynamics. Unlike some folks (even in real life unfortunately), there's actually potential/room to grow better together. Because people never stop growing- and they shouldn't forget that just bc they're 'grown ups'.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
11 hours ago

CCmei: Shushie >_>

Stop calling me out on my animes, shussssssssshhhhhhhh, you know too much. Or about any of my maybe references. Don't think about it any further!!! >_>

Ventrella menfolks......*sigh*, at least, this father and son in law combo get along quite well. Despite what some ppl may think of their characters/personalities. What a.....fun....family. There's a reason why everyone falls under Maria's hands in this household. (though she certainly has her own messed up actions and problems too) It brings....some sense of order?

Please work on and raise the twins well in this timeline, please? (well...they're trying....even Gable) and Freddy multi-tasking....lots of things to dabble in. His work, more design projects, playtime with his dau-er I mean Rosa's lessons, getting distracted with the latest fascinating object, Alfonso's schedule putting him back to work, lots to do. Yes. noooooooo time to mess with Ladki at all. Nope. Why ever would he do that? noooooooo.
(be prepared for needy/sulking Maria next chapter. Be prepared for the grossness) (a*** she's still young- even parents get sick of their own kids- want alone time) (pls pray for Freddy when his wife gets her claws on him *_*)

As awful as they ALL are, I still really like this family and their dynamics. Unlike some folks (even in real life unfortunately), there's actually potential/room to grow better together. Because people never stop growing- and they shouldn't forget that just bc they're 'grown ups'.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
11 hours ago
When you mentioned HxH I think of Lukas as Gon and Amar as Killua lol

Aside from that, Freddy told the snake there's something better and sent it after Amar. Is he toying around?! He knows he shouldn't kill Amar but he still sent the snake. Must be fun for him hearing Amar getting all confused and scare. Papa Freddy, please just focus on Rosa and Lily and stop this nonsense. You can't even care for your daughters well yet you're taking time to bother a kid. You should even use that time to woo Maria.

Grampa too. He started this troop but he's not even taking responsibility of it and just run off. All these ***** men in the Ventrella family.... View More

CCmei: Right? Super fun times on the comments this week.

Like Amar notices those secret guards from before he somehow caught on to the snake and is quite shaken by it. Despite what he shows in front of Lukas, who has kidnapped him back from the Ventrellas.(in time for some hunting! As much fun as the trio have together, Rosa isn't quite ready to HunterxHunter style take down some magical fantasy rampaging bacon, nor is she escaping mama& papa's supervision lockdown soon. They just don't trust her....for obvious reasons)

The signs of Ladki bothers Amar for sure! He knows its out there and he knows he's being stupid for being reminded of his mother, let alone even hoping that maybe she's still out there, ready to pick him up any day now (but he's 6 T_T so I can't blame him). If anything, he's not really afraid of the snake- at least not while around Gable.
(or grampa ron- who does come back for dinner, man he sure is around Gable's house sooooooo much) (can those old dudes pls do a better job at handling the troop's childcare/unintentional orphange? pls? I mean I know I wrote them that way and that Amar is a bit of a special case but you know.... )

Makes ppl wonder just what is it that made him ask for his mama? And then there's the thing with the poison pomegranates still going on. I'm thinking the biggest questions readers may have are along the lines of "What the hell is going through papa Freddy's head?" He's showing the be a more motivationally confusing/complec character as time goes on.
Also his reaction to Rosa in this chapter is quite awkward/sad/funny.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
1 day ago

CCmei: Right? Super fun times on the comments this week.

Like Amar notices those secret guards from before he somehow caught on to the snake and is quite shaken by it. Despite what he shows in front of Lukas, who has kidnapped him back from the Ventrellas.(in time for some hunting! As much fun as the trio have together, Rosa isn't quite ready to HunterxHunter style take down some magical fantasy rampaging bacon, nor is she escaping mama& papa's supervision lockdown soon. They just don't trust her....for obvious reasons)

The signs of Ladki bothers Amar for sure! He knows its out there and he knows he's being stupid for being reminded of his mother, let alone even hoping that maybe she's still out there, ready to pick him up any day now (but he's 6 T_T so I can't blame him). If anything, he's not really afraid of the snake- at least not while around Gable.
(or grampa ron- who does come back for dinner, man he sure is around Gable's house sooooooo much) (can those old dudes pls do a better job at handling the troop's childcare/unintentional orphange? pls? I mean I know I wrote them that way and that Amar is a bit of a special case but you know.... )

Makes ppl wonder just what is it that made him ask for his mama? And then there's the thing with the poison pomegranates still going on. I'm thinking the biggest questions readers may have are along the lines of "What the hell is going through papa Freddy's head?" He's showing the be a more motivationally confusing/complec character as time goes on.
Also his reaction to Rosa in this chapter is quite awkward/sad/funny.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
1 day ago
Oh wow. Influx on chapter comments! I'm excited. It's always nice to see what others would ask. I've been meaning to ask, doesn't Amar notice the snake? Maybe he doesn't feel it as dangerous, or maybe he feels it's quite similar to his mother. View More
I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
1 day ago
That was dumb in her part but Lily wouldn't have done well either if she has kept it separate. Lily wouldn't know how to make more money or spend it wisely.

I think the husband also set aside money for the wife to use usually but anything leftover usually goes back to the husband. View More

CCmei: Oh oh oh nerding time

So doweries could be used in many ways, from a wife's safenest to something of a status/weight against her new family (the usual drama stuff), or even just full out taken by the new family, the money spent & invested in their interests. Many ways.

Records do show wealthy noblewomen and even merchant classes maintaining their own doweries and businesses under the doweries during the reinssance period. Say if their husband does and they don't have a "claim", they can still rely on their doweries. Well managed buisness can be managed by the wife/maiden family soley, without aid from the husband.
But there are a lot of case by case basis and honestly the world was not kind to women (unless you were a noble.lugging around power and stuff, still not fair but better)

When original Lilyanne married in to that royal family, everything joined together, including the family wealth beyond what grampa has stored away. She took the "traditional" and very "praiseworthy" choice of trusting it all to her mother in law and husband. Not like she knows what's going on at all in the real world. Lets just join everything together and finally be happy. Uh huh. Yep. Great job Lilyanne.

I have a feeling that's not what Rosalia would have done, but hey she was a villainess. Not like our pious and good (dumb) Lilyanne! Everything a woman "should" be.

(I admit I enjoy making original Lilyanne eventually suffer with her disaster wake up call but by then everything was a big ball of too late)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
2 days ago
Should dowry matter though? Honestly Rosa could probably rake in much money than marrying her off. If she was to marry, wouldn't the money she makes be under her husband's household? Maybe not since she is Ventrella heiress. Not sure how this works out. View More

CCmei: Love solves all- Not

Right, I've been setting up JJ as that potential love interest/source of healings&feels when it's biggest bro bossman that "saved" her in the first place. AND THATS OK TOO. Seriously, more people should just do the right/good thing and help/'save' others.

That's also a fun point to bring up on troops ettiqutte, you literally do not have to get with everyone you may "save". There's a lot of ideals with a hero swooping in to save the damsel in distress, getting her gratitude.
Obviously this does not happen with Meng & Bossman (also their much bigger age gap is not sexy at all). Yet they still have a healthy close relationship? What?
Where's the cliche romance??? You can have platonic relationships with people? Of the opposite gender? Not a secret harem of ppl just being in love with you? Unheard of!!!

All jokes aside, it doesn't "click" in the way JJ got through and built up that blurred/potential relationship with Meng. Also I believe the heart is a finicky thing, lol. There's reasons it's JJ and not any of his older 'eligible' brothers. (different problems too)

As bad as Rosa is now, she was far worse then. Her defenses were Thick esp right after this mental trauma. (Something a cute little kid could get through easier than someone her age or older)
Rosalia was born after Meng was in her mid 20s , over a decade of maturing, growing and just healing from that scene. She's not perfect but she's much mentally more capable as a 25/26 year old than if she died and transmigrated at 17. A lot more healed (and in control/confident. Meng is a character that isn't afraid of using her looks/beauty to get what she wants- something that may be looked down upon) (but think of the life lessons she's learned plus her character)

Ah man, the good old engagement.
This is where the plot gets tricky. At face value, very cliche- in the back, very tricky historical/political medium level fantasy mess. I'm still working on CLEANING that part of the plot and simplify it down.

I can say that Freddy has some very bad standards himself (spoiler hint: he's been engaged multiple times! Even as a child bc you know historical politics) but uh.....yeah, complicated characters who make some possibly retarded choices. Some pieces of the puzzle missing with their death in the last timeline. In this one though? Man he's taking this engagement of hers pretty relaxed. I wonder what he's planning? Or what this entire family is doing/thinking. Gosh everyone needs therapy.

(Oh and he has daughters, that means...DOWERIES!!!! Hmm yeah they better profit from this beyond a possible dowery loss)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
2 days ago
I like how you mentioned he wasn't even the lover. It brings back our previous conversation how other cliche stories always have the lover solve all the solution. Also even if he did saved her that time, she's still mentally scarred. She still has a lot of healing to do.

Freddy sure is awkward with his relationship with Chip. He knows Rosa doesn't want to marry Erik and claims she's priceless but he never made the action as a father to decline the marriage and just let it be. I can see why Rosa still believes Freddy is trying to gain something out of this marriage between her and Erik, but to what avails us readers are still left in the dark. He likes money but I don't believe he likes it more than Rosa so perhaps he believes it would serve as some protection for her to marry Erik... not sure how though. View More

CCmei: Right, the blame is often misplaced in Asian households- even when it's clearly unfair.

It took Meng years to confront the truth, and the blame as would many youths unlearning toxic behaviors. She's still unlearning it as Rosalia, as she's often seen defending her 'real' parents in her heart. That causes a lot of confusion/conflicts with the Ventrella parents (who she has 'given up' on). Because abuse really does things to someone's mentality and Rosalia is still so damaged without her realizing it fully.

It's part of her regrets from Meng that she couldn't fully confront her dad for his wrongs, bring it out into the open, before it was too late. It's been hinted that:
1. It was a messy divorce/fall out situation.
2. Meng doesn't like to talk about it. (Run away)
-in the 1st 'modern' flashback scene she's about 19? Still a college student (with JJ still in HS, about 16?)
- Previous chapters flashbacks have them older, both being in the 20s w/ JJ in college and Meng already working professionally

I think she's always had a strong spirit. But fiel piety and the desire to be good for her family suppressed her (which is very common for young people). I also wish to point out that her younger brother's disability must have put a greater sense of responsibility on her (a parallel but different situation than Lily &Rosa). I don't wish to diminish her character, but she was YOUNG.

In this 2nd flashback scene she's 13/14?

As her future 'bossman' JH guesses, somehow stumbling upon this very wrong scene of an unwilling little girl and just...grabbing her and running? Yeah he 'saved' her- and it wasn't the typical hero rescuing the beauty. JH isn't even the love interest, you know how easy it could have been to do that? "oh swoon he saved me and now I doki doki him"

That doesn't diminish his importance (lol you see their yelling/bantering relationship?), or anyone's. It was just one person seeing something wasn't right and going out their way to do something about it. Lots of people don't bother.
Not just Meng, but plenty of ppl, especially youths in vulnerable situations, just need that one chance. A little support, someone telling them it's ok to say 'no'. That helping hand to pull them in the right direction.

After that- it was still her that ran, and kept running.

Some readers can prolly guess how this may connect to the side character Yuna and his backstory. Why Rosa somehow liked 'grumpy cat' all the way back. Fun times coming for everyone.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
2 days ago

CCmei: Right, the blame is often misplaced in Asian households- even when it's clearly unfair.

It took Meng years to confront the truth, and the blame as would many youths unlearning toxic behaviors. She's still unlearning it as Rosalia, as she's often seen defending her 'real' parents in her heart. That causes a lot of confusion/conflicts with the Ventrella parents (who she has 'given up' on). Because abuse really does things to someone's mentality and Rosalia is still so damaged without her realizing it fully.

It's part of her regrets from Meng that she couldn't fully confront her dad for his wrongs, bring it out into the open, before it was too late. It's been hinted that:
1. It was a messy divorce/fall out situation.
2. Meng doesn't like to talk about it. (Run away)
-in the 1st 'modern' flashback scene she's about 19? Still a college student (with JJ still in HS, about 16?)
- Previous chapters flashbacks have them older, both being in the 20s w/ JJ in college and Meng already working professionally

I think she's always had a strong spirit. But fiel piety and the desire to be good for her family suppressed her (which is very common for young people). I also wish to point out that her younger brother's disability must have put a greater sense of responsibility on her (a parallel but different situation than Lily &Rosa). I don't wish to diminish her character, but she was YOUNG.

In this 2nd flashback scene she's 13/14?

As her future 'bossman' JH guesses, somehow stumbling upon this very wrong scene of an unwilling little girl and just...grabbing her and running? Yeah he 'saved' her- and it wasn't the typical hero rescuing the beauty. JH isn't even the love interest, you know how easy it could have been to do that? "oh swoon he saved me and now I doki doki him"

That doesn't diminish his importance (lol you see their yelling/bantering relationship?), or anyone's. It was just one person seeing something wasn't right and going out their way to do something about it. Lots of people don't bother.
Not just Meng, but plenty of ppl, especially youths in vulnerable situations, just need that one chance. A little support, someone telling them it's ok to say 'no'. That helping hand to pull them in the right direction.

After that- it was still her that ran, and kept running.

Some readers can prolly guess how this may connect to the side character Yuna and his backstory. Why Rosa somehow liked 'grumpy cat' all the way back. Fun times coming for everyone.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
3 days ago
Meng is someone who fell into the whole filial piety. Quite interesting it's a concept that's more known in Asian culture. So even when her father was horrible, she doesn't blame him. It takes an outsider who can see the situation as wrong to save her. She wouldn't have the heart to run away on her own even if she feels it's wrong. View More
I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
3 days ago

asphyxia778: I needed time to calm myself as I was crying after reading the chapter.

I love how Rosa's memories blend in with reality and how it's sometimes hard to know whether it's memories or reality. I enjoy that. It makes me immersed in the moment and the emotions as they overpower Rosa's control and spill out. After all it's impossible to hold back the ocean with simply a wall and no matter how far you run the waves will crash into you.

I always felt something was off with Rosa's reaction to the arranged marriage. The way she was trying to make herself emotionally distant from it. Thinking that she'll be killed or that won't like her. It wasn't just the prince she hates, she hated the attentdants and the people keeping watch when she went to meet the stupid prince. There must be a reason for that.

Now we finally get to know why she's so afraid to acknowledge that Freddy is her father. After all she's being 'sold' again to that prince in place of Lily.

The reason she's afraid of marriage and why she rejected JJ because she was afraid to repeat the same mistakes as her parents. In this chapter it shows that she believes marriage is abuse as her friends say it in her memories and how she let's it slip that her father sold her to try and keep her mother satisfied cause they didn't have money. So she hates the notion of marriage and rejects Jung Joon even though she knows that he was serious about her. And this explains why she was so strict at work and cracked down upon molesters at her job.

That's also why she is trying to convince herself that the Ventrellas are not her parents because they're so in love with each other. She comments that Maria is ignorant or how Freddy is loyal to Maria even when so many women seduce him. She also thinks the pda is gross because she's not used to it and thus tries to ignore the obvious signs that things are different now.

I think we need a different characters pov of Rosalia, especially Freddy because he definitely misunderstood why Rosa was so upset. I need one of Maria too. Or Alphonse.

I'm sure I'm not a masochist but I want more chapters with trauma feels cause I can definitely relate more to our beloved characters. Hit me the best you can Hamster.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C106
3 days ago
Makino would've worked out too, but she didn't have any arc based on solving her issues. Maybe someone like Camie would fit Barbara more.

Any of the other menbers in Starwhat crew would've made for great mc's too. They all got the sob background story. That's like a must. View More

CCmei: Lol that is quite the comparison (I would guess Makino type character? shows up once in a while in the old home town).

Those POVs are exactly it though. 100% accurate.
Lukas 'leading'
Rosa being bodyguard protected like the boss she is
and Amar just taking his sweet time observing everything in the back.

Different povs! (everyone exists in different leading genres lol)

That's why we can only let Rosalia hold onto the MC microphone/camera. Lukas will still land them all into horrible situations like the shounen hero/MC he is but it's going to be narrated by a screaming Rosalia. Shenanigans and secret plots all running around.

I'm sure if you gave the mic to any one of Luffy's crew members, the story would be different. (.....is UT just a OP fanfiction?...oh nooooooo)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago

CCmei: Lol that is quite the comparison (I would guess Makino type character? shows up once in a while in the old home town).

Those POVs are exactly it though. 100% accurate.
Lukas 'leading'
Rosa being bodyguard protected like the boss she is
and Amar just taking his sweet time observing everything in the back.

Different povs! (everyone exists in different leading genres lol)

That's why we can only let Rosalia hold onto the MC microphone/camera. Lukas will still land them all into horrible situations like the shounen hero/MC he is but it's going to be narrated by a screaming Rosalia. Shenanigans and secret plots all running around.

I'm sure if you gave the mic to any one of Luffy's crew members, the story would be different. (.....is UT just a OP fanfiction?...oh nooooooo)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago
It's okay. I never expect Barbara to go join Rosa's henchmen. She's like the passing Princess Vivi or Shirahoshi? Lol the drastic difference comparing servant to princess though xD

It is interesting seeing Lukas being dragged around by his more villain like friends. Usually male shounen leads just drags everyone with them. In this case maybe it just feels vice versa cause it's Rosa.

R: Lukas in front and Amar in back as my guards.
L: I'm walking in front so I'm leader.
A: Walking in the back let's me see what they're both doing in the background.

Different POV lol View More

CCmei: SHUSHIE!!!! No one needs to know about the video games or that I played asssian's Creed (which was interestingly enough created out of the talks of sequels to the prince of perisa series) or what that means in this story/characters. Or how it fits anyone's backstory & mmmorpg classification. (I just could live with the thought you would go through dozens of chapters believing we just were making a children poison taster sales shop for backstory on the big bad mysterious Amar's father)
Ah my references 😭

Don't reveal me too bad yo.
(it's fine bc the more references I research the more I find THAT was inspired by something else too)

Let's just go back to soft happy UT and Rosa's adventures to find one piece (of good rice). There is no sadness or tragedy on this world except for the sheer violence Rosalia not so secretly wishes to engage in. Or to her engagement. THIS IS BASICALLY AN OTOME VILLAINESS NOBLE GIRL STORY OKAY.....

Rosalia does not appreciate having the show stolen by anyone but the rightful heroine. (Zzzzzzzzz)

But she does appreciate more Gable time, and they keep stumbling into weird adventures and foodie snack runs that push them deeper into all sorts of side and main troubles and oh my god it IS just a one piece fanfiction 🤯

As long as no one hands over the reigns to "most likely to be a shounen hero" Lukas we should be fine....right? Right?!
(It's honestly very fun having this Gryffindor drag along his two little not so "hero material" friends)

Man I don't wanna get your hopes too much for named wcharacters though. Like Barbara, who is happy to stay and upgrade as a senior kitchen maid/Ventrella employee even after marriage but that's okay bc it's slice of life and not everyone needs kiddy level adventures & excitement and someone gotta help keep those kitchens running as those 3 shokugeki wreck things and bring in more ingredients.

KK Thanka for playing my reference game and too many obscure clues search. Good night for now. (Don't reveal me too hard!) (Or expect much!)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago

CCmei: SHUSHIE!!!! No one needs to know about the video games or that I played asssian's Creed (which was interestingly enough created out of the talks of sequels to the prince of perisa series) or what that means in this story/characters. Or how it fits anyone's backstory & mmmorpg classification. (I just could live with the thought you would go through dozens of chapters believing we just were making a children poison taster sales shop for backstory on the big bad mysterious Amar's father)
Ah my references 😭

Don't reveal me too bad yo.
(it's fine bc the more references I research the more I find THAT was inspired by something else too)

Let's just go back to soft happy UT and Rosa's adventures to find one piece (of good rice). There is no sadness or tragedy on this world except for the sheer violence Rosalia not so secretly wishes to engage in. Or to her engagement. THIS IS BASICALLY AN OTOME VILLAINESS NOBLE GIRL STORY OKAY.....

Rosalia does not appreciate having the show stolen by anyone but the rightful heroine. (Zzzzzzzzz)

But she does appreciate more Gable time, and they keep stumbling into weird adventures and foodie snack runs that push them deeper into all sorts of side and main troubles and oh my god it IS just a one piece fanfiction 🤯

As long as no one hands over the reigns to "most likely to be a shounen hero" Lukas we should be fine....right? Right?!
(It's honestly very fun having this Gryffindor drag along his two little not so "hero material" friends)

Man I don't wanna get your hopes too much for named wcharacters though. Like Barbara, who is happy to stay and upgrade as a senior kitchen maid/Ventrella employee even after marriage but that's okay bc it's slice of life and not everyone needs kiddy level adventures & excitement and someone gotta help keep those kitchens running as those 3 shokugeki wreck things and bring in more ingredients.

KK Thanka for playing my reference game and too many obscure clues search. Good night for now. (Don't reveal me too hard!) (Or expect much!)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago
So Amar didn't learn to read and write at grampa's camp. Looks like Amar's father was already a pretty established man when he had Amar. I mean given Aishwarya was the main wife, I could see him as training Amar to be his heir. We already saw him living quite lavishly as a child with his mother having servants and being able to obtain fruit not from Persia. Wait if you mentioned Assassin's Creed that's major spoilers. XD Should I be thankful? I should. That game has one of the best backstories to games. I guess that does fit into Amar's role as assassin if he ever was to be in a mmorpg. Now I can see why his father is quite the dangerous man and why many would hate him.

Guess we won't see Lukas backstory for a while either. Keeping him away from Erik.

Poor Rosa. All she wants is to eat some good food. But yea, she's going to have to help her henchmen with their issues in order to use them for her issues. And who is to say she won't get more henchmen. There's still Vincent and Tamara and even Yuna. Right now she got to help Barbara and we just learned her name! This is going to be one long journey. At least Captain Rosa isn't as silly as Luffy. She's not Lukas, shounen male lead material after all. View More
I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago

CCmei: Lol there's my OP influence haunting me again. Rosa's simple goals of surviving and eating ruined by all these plots and side plots. Sheesh. How many 'islands' does she have to deal with, this is more grampa territory (but she does so well as Terry in pirate AU)

Anywhooooooo back on the backstories that no one else really reads and I can't stop historically nerd referencing. I'm slapping myself right now NOT to give away too much. Historically during this time (literally the entire couple hundred of years after the turn of the millennia )Persia is seeing a lot of warning/conquest- they're basically changing ruling groups every generation after the last one dies. The Turks, the Assassins or Nizari Ismailis (okay I admit I ref. a lot of Assasin Creed aesthetics in my mind, bc come on that's cool AND they did a lot of the background historical research to 13th century Italy already for me ), oh the Mongols tug of war- all the mongols, so much mongols- back to the Turks now Ottomans in the 15th century. Oh fun times for this land.

So just what is Amar's father doing? Who knows! At least he ain't dead and suffering. In fact he's making a killing *cough* I can say....um....he doesn't stay a simple poison tester/commoner. Amar's a pretty chill though very secretive little kid but he already doesn't fall in line or easily 'serve' others (byebye Philippe). Part nature and part nurture, his dad isn't doing all this to just 'sell' him. (I'd also like to bring up this very minor point of....besides the troops, where/when did a 6 year old learn to read&write? And doesn't have as much troubles with it as Lukas does) It would be cheaper to raise a bunch of orphans and train the ones who survive if that was the purpose.
Also, I don't mean for this to be stereotypical or racist given that area's modern-day state of war and struggle- but just think of "terrorism" and what that could mean here. Don't forget the magical influence and potential resources possible.

DO you see again why I suffer so much creating side characters? This is ONE kiddy side character and I gotta build his whole backstory/world and all the not-cardboard characters involved in it.
Arrrg let's not get into Lukas backstory on how he was even born or why Gable is running the way he is*slams head* or the political turmoil that brought down the stupid prince and got his head chopped off- murdered Lilyanne's children blah blah blah. *groans*

My fault. It's all my fault for being an overly ambitious derp. LEt's go back to the farms. This is too much PAIN and facts to research and check.

Yes, next arc after these hunts and Ladki&pommegranites - Tuscany style farms. Let's see the spring harvests. Grampa's fields and winery this time. Get rice Rosa. See to your stupid fiancee halfway while his head is still on his shoulders. Keep Lukas away from your stupid fiancee (Amar helps too *sigh* no bad Lukas). Then keep Amar away from the egg fried rice once you got it down (Lukas helps....no bad Amar....no). Then keep your dad from swooning/losing himself in architecture but ooooo look at the pretty buildings, oooo arches (Alfonso....does not help. Oooooo architecture)

Those internal conflicts will see light eventually. Lots will change with no sick Lilyanne (nor sick Maria), much butterfly effects. All for out one MAIN villainy character Rosalia, no no there are no other main character, everyone ignore the villainess's henchmen. They're nothing special or anything, just some brats she picked up that are more trouble than they're worth,

But damn will she need them for all those future OP enemies (that they all have)

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
6 days ago
I did remember how that threw me off. Evidently Amar's father's is a commoner who lived well, despite his status and station. I might be looking too much into what would he have to give to gain all that but if this is anything like the Chinese poison testers, there did exist rankings. Poison testers for higher ranked people may have the ability to live quite well. It wouldn't be an issue for him to be able to afford all that. I suppose he was a poison tester for a Shah? King? I suppose he just breeds children to be poison testers for nobles and make huge living off selling his children as services, hence why he would guard them. I still don't see how Aishwarya would have had loved this guy... but to each of their own.

Maybe I'm seeing the whole issue differently. I had assumed the whole goal is to find who was behind the Ventrella downfall, so I'm linking all charcaters that have a name to this but the goal could've been something else. The goal could've just been to expand trade and get all the ingredients she had been craving for. The mystery is a side goal for her. Wow I feel like referencing to OP a lot. How Luffy's goal is rather simple, journey around and become a pirate king which to him is the freedom to travel as he wishes, but in order to achieve that he had to go against the government and other pirates. I suppose if UT is similar, Rosa's goal is for "free trade" to get all the ingredients and food she want but in order to do so she'll have to deal with the government of different countries and even the Bicchieri family.

Then Freddy and Maria's disappearance might be an internal conflict then or enemies that hit closer to home. It does seem they're aiming to keep Ron away. Aiming for Lily? Everyone but Lily died or disappeared in the end. Except grampa did came back after Rosa died. Not sure if he found Freddy and Maria though. I feel like I'm going through deja vu and had written these theories before lol.

I suppose we will have to meet more enemies. Each arc there may be a new enemy if this is anything like OP. But there's someone in the background of all this. View More

CCmei: See this is what happens if I give hints- it could mean anything giving world history. Feel free to diverge, it could go anywhere!

Sit back and enjoy the (messy) ride.
(in the backstory spoiler I gave earlier, it was back to Freddy's and Aishwarya younger days in the troops. Far before Freddy even got married. But it is a hint what kind of 'adventures' suited Freddy more. He's not exactly a 'wave sword and slay goblin hoards' kinda guy.)

I reveal waaaay too many details and word vomit so it's easy to get confused.

In one of my comments (paragraphs), I revealed before that the harem is based on the ones in historic Peria and the Imperial harem Ottoman Empire. 1 main wife/consort (usually a high upper class woman)- 4 Legal ranked wives - countless favored court ladies and concubines - even more countless slave girls- the 'untouched' part of the harems (those who did not have relations with the master, and could be 'gifted' away) - and all the employees who served them would be in the 'harem'. Yes that includes children. Busy busy.
One reference, in the Imperial ottoman harem the ranks were: Gözde (the Favourite)(max 4), Ikbal (the Fortunate) or Kadın (the Woman/Wife). A cool thing was that the imperial harem was often referred to by historians as a 'female university' because of harem members competing with poetry/games/discussions/learned arts against one another.

So in the flashback, I called Aishwarya 'wife' but who knows what her rank really was. She was given her own lavish apartments and garden quarters along with a lot of 'tribute' gifts and rewards. She must be at least a "Fortunate" rank if not a "Favorite" as lower ranked girls would share dorms and sleep in shared quarters. Not to mention all the rewards she would receive (jewels, goods, her son's sweets lol, etc etc).

You said before using the clue of 'poison tasters' were usually slaves/low ranks, thus their lives were disposable. If Amar's father was known by that even by a portion of his enemies- then he didn't necessarily have it good all his life. And I've said before to other readers- they're not necessarily 'nobles' and certainly not royals. But again different cultures.
He did manage to raise the resources to house a harem and afford it all. From Damia&Darius' talk, his children are all heavily guarded- the 'harem' would have been a very safe/fortified palace. From the hints in the one flashback/dream, it's clear that this is not a man currently concerned about money.

Anyways the time period of this world is again a strange mash up, taking into account grampa and grandaughter reincarnation/transmigrator butterfly effects. It's not as far along as some readers may think despite the 'modern' luxuries Rosalia may enjoy. The effects of the 'Renaissance' didn't touch the commoners historically. And afterall, the vikings are still around- though again this magical world with 'dungeons' 'raids' and magical monsters allow for that battle waring culture to continue,
But very good on grampa's militaristic advancements, oh and the historical chemical fires/warefare! Ah lots I could talk about but shouldn't.

At the present though, there's no active threat from the other side of the mountains. Nor did anything happen in the next 14 years Rosalia lived. Though some trade may be impacted? (those sugar routes are still possible but uh....we got some Bichheirri in 'Venice' and other ports messing things up/strong holding ). Who knows about the future beyond that? (oh damn did the crusades happen?)

Maybe these were too much backstory details, but it's fuuuuuun talking about them.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
1 week ago

CCmei: See this is what happens if I give hints- it could mean anything giving world history. Feel free to diverge, it could go anywhere!

Sit back and enjoy the (messy) ride.
(in the backstory spoiler I gave earlier, it was back to Freddy's and Aishwarya younger days in the troops. Far before Freddy even got married. But it is a hint what kind of 'adventures' suited Freddy more. He's not exactly a 'wave sword and slay goblin hoards' kinda guy.)

I reveal waaaay too many details and word vomit so it's easy to get confused.

In one of my comments (paragraphs), I revealed before that the harem is based on the ones in historic Peria and the Imperial harem Ottoman Empire. 1 main wife/consort (usually a high upper class woman)- 4 Legal ranked wives - countless favored court ladies and concubines - even more countless slave girls- the 'untouched' part of the harems (those who did not have relations with the master, and could be 'gifted' away) - and all the employees who served them would be in the 'harem'. Yes that includes children. Busy busy.
One reference, in the Imperial ottoman harem the ranks were: Gözde (the Favourite)(max 4), Ikbal (the Fortunate) or Kadın (the Woman/Wife). A cool thing was that the imperial harem was often referred to by historians as a 'female university' because of harem members competing with poetry/games/discussions/learned arts against one another.

So in the flashback, I called Aishwarya 'wife' but who knows what her rank really was. She was given her own lavish apartments and garden quarters along with a lot of 'tribute' gifts and rewards. She must be at least a "Fortunate" rank if not a "Favorite" as lower ranked girls would share dorms and sleep in shared quarters. Not to mention all the rewards she would receive (jewels, goods, her son's sweets lol, etc etc).

You said before using the clue of 'poison tasters' were usually slaves/low ranks, thus their lives were disposable. If Amar's father was known by that even by a portion of his enemies- then he didn't necessarily have it good all his life. And I've said before to other readers- they're not necessarily 'nobles' and certainly not royals. But again different cultures.
He did manage to raise the resources to house a harem and afford it all. From Damia&Darius' talk, his children are all heavily guarded- the 'harem' would have been a very safe/fortified palace. From the hints in the one flashback/dream, it's clear that this is not a man currently concerned about money.

Anyways the time period of this world is again a strange mash up, taking into account grampa and grandaughter reincarnation/transmigrator butterfly effects. It's not as far along as some readers may think despite the 'modern' luxuries Rosalia may enjoy. The effects of the 'Renaissance' didn't touch the commoners historically. And afterall, the vikings are still around- though again this magical world with 'dungeons' 'raids' and magical monsters allow for that battle waring culture to continue,
But very good on grampa's militaristic advancements, oh and the historical chemical fires/warefare! Ah lots I could talk about but shouldn't.

At the present though, there's no active threat from the other side of the mountains. Nor did anything happen in the next 14 years Rosalia lived. Though some trade may be impacted? (those sugar routes are still possible but uh....we got some Bichheirri in 'Venice' and other ports messing things up/strong holding ). Who knows about the future beyond that? (oh damn did the crusades happen?)

Maybe these were too much backstory details, but it's fuuuuuun talking about them.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
1 week ago

CCmei: Right, people are underestimating Freddy. If he wanted someone dead or 'disappeared' they already would be. He's no two-bit ******* villain XD

There's the conflict- which side does Freddy see more of the kid. A threat? Or a child of someone he knows? Or just an even bigger threat (like how you find the resemblance of someone in their kid)
(do you know how many prequel/flashback scenes I had to think of to establish the younger Freddy friendship was Aishwarya? Spoiler alert: it involves some assassination fun times. High stake casinos and back alley blood shed, some very odd partner in crime dynamics. BC the type of missions/things that Freddy can do are very different than what Maria or an 'adventure' style troop member can do. Aishwarya seducing a man as Freddy hidden in the dark aims and headshots the target from afar. )

Ehhh since I already essentially spilled to you how Lukas is Germanic (Gable's fam) and half Swedish? (mmmm vikings) , I might as well (not like ppl read these). Amar is half Indian from Aishwarya and his father is that mission gone wrong in....Persia. (which as an empire doesn't exist anymore so like modern-day Iran?)
It's hinted from some of the food Amar likes (sweets &sugar- which is a huge Indian thing with sugar cane- but who really mass processed it into the sugar in history? Don't look up the history of sugar if you don't want more spoilers. The sweets for him to develop a taste for 'lokums', 'cookies', and even halva in his souvenir snacks. The raid site was around a 'Turkey' inspired land- and Amar was familiar with that more than others. Close but not quite to his 'homeland') to the aesthetic of his flashback. Gardens, rugs, the whole harem thing. (though that's not exclusive either- again they're just hints- the water system in that part of the world really is good since ancient times) Even the 'longans' have to be preserved in honey and imported- bc they're still not in India. They can't get it fresh easily. When Rosa was introducing "pickles" he immediately asked "torshi?"

New question though- what does that mean for Amar and our characters if they get involved in this 'side' plot.
(Everyone is the main character of their own story)

MAn I feel bad for leaving so many things in the dark but I just have to- How did the original parents disappear/die in the first place is a huge plothole to solve!
But that didn't happen till the girls are 10. Rosa isn't even 5 for her baptism yet! XD (I'm sorry I'm such a slow and overly ambitious writer). It can't be just Darius, The original Rosalia had plenty of political enemies in the dark and given what we know about European politics and disputes.....uh yeah- draaaaama time.

So many dark spots to uncover, Go Rosa go! You already 'died' so let's see the world for what it is!

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
1 week ago
Looks like Aishwarya and Freddy had long been aiming for someone. Not sure if it's a goal he's still trying to achieve, a goal that led to a chain of events of murder and death. Hmmm... sounds like the assassination attempts to Nadir if it's linked to Persia. I suppose if Aishwarya was looking into that, she might've met her husband while doing an insider assassination job. We did mention she was main wife, but was she main wife because Amar had so much potential? Thinking about it... Persians were the first to use chemical warfare. Maybe Amar's father was someone in charge of that. You hinted at Vikings and that was a different time period so are you bringing chemical warfare to this time period as well? Even though technically it started way earlier, maybe they continued to expand on it, especially when you mentioned grampa's militaristic advancement. I can see other countries trying to enhance other methods of weapon or military warfare to compete. Oh wait if that's so are they trying to go against grampa...wait they might be in war against Romans and Rome is in Italy so they're fighting a war against Italy using chemical warfare?! Then this would have so much to do with the Ventrella, hero family, the hero would be needed to fight in the war but if they kidnapped or killed Freddy and Maria, the hero would be distracted and wouldn't be able to aide in the war...

Okay idk if I'm on the right track. I may have diverged somewhere there. View More

CCmei: Right, people are underestimating Freddy. If he wanted someone dead or 'disappeared' they already would be. He's no two-bit ******* villain XD

There's the conflict- which side does Freddy see more of the kid. A threat? Or a child of someone he knows? Or just an even bigger threat (like how you find the resemblance of someone in their kid)
(do you know how many prequel/flashback scenes I had to think of to establish the younger Freddy friendship was Aishwarya? Spoiler alert: it involves some assassination fun times. High stake casinos and back alley blood shed, some very odd partner in crime dynamics. BC the type of missions/things that Freddy can do are very different than what Maria or an 'adventure' style troop member can do. Aishwarya seducing a man as Freddy hidden in the dark aims and headshots the target from afar. )

Ehhh since I already essentially spilled to you how Lukas is Germanic (Gable's fam) and half Swedish? (mmmm vikings) , I might as well (not like ppl read these). Amar is half Indian from Aishwarya and his father is that mission gone wrong in....Persia. (which as an empire doesn't exist anymore so like modern-day Iran?)
It's hinted from some of the food Amar likes (sweets &sugar- which is a huge Indian thing with sugar cane- but who really mass processed it into the sugar in history? Don't look up the history of sugar if you don't want more spoilers. The sweets for him to develop a taste for 'lokums', 'cookies', and even halva in his souvenir snacks. The raid site was around a 'Turkey' inspired land- and Amar was familiar with that more than others. Close but not quite to his 'homeland') to the aesthetic of his flashback. Gardens, rugs, the whole harem thing. (though that's not exclusive either- again they're just hints- the water system in that part of the world really is good since ancient times) Even the 'longans' have to be preserved in honey and imported- bc they're still not in India. They can't get it fresh easily. When Rosa was introducing "pickles" he immediately asked "torshi?"

New question though- what does that mean for Amar and our characters if they get involved in this 'side' plot.
(Everyone is the main character of their own story)

MAn I feel bad for leaving so many things in the dark but I just have to- How did the original parents disappear/die in the first place is a huge plothole to solve!
But that didn't happen till the girls are 10. Rosa isn't even 5 for her baptism yet! XD (I'm sorry I'm such a slow and overly ambitious writer). It can't be just Darius, The original Rosalia had plenty of political enemies in the dark and given what we know about European politics and disputes.....uh yeah- draaaaama time.

So many dark spots to uncover, Go Rosa go! You already 'died' so let's see the world for what it is!

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
1 week ago
I also agree Freddy would have the means to kill Amar if he really wants to thus I don't think that's his goal. But does Freddy view Amar more of the side from Amar's father or his mother? Many people we have seen so far hate Amar because of who his father is. A parent's sin shouldn't be put onto the child. Amar wasn't even that close with his father. From his memories he was closer with his mother. You did mention Amar is half Indian anf that's coming from Aishwarya, so what is the other half? What ethnicity is his father? Also with something linked to Darius, being such a threat, maybe there's more to that story than just trying to make poison out of blood. It might even be a darker scheme in the background that may have led to Freddy and Maria's disappearance in the original lifetime. We still have much to know. The adults aren't talking and Rosa is still left in the dark about most stuff. Amar and Vincent is also keeping secrets and making deals with Freddy... View More

CCmei: Yep yep, really putting his foot down post Darius.

He also witnesses his daughter deliberately 'run away', straight through a magical barrier and right into danger. What a good indication of his child's character and trouble making expectancy rate. Hahaha no. Chip is not to be trusted. It's one thing for her to roll around the troops and make some pizza. Obviously Rosa is capable of so much more.

Another thing is that being given the Darius case revealed to him just who one of those bothersome brats is (who his parents are). A chapter with that sort of info and Freddy's person conflict is coming, so I don't want to word vomit like usual. But that's a hint there. Freddy is conflicted bc Aishwarya was his 'friend' (though like Rosa he has a hard time admitting these things).

Through all the complications and even the pranks she blasted on his younger self, this person was his 'friend' and she's dead. She's dead from a mission gone wrong, unfortunate but an accepted risk in this world/line of work (as readers can see, Freddy is not bothered by the concept of death). And if we wanted to he could find out more information, more into the gritty details that grampa Ron&Gable have stored away like police evidence.
The problem with the Darius case is that it opened those details to him and put it right in front of his face. The son of his dead friend and quite possibly her 'killer', this very wanted/dangerous individual, is sipping kiddy juice right in his very kitchens. Yeah, Freddy is going to need more wine.

So Amar is literally 6 years old. He's a child. But he's a threat just by existing and who his parents are(which is unfortunate how many times children were put in the same situation in history- we all watched enough dramas to know that). Lukas too technically but he's safe, hidden away and his parentage, though royal, isn't as Danger level concerning.
I can't deny that "killing' Amar hasn't crossed Freddy's mind. He runs through all the simulations for the best most profitable results. Some problems would be eliminated if he just got rid of this kid. But he's conflicted, and it's not bc of Rosalia or anything. But in the end, quietly murdering Amar isn't even in the top 3 plans so it works out.

I see people's concerns but I do have a point out, if Freddy really wanted to murder a poison resistant kid by a magical animal beast, he probably wouldn't be using a poisonous snake. There are just more effective options. He already has guards/spies tailing the kid.

Yes yes and yes on the mentality of the masses. It's why religion was so powerful in those times, life was bleak and there was little to depends on. Society stayed stagnant in that part of the world for so long until 'revolutions' came along, though with a great price.
Grampa Ron is 1 man and literally only in his 40s. He can't change the world from where it was before all that much. The current society is greatly composed of uneducated countryside commoners and working-class citizens. Peaceful villages recovering after generations of strife, minor land wars, famines and monsters (very rpg medieval like no?). It's not odd for people to be placid or worshipful like this.

I was Born the Unloved Twin · C105
1 week ago
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