250 An Accounted Death Resolves All Resentment 6yr

Translator: TheRealSeal, whatsyourissueEditor: TheRealSeal, ICheah

No one would feel good to be deceived and used by their own father like that, whoever it was. What was more, everything had been destroyed for people like Yang Botao!
The one to destroy everything he had was the father who had given him life. It was a quandary indeed.
"He wanted to leave with me but I wouldn’t budge. He left after a few days. I didn’t send him away when he did, I didn’t know how to face him!"
Yang Botao continued, "But I still wanted to keep living here. I wanted to redeem my wrongdoing with my actions, I wanted to keep on serving Yutang and compensate for my mistake until the day I died on the battlefield. I was still very naïve then, thinking that perhaps I could die on the battlefield in some major war and end everything that way. Perhaps I could still be lucky and keep my innocence…"
"I had to guard this secret. Since nobody knew, I can only carry it myself because I have so many brothers of the northern troops behind me… I can’t let them shoulder the shame and