Chapter one: Koiki Kosei
I always thought my life would be normal. A nice family and friends, just a good life to enjoy. I was wrong. Everything I was taught in school about family, were all wrong. I have a greedy and selfish mother who always care about money instead of their family. She always ask for her relatives for money even when she has enough. My father, who is struggling in his job, is getting sick and tired of her behavior and wants a divorce. My little brother who is only 15, is struggling to trust and open to others. And me? I want to die.
To me, I don't think my friends ever liked me. I'm just someone extra. I feel like I don't belong with them. Maybe they'll be better off without me. Their lives are way better than mine. When they go home, they probably be nagged or welcomed back. For me, I get no reply, if my parents are in a bad mood or if they're drunk I probably be beaten up by a anything they find near them while my brother hides in a corner just crying. It hurts. It hurts so bad that I want to end it.
"Hey, Kosei-kun, where's the money I told you to give me?"
"Hey, Kosei-kun, can you just kill yourself already?"
"Why did I give birth to you?"
"Can you shut up?"
"Kosei, can you grab that bat for me?"
"You're just another human being that came out from my genitals."
"You disgust me."
"Give me money."
"Hey Kosei, hey Kosei, hey, hey ,hey ,hey-"
Make it stop. I can't do this anymore. I want to die, I want to die, I want to die.
"Hey, Kosei, you alright?" my friends ask me almost everyday.
"Yes, of course," I reply.
Lies, lies, and more lies again. I'm tired of all of this. Just end it already. If I kill myself right now, everything would get better right? I wouldn't want to experience this crappy life anymore right? No one cares right?
The bell rang, I waved goodbye to my friends and walked towards the train station. I looked to my right and left, no one there. I placed my bag on a bench and walked to the train tracks. I stood in the middle of the tracks and fell down to my knees all broken inside. I want to die, I thought. It's the best solution, I thought. Just die already, I thought.
The sounds of train is near. I stood up with tears and stared at the train coming towards me. The driver of the train honked the whistle again. Thud. Darkness.
SOMEBODY CALL DA AMBULENCE AAAAAAIYA
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