Chapter 40: A return rose
I stand still, maybe a bit too frozen now that the situation has calmed down ...so did Ace.
But right now, this couldn't get any more awkward.
He is just holding me, his arms almost wrapping in my whole body in his. He didn't speak, nor did I. His head rested on my shoulder. I had nudged him once, but he refused to let go. Stubborn fellow of course! Every few minutes he keeps shuffling my hair from my nape, and inhale my scent sharply, which is in fact a new kind of affection to me.
I was a little illiterate on the course of emotions, I had decided to look into it a bit since his confession. Not like the knowledge from internet comes handy, but at least the basics might do me some good. Considering my level of naivety in this.
However, Ace's portray of such things is nothing like what it should be for normal humans, keeping aside the fact if we actually are one.
Standing like that for some time, only brought out something which I had never bothered using ever. If I knew it existed.
Thinking!
From my own mind!
I had never known the intensity I held towards Ace this whole time. Whatever the blue-eyed guy does, creates only attraction. Starting from day 1 when I met him, when he unintentionally saved me, pestered me to get acquainted with him, compelled me to follow him, meet him, then he went all bipolar while I ended up in his home in a piteous condition or when he protected me twice from Arthur or Travis.
When was the last time I had witnessed him during his job?
Everything coming from him, clearly projects and shouts out his confession and feelings towards me.
Those blue orbs, which shifts swiftly when he swaps people, to me. Only me.
Possessiveness, also a part of the specific emotion he holds towards me.
And most all ...…
The uneasy feeling of increasing heartbeat in me when he does such things. It has been going on for a while now, but I couldn't tell him. I was still debating. If our kind could enjoy such leisure. While he kept on assuring me.
Being only the second time besides my chronic trigger.
Did he really do it?
The idiot fool, with useless humor.
Did he actually manage to ...discover the alternate remedy? Is this the new wave of emotions blooming in me?
Will it work?
"When are you .... going to love me back? I'm running out of .... everything!". Ace's whisper finally brought us both back from trance.
Shit! Now even his voice is swallowing up my weak heart in whole. And he is holding me so close, I'm fucking sure he can feel it too. The voice, along with those words …...the effect is dangerous. I can feel growing addicted to them sooner. Deep and dark, alcoholic for me. Bitter sort of, but the need to get drunk is irresistible.
The bitch is just cleansing me from within, and I dunno what the fuck is he using!
I could feel Ace's hands loosening around me, followed by a sigh.
NO, no, no, no! I know what this is. I know it! He is growing tired, waiting all this while.
I knew I just gave him the cold shoulder and poker face, not even ever a smile. And he didn't fucking deserve this. He just said he's running out. If I delay more, will he give up on me? Will his feelings fade or waver?
Should I even drag this anymore? But what can I even say him? What should I put up?
I don't know, but if I didn't stop him this time his possessiveness might win, get the better of him!
I have to, I need to .... because
I too ...….
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Jay didn't know what had been controlling her when her loosely dangling hands automatically lifted themselves up and straight went around Ace's rough shoulders. He immediately stiffened on the unpredicted move of affection shown.
Coming from Jay, he didn't see this.
He was ready to give her more time, all the time she needed because he knew that from his entry in her life, everything had been a challenge for her to accept in the reality. The changes were slow, but obvious. She would have revealed it any time.
But this soon?
And why the fuck is her heart beating more than its regular pace?
It's just stimulating his own instead!
It's just dangerous for herself, since she is ignorant to the effects, she has on him. After all, desires and need are common for everyone.
Ace started fidgeting a little, arguing if should drop the idea of dropping his hold from around her. Now that she was holding him!
Shit, this is complete deep shit!
"Jay?", he tried moving through her snuggle, but she didn't let him. Nothing could have explained her unnatural behavior of being this clingy suddenly.
Jay started without any preparation,
" I don't meet your eyes because I'm afraid I won't stop staring deep into them till long. I don't let your humor entertain me, coz I dunno how to react to them. I feel safe when you openly show your dominance towards me while saving me each time. Your arms are warm and your voice is warmer. I wait impatiently whenever you ask me to meet you, growing restless till you show up. I actually THINK about you in my solitary space. Also, that ….my heart beats faster out of my chronic .... whenever you touch me. I can't explain this any better, sorry coz I'm stupid. Sorry coz I don't give the necessary reaction you deserve. How should I put this ...….is this what you call …? that?".
Ace had indeed underestimated himself!
He didn't know how to express his burst of joy for that moment while he listened to Jay's cute confession. He could feel his arms tightening more with every word she proceeded with. His smile getting wider, since she couldn't see it.
This girl.
How long was she going to keep it all in?
Keep him waiting? In the dark?
Or maybe this is for better, a sudden outburst in the delighting joy she's has been meaning to show? Ace never knew that he could get this happy and pleased with his life right then. He was getting a return confession…... from Jay. And in such an innocent shy manner coming from her which could go all round and melt his heart even more than it is managing to survive. She always had been full of contrasts when it came to situations, but this was beyond anything. The way she was holding him so full of intimacy, describes a whole lot, everything!
Ace chuckled deeply as Jay snuggled her face in the space of his neck, hiding in embarrassment. This side of her is so rare to see.
He ruffled her hair messing it up good to all his pleasure and satisfaction, as she let out an annoyed grunt.
"Don't just laugh!", she scolded softly," Say something".
Ace nevertheless laughed again much to earn another groan from her. She's now being a little demanding and bratty.
"If this is not what you call that, I don't know what else is", he said with a grin," Did you know what love is, Jay?"
And he could just feel the faint nod against his chest, where the short heighted girl was leaning, feeling safe and warm.
"I'll show you", he said.
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