Chapter 40: Just Like Me
With only a glance Shin threw me as hard as he could, crushing me into the walls and dashed towards me. Accompanied by the momentum, he kneed me in the stomach, making me cough up blood. Before I could react, he placed a knife pointed towards my neck
"T-That's a second..." I said, backing my head slowly from the knife.
"What are you doing here?" Shin's voice was... different... older yet it's been only days since we've seen each other.
I looked upon what was once bright eyes filled with hope and light to find the illumination gone, replaced by darkness... the eyes that look all too familiar to me. It's clouded... it's filled with rage... it's the eyes I wake up and see in the mirror every day.
Looking at it... makes my hands shake... everything in my brain is telling me to run...
"I... I'm so so sorry..." My voice was trembling in guilt as his punches all landed. My hands are too heavy... I can't raise them up.
Every punch hurts so much... but I can't block any of them. My legs can't move... I can't fall. All I have to do is fall and sleep and the pain will end, but my legs are standing making me take the blows. What's wrong with me?!
"I'm sorry! I'm selfish! I'm weak! I'm loud! I'm rude and worst of all... I'm a TRAITOR and... and I'm" What... what am I? What am I feeling? It felt as if time stopped... everyone paused wanting to know what I'd say...
"I'm scared..." I whispered... my body's shivers... my headaches... I feel so weak...
"Fight back! Fight back goddammit! I'm not the bad guy! You caused this!" Everything he went through... every suffering he endured... everything he felt was unleashed at this moment. Every punch is stronger than the last. There was no technique, no method, just pure and utter wrath.
I whispered, "Anthelm". The transmutation circle appeared and disappeared as fast as I activated it. I'll still feel everything... b-but... at least... there shouldn't be... lasting injuries.
"Shi-" Misa tried stepping in, extending her hand to touch Shin's shoulder, but he slapped it away.
"I don't forgive and I will NEVER forget! Everything you put me through! It's your fault!" His almost angelic white hair was tainted with my blood, his fists were bruised and it started to bleed, but he didn't care...
That look... it's one of hatred and disgust. I... I don't deserve forgiveness. You will never be satisfied... because the reason you're motivated right... is your anger... your hatred... it's fuel.
I smile softly... I know who you are...
"You don't get the rights to look down on me! Not when you're lower than me..."
Your me... I'd say the same thing to that bastard Brad if I could. The sounds of the chains and my shackles clashing before wounding me still occasionally ring in my mind...
I got down on my knees and did the only thing I could think of at the moment... I grovelled at his feet... "What else can I say? I won't justify myself... what I did was wrong and it caused you pain... I wouldn't forgive myself if I were you either. You don't have to explain yourself... I know how it feels... you want to give me hell to pay. You want me to suffer double the amount you did. So make me... I won't run, I won't hide. Give me everything you got"
With that, he grinned and kept kicking... until finally, I couldn't hold onto the ground anymore... his kick threw me into the cracked wall making a layer of it break and fall on me.
Apart of me wanted to shout at Misa pleading for her to help, but... the fact that she's not helping me right now... says everything. I know deep down she thinks I deserve this. Heck, I think I deserve this...
I'm slowly... losing consciousness... I... have.. to take this heads on, but eyelids felt heavy... I can barely stay awake. I wanted to scream from the excruciating pain, but only air came out of my mouth.
"I deserve more!" I shouted as quickly as I possibly could so I could hide the earthquake within my voice, the tsunami of tears I'm holding back and pain within my heart...
I slowly got up... my hands unusable, my face was almost unrecognizable and my legs are shaking... I'm barely able to stand up...
When my eyelids were finally giving up on me I saw someone... with that damn raven black hair and gentle ocean blue eyes... that dummy.
He walked passed Shin like it was nothing and stood in front of me. Ever since the first generation heroes attacked... his eyes seemed to always look sad... it seems filled with pity... but for who?
"Are you alright?" Hiroto asked softly and gently.
"What the hell? You should've asked a little sooner don't you think?" I mustered all the strength I had left to complain to that stupid raven and gave him a disappointed yet thankful glare.
I'm... safe now. I can rest...
Before I closed my eyes Shin looked confused and shouted out something... I couldn't quite hear.
"Wha-" I tried to ask him what he said, but everything became dark and empty again. The cycle of emptiness and my sudden sadness continued, again and again, and again.
Finally, the heaviness in my heart disappeared and I woke up... the air feels different somehow... I tried to push myself up but my arms couldn't support the weight and I collapsed back down.
"You okay?" Misa came rushing to me... her face just screams guilt.
She helped me up and held my hands tight... "Listen, I'm so sorry I didn't he-"
"You don't need to explain yourself. I'd do the same thing" I smiled while limping towards where Shin and the others with Misa's assistance.
Shin's hate and anger were still there, but for some reason... it seems less directed.
"Wait... where did Hiroto go?" As I asked that the atmosphere became sad and I can feel Shin's pity...
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