Chapter 3: The Sad and Lovely Death

I take a deep breath trying to comprehend the information Luke gave me, I wanted to cry but I couldn't I felt nothing except numbness, my brother grabs my hand and runs his fingers over my hand softly. "We are going to plan the funeral tomorrow afternoon and you should expect to see Ian here a lot he will be staying here with us for a few months so that he can watch you and you can walk to school with him" Luke says as he let's go of my hand and begins to walk out the door " Luke why won't you be going back to school" I ask looking concerned " Because Leah I have to much to do I have to get a job to take care of us and the house so school is out of the picture for now" Luke said, I was not very happy with my brother because now he would have to be a high school drop out and he was so read for the eleventh grade and I was not very happy that Ian had to walk me to school because of what happened after the fight with Luke. As I crawl out of bed not able to sleep anymore I get my stuff ready for school the next day I really wasn't ready for the ninth grade, I am kind of popular but that's only because Luke and Ian have good looks, so girls come up to me asking questions like is Ian single or is Luke single I just say yes so they can leave me be but now that Ian is walking me to school girls are really going to be asking me questions. As I finish getting my stuff ready my stomach starts to rumble and I realize I never ate at the party so as I turn around towards my door I see Ian staring at me he then walks away quickly as if he was not just staring at me. I walk in the direction he went and see he is moving into the room next to mine which means me and Ian have to share a bathroom. I walk up to his door and knock on it even though it was open, "Hey are you hungry" I ask as I lean against the door board "Yeah starving" Ian says as he puts down the rest of his bags, "Ok I am making dinner" I say as I walk away "Ok leah" Ian says with a grin, as I walk down the stairs I couldn't do anything but grin as well, I walk into the kitchen and open the fridge and notice there is no food, I run my fingers through my hair and turn around, right in front of my face I can see Ian's hard chest he shuts the fridge and places his hands on top of the fridge " looks like there is no food" Ian says in a small whisper, I look at him and take a deep breath, he then licks his bottom lip "Ian where is my brother" I ask trying to get him to feel uncomfortable about the subject of my brother "He left" Ian says as he backs up and places both hands on the edge of the counter, "I can order pizza" I said and walk towards the stairs going to go get my money and my phone, " No I will order it" Ian says as he walks towards me, he the takes his thumb and starts to rub it over my bottom lip, I take a deep breath and he leans toward me and presses my back against the stair railing he then slowly leans his head toward my ear and whispers in my ear "Thank you leah" I feel his breath on my neck and It makes me feel warm inside he leans back and says " leah I am sorry for your parents death" he takes a deep breath and walks up the stairs, I start to realize that my heart it's pounding like crazy and I press my hand over my heart and walk up the stairs, I go in my room close the door and think about what just happened. I then hear a knock on the door "Come in" I say as I sit up, as the door open I see Ian standing there " Leah, I have to tell you something and please don't get mad" Ian says in a worried voice "what is it Ian" I ask trying to sound calm "Leah your brother told me that I need to get a girlfriend" Ian said as he walked over to my bed and sat down beside me, " Okay and why would that make me mad Ian" I asked trying to sound calm, "Oh.. nevermind it was nothing" Ian says as he looks at me and blows out a hard breath and gets up quickly and goes to his room, I look down at my hands and tears start running down my cheek this time I don't try to stop them I hop off my bed and quickly slam my door I press my back agianst the door and countine crying, I know what Ian wanted me to do he wanted me to get jealous so that he could see if I had feelings for him the way he had feelings for me. I walk slowly to the bathroom and grab some tissue so I can wipe my face of my tears I tried not to sniff so that Ian would hear me and know I was crying. I walked out of the bathroom and closed the door, and quickly ran and hopped on top of my bed and crawled under the covers I was not prepared for these next couple of days.