Chapter 2: White

I was a very shy kid who didn't have much friend back when i was an elementary school student. That's why they bullied me, i don't really know the real reason behind it but, that's that. I used to spend most of my time alone and draw ugly shits cause i can't really have a proper conversation with the other kids. So i spent my time drawing and writing shits, well i guess i still do it now. What can i say? Old habits die hard, ain't they? Back to the story, me who was getting bullied, who was too scared to tell the teacher or even my parents about that, so i just deal with it. Did i forgot to mention it to you? Oh yeah, me and my parents are not so close to each other. We argue a lot. So that's why i was too scared to tell my parents, they often put the blame on me why didn't i fight them back, "are you even a man?" they ask me. Well, the "me" back then are a huge fucking coward so i wouldn't fight them... Even when they beat me up nearly to death in the boy's bathroom... After that little accident something's change, i got angry way too easy, start throwing tantrums here and there, i got more violent and shit. Anyway, back to topic, 4 years of getting bullied i've had enough of those god fucking damn bastards. You know what i did? I picked up a chair and i.... You know the rest, i felt something different, it felt so good, that i couldn't stop. And that day changed my whole life, "i love that feeling, i want more". Elementary school ended, The first day of my middle school starting, my parents were afraid after the accident that happened few years back. So they put me into a religious school and maybe i would stop my violence. Guess what? It gets worse, i start to do martial arts, and keep getting better at beating people up. Well, i enjoyed it, so i got into a fight more, oh right, i also join into a gang with my childhood friends that i told you about, wait what? I haven't told you guys yet? Everyone calls them Erwin, and Ivan. i'll tell you about them later, anyway we joined a gang that called themselves "Kronos" yep, with a "K". The night of initiation comes, the leader and the whole crew told the rookies to gather near the dumpster, and he said "so, you wanna be a part of our family?, then there's a test for each one of you". Everyone is excited, with a giant smile except me of course and a lot of confidence they ask the leader, "what is the test big bro?", a smile was carved in his face... He pitted us one another, i don't mind the other kids, but i don't wanna fight my own buddies. Everyone was confused as hell and start asking one another, "what should we do?" they whispered and then the leader start to ask "what's the matter? Are you scared?" And then i heard someone started to laughing very very loud and yelled at him "scared? I'm not even afraid one fucking bit to you dickhead!" I know that voice, it was Erwin, well he said that, so me and Ivan didn't have much choice. We fight them, and they beat us up. But, the leader immediately likes us, so he accepted us and we become a member to that gang. We start doing criminal shits and get away with almost everything. We smoke, we drink booze, skipping class, fight, snatch, gang brawl, even start to smoke pot at 8th grade. I know, I know, it's fucked up.