Chapter 14: Crumble
Zi Xiang felt everything he had lost, and he couldn't let go he couldn't accept this new world.
Truth was a fickle creature sometimes it rode on the back of a wizened old man, sometimes on the chest of a beautiful vixen. Sometimes in the pouches of scoundrels or bandits, even in the hands of a gentle little sister or the expectations of a family, in the authority of a clan.
But this time it took its most primal form a beast the beast of fear it had shattered everything in a moment. There was no chance to explore the abyss. Just a dive into the depths of despair. It gave no opportunity to supplement the loss with new meaning, new family, new friends. Everything was gone there was nothing to recover only Zi Xiang remained, everything surrounding him was gone there was no shelter no relationships, or material goods had remained.
Yet Zi Xiang was still there laying down in a foggy field, covered in bites and wounds, bleeding out ounces of blood soaking his torn and bloodied clothes and flowing onto the ground. Zi Xiang was still there. He was no longer at his home playing games and enjoying hobbies, he was no longer with his family, he was no longer at school receiving praise from teachers and talking with friends. He was surrounded by bloodthirsty wolves and confronted by an eldritch monster with his life fleeting before his eyes.
This was who Zi Xiang was, not a student who got good results from minimal work, not some child born into an upper class family that never had to worry about food or home. Not some liked student in school with friends and connections. Not someone privileged enough to be born in a good family with, a good life.
Zi Xiang was a blood soaked youth with no family, belongings, or power, lost in a field with death looming at any moment. Dehydrated, mortally wounded, starving, exhausted, and crippled. This was all Zi Xiang was.
This world gave Zi Xiang nothing it kicked him into a ditch and expected him to crawl out with nothing.
Zi Xiang was unable to accept it, he still rejected it.
Wh, wha, WHAT,
huh huh huah,
Hugh
Whuah huah what am I doing.
Zi Xiang started to curl up letting his blood soaked fingers grasp his hair as he started to push his arms into his face. Clenching together his body as he just bleed more feeling the pressure the tension he was curling up with. He felt irritated wanting to press harder and harder until he couldn't feel it.
His legs were up against his chest and his arms were partially covering Zi Xiang's face as his fingers clutched his hair.
Uggh uuouh heu hue hue
Zi Xiang started to cry he was sobbing uncontrollably, everything up to now he was surviving to go back to his home and family his old life. But he lost it everything was pointless he had nothing he was struggling for nothing, he would never be able to go back home even if he lived and escaped the wolves, stated the hunger, quenched the thirst, mended his wounds, and found civilization. It wasn't worth it, with nothing at all it would just be better to give up, just stop and let himself die.
"I'm in another world... I'm really... in another world." Zi Xiang quietly muttered to himself
But finally getting the thing of his desires it wasn't what Zi Xiang wanted. It was different from how he fantasized. None of it was what he pictured.
Uuuuuuuuraaagh-
Zi Xiang started screaming "WHY THIS ISN'T HOW THESE STORIES ARE SUPPOSED TO BE I'M THE CHOSEN HERO I AM THE CHOSEN I AM THE ONE THE SAVOIR OF THE WORLD AND EVERYONE IN IT SHOULD BE HERE TO PLEASE ME, DO ANYTHING FOR ME BECAUSE I'M THE CHOSEN.
"I AM THE CHOSEN WHY SHOULD I SUFFER LIKE THIS. IT ISN'T FAIR. IT'S NOT FAIR. IT'S NOT. WHY. THIS WORLD ISN'T RIGHT. THIS ISN'T RIGHT. I SHOULD BE THE CHOSEN THE WORLD SHOULD BE BELOW ME.
I SHOULD DO AS I PLEASE IF I WANT A DEER TO BE A HORSE IT SHOULD BE A HORSE."
But as Zi Xiang yelled all that came out was a silent scream tears streamed from his eyes as he sobbed.
Urragh
Zi Xiang tried to utter a noise but all that came out was a pathetic croak.
Weekly Power Status
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Ranking 
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