Chapter 10: The first step into becoming stronger.
A Goblin!!!
My body once again paralyzed, I could see it's yellow eyes looking at me and feel its cold hand touching my shoulder, I wanted to do something but my body won't move! I can hardly understand what's going on with me, I'm sure I'm afraid, even so for me to not be able to move, just how cowardly am I? I can't let myself die in such a way!
I was trying to convince myself that I can be strong but then my mind went blank, I couldn't think of anything but one thought that became stronger than all the others, an instinct that was awakened by the fear I have right now. After trying to convince myself that I can do it only one thought that was dominant stayed..... Run!!
Before I could try to deny it or go against it, my body started moving and I started running without a second thought.
All this happened in a mere instant, I couldn't put myself to fight for my life so I ran! I ran as fast as I could. I don't like how I'm acting but I can't help it.
I'M TOO WEAK.
That's the conclusion I came to, despite me trying to tell myself I could somehow do it.... I couldn't, that's the reality of things. Being with Shalia doesn't make me stronger, I don't even have memories of ever fighting anyone and you want me to fight a MONSTER?! Are you insane?!
I want to live!!! I don't want to waste this new chance to live, but I'm also a prideful fool.... I tried to voice the words but they wouldn't come out, I tried to ask for Shalia's help but I couldn't, in my mind, the idea of having to be saved like that was simply humiliating.
Be it Shalia, some random hero, or anyone else, I don't want to be saved by someone else! I don't want to be weak!
I WANT TO BE STRONG!
I know that if I want to make my wish come true, I have no other option but to fight.... If I run now, I'll run later and I'll keep running every time danger comes towards me, this is not how I want to live.
I don't want to keep running, but my body... No, it's not my body.... It's me, I can't accept it! I don't want to die and I know I can't win, it's all I can do... I can't throw myself at this just to die for some stupid pride and motivation.... I want to be stronger but I can't! I was born too weak to be strong.
While I'm having such weak and pathetic thoughts, I reached a valley!
At this moment I started to break down even more.
No! No! This can't be!! Is destiny playing a prank on me?! This is unfair! Why do I have to be forced to fight?!
I was telling myself it's unfair, but I know it's how life is. I bought this upon myself the moment I didn't call Shalia for help.... I didn't want to be saved and now I have to save myself, it's only reasonable..... Then why does it feel do unreasonable right now?
So this is what fear does to people?? It makes us weak, vulnerable, desperate.... All of this and I still ended putting myself in the exact position I was running from, was it worth it? Of course not! Will I try and ask for help now? Of course not!
I have already come here, call me whatever you want, a coward, a fool, retarded, unreasonable, none of that matters. I have not started my life here to care for what others think, I started this for myself, I want to be someone great, I want to be strong.
I don't want to be saved nor do I wish to be some kind of hero saving everyone I find, I want to be stronger for myself and whoever I decide to keep by my side.
I still don't want to fight, if I didn't know I can't run, I would. This how I am right now, I have accepted it and I'll do whatever it takes to survive! I'll fight for myself!
As if the universe is challenging my determination to become stronger, the goblin appeared, it's yellow eyes looking at me with disdain and maybe even hate. I don't understand why it would hate me, it's holding a dagger in its right hand and seems very ready to kill me, but I couldn't care less! I'll survive!
I position myself to fight, I put both my arms in front of my face and my right leg behind my left leg, as if it's something natural to me. I don't know how to fight or have any kind of experience in it whatsoever, but I'll do my best, it's all I can do.
Seeing me make my fighting stance the goblin bursts into laughter and mocks me.
"Hahaha! You think you can fight me? Haha, you weak coward demon, me never see such coward demon, me have fun killing you!"
I could hear its words perfectly as if it was talking in my language, I don't know if goblins speak the same language as everyone else, not only that it also said I'm a demon? Is that my race? I want to know more but, now's not the time for that.
I look at the goblin with my determined eyes and say.
"I would like to see you try.", I said with all the confidence I could pull at the moment, I probably don't sound convening but I by no means plan to lose.
"Hahaha! Die coward demon!"
It once again started laughing at me and before I could say anymore it came running towards me with its dagger in the right-hand ready to attack and kill me, I could feel the pressure taking control of my body, all that I wanted to do at this moment was RUN! But I forced myself to stand! Even if I was somehow able to run away if I don't learn how to fight for myself and keep going like that, I'll never be stronger!
In the small-time, I took to get over my fear the goblin was already very close, and before I could understand the full picture of what's going on, his right hand with the dagger was coming to slash my stomach, I immediately jump backward in order to dodge this.
*Slash!*
I was now standing a little away from the globin after jumping backward, but something wasn't right, I felt weird and started losing my balance somewhat as I could feel a hint of dizziness, I put my hand on my face to get ahold of myself, at that moment the goblin that wasn't planning to give me any time to recover came rushing once again, this time I could somewhat see it's movement and as if by pure instinct I could stop its right hand with the dagger by grabbing its wrist with my left hand.
While I had a feeling of accomplishment for blocking one of its attacks, it's free left-hand didn't wait for me as a punch hit my face in my right eye and I ended up letting go of its right arm's wrist.
It didn't wait for another second while I was still destabilized it kicked me in the stomach and I fell down with the force of the impact and rolled on the ground for a little and stopped closer to the valley, a little more and I'll fall to my death.
I now look at the ground around me while I'm still down and I can see blood, blood that wasn't there before, this was when I realized why I felt a little dizzy, the first attack, it hit me! I touch my stomach and blood covers my hand! I was wounded by the first attack and I know that if this goes on, I'll die for sure.
"Hahaha! like me say, you weak coward demon!"
It was once again mocking me, I was this time enraged not because it mocked me, but because it's words are true. Knowing that I'm this weak makes me disappointed in myself and that's why.
I'll make myself someone I can be proud of!
I don't care if I'm bleeding or not! I'll finish this even if I die!
I don't get up right away and instead, I grabbed some dirt in my right hand and a rock on my left hand, I stayed there lying on the ground while the goblin approaches me with its disgusting smile of superiority it had this whole time, it's looking at me like if I'm the most pitiful creature in the world and it wants to end my suffering.
Once it got close enough, I immediately moved my right hand and throw dirt at its eyes that were making me furious with their disgusting look, it immediately covered its eyes not letting go of its dagger while doing so.
I didn't waste this opening that happened because it underestimated me and got up as fast as I could and throw the rock in my left hand at its stomach but I instead hit its crotch!
In a moment of luck, I was able to hit a better spot than the one I was aiming for. The goblin immediately lets go of its dagger in pain and grabbed the hit zone while it screamed.
"Aarrrrgghhh!!!"
While it was in pain, I didn't lose any time and immediately ran towards the dagger and grabbed it.
The moment I turned toward the goblin again it still seemed to be in pain as it had a weird stance, but the eyes that showed disgust towards me now had only hate left, it completely hates me on a personal level.
Of course, I didn't intend to give it time to recover ran towards it with the dagger in my right hand, I attack with a horizontal slash from right to left in the area of its face.
*Slash!*
I missed as the goblin dodged and punched me on the left side of my cheek with its right hand in full strength! My face was moved by the force of the punch and I gave one step behind, the goblin came in to give me another punch with its left hand, but this time I didn't let the pain disturb me and attacked it with the dagger again while it tries to attack me.
I now slash horizontally from the left to the right and it steps back in the last second like expected!
I use this opening and ran towards it ready to stab it with the dagger!
*pierce!*
I hit! And pierce its stomach! I did it! But the fight was not over it immediately begin to punch me again with its right hand and I pull the dagger from its stomach!
The blood coming out is much worse than my own wound as I went deep it and it could only make a surface cut on me. I didn't let that stop me and neither did it, once again came at me with a punch while screaming!
Unlike before I dodge it and stab its eye!
*pierce!*
It goes in and blood starts gushing out of it, I don't stop there of my rage and push the goblin to the ground and push the dagger in deeper until the struggling goblin finally stops moving.
"I WON!!!", I shout as I can't contain my feelings.
I then get up and pull the dagger out while breathing heavily, even though I'm basically out of breath, I don't feel so tired.
I move to go look for Shalia with my newly acquired dagger ready to attack if something else comes at me.
Regardless of how weak I am right, I can proudly smile because I've taken my first step into becoming strong.
Those were my last thoughts before I suddenly fall unconscious while walking.
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