As life goes on I realize that I can't focus with Instagram and TikTok sending me hot guys I can't even look anymore. I just start to wonder if I ever get a boyfriend or girlfriend will I even be able to focus on what's important or will I be latched on to them. I can't even explain how much I want to live in a hallmark movie or some cheesy romance movie hoping that my general Shang will appear on a horse to get me or even that I might have a good friend like moo shoo from mulan. Well that's it I could go on about the other guys but this is sad enough that if I feel like writing out my other feelings I will in a second book.