Turning 30 should mean more, maybe if my life was more fulfilling. Maybe if I had done something more with my life, I would feel more than this emptiness in my heart. Here I am on my 30th birthday with three boys and an ex-husband in jail. Two failed marriages and no job or career. That's my life.
I know I should be happy that I have three healthy boys, a house and a loving mother. All that good is concealed by the fact I would not have made it without my boys. Being thankful for all that I have, should be easy. It is near impossible when your own head is always against you.
My oldest told me to make a wish as I blew out my candles. The wish was simple enough. I wish for a better world with fulfillment and love.
Fun how things Happen.