Chapter 23: Chapter Twenty Three: 8th Member Of Bangtan
Trapped in a maze of decisions
Exhausted by all the different chaos
We've wandered around, looking for the answer
Lost in the maze, in the darkness
We ran and ran endlessly
But all the fake noise
Can't tear us apart
It's true baby
_Love Maze
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Taehyung Pov
As I walked in baby's room, while pushing Jungkook's wheelchair along with me, my eyes widened in awwe. It was the first time me and Jungkook were seeing the baby's room that hyungs decorated for her.
And to be honest, I didn't expected what my eyes were witnessing right now. It was breathtakingly beautiful. How did they come up with these idea when they had no kids? I mean it was first time for all of us. But indeed there was nothing our hyungs couldn't do.
The room was a combination of pink and white. To our right, there was a white wooden crib with floral bumper. And the crib was horizontally placed against the wall right in the middle and knitted baby elephant crib mobile were hanging on top of the crib. To the left side of the crib, there was a bed right in the corner. So, we could sleep with her since she was too little to sleep by herself. And to the right of the crib was toys corner, full of plushies and dolls organised in different racks.
The wall against the crib was white and pink butterflies were painted right on the top of crib with 'Our Princess' written in the center. While the other three walls of room were baby pink with baby elephant patterns on it.
The wall facing the crib and bed had a closet with railing door at one side and baby dresser and shelves full of accessories on other side.
And last but not the least, right in the center of the room, our little angel was sleeping peacefully in baby lounger while hyungs were sitting around her in a circle.
As we stepped in, my heart raced frantically against my chest. I felt my hands shaking out of nervousness. It was the first time, I was going to meet her.
As I reached near them, hyungs scooted away a bit, giving me some space. I knelt down to where she was in her slumber.
My eyes fell on her and my heart skipped a beat. She was breathtakingly beautiful and adorably small. I blinked several times as I couldn't believe she really was my daughter.
"Stop staring at her and hold her in your arms." I gasped at Jin hyung's voice, instantly raising my head to see everyone was looking at me in anticipation.
Then, my gaze went to Jungkook who nodded at me, giving me a warm smile. I hesitantly looked down at her again. A pang of guilt hit my chest. Did I really deserve to hold her? I had been so cold and ignorant towards her. Did I really deserve to be her father?
"Feeling guilty?" Jungkook caught me off guard.
I looked up and found him beside me. When did he moved beside me? He held my shoulder and squeezed it in a comforting way.
"There's nothing to feel guilty about. Everyone knows how much you love kids. And she's not just a kid, she's your daughter. So just go for it." Namjoon Hyung said gently rustling my hair, smiling at me fondly.
I nodded and gulped before extending my shaky hands to her. I cautiously and featherly slid my hands under her neck and under her thighs, finally holding her in my arms.
As soon as she came into my arms, my world seemed to stop. It felt like I was holding my whole world in my arms. I could feel my eyes getting teary all of sudden, when I felt my shoulders getting heavier.
A surge of responsibility ran through me to protect her and to give her all happiness in the world. I was experiencing all types of emotions just in couple of seconds. I was in daze. I didn't know if I was happy cause she was my daughter or if I was sad because I was being bad father to her or if I was scared to protect her.
"Are you crying?" Jungkook asked pulling me out of my trance.
I turned to Jungkook who was looking at me affectionately. That was when I realised I really was crying.
"It's okay to cry since these are tears of happiness." Jungkook said, pointing at the little angel in my hands happily. I looked down at her and then at Jungkook again.
They looked alike. Jungkook and Her.. They really looked alike. I didn't know why but the love I felt when I looked at Jungkook, I felt the same love when I looked at her.
It was when I felt movement in my arms. I instantly looked down as little one wiggled in my arms. Her expression turned into a scowl before she began crying. My heart almost fell out of my chest in panic as her cries got louder.
My eyes widened and I looked at Jungkook anxiously.
"W.. Why is she crying? Is she okay?" I stuttered almost at the urge of crying. I didn't know why I felt like crying too.
"Let me hold her." Jungkook said extending his arms to me.
I immediately moved her into his arms. But her cries didn't die, which got Jungkook to panic too.
"Why isn't she stop crying? What's wrong with her?" Jungkook asked with wide eyes and a pout.
"May be she's hungry. We didn't fed her since she came. Wait, I go and prepare her milk bottle." Jin Hyung said, suddenly standing.
"Or may be it's her diaper." Jimin added raising an eyebrow.
"Then, what should we do now?" I blurted out dumbfounded.
"Jin Hyung you go with Yoongi Hyung and make her milk bottle. I and hyungs figure out how to change the diaper cause these two parents of her are totally dumb. They can't do anything other than crying along with her. Look at their faces, they're about to cry too." Jimin said pointing towards me and Jungkook while chuckling.
"Stop making fun of us Jiminie. Help us you moron." I snapped, giving him a glare.
"Okay okay. Don't curse in front of innocent ears. We can do this. Jimin, hobi get a new diaper, wipes and other accessories. While I'll search the video on Internet. And taehyungie you and Jungkook try to lessen her crying." Namjoon Hyung said while rushing to his phone and searching for video.
While Jimin and hobi Hyung went to her closet to get what they were asked to. And then there were me and Jungkook, who didn't know what to do, looking at each other dumbfounded.
I picked her up from Jungkook's arms and started to walk back and forth while swaying her in my arms.
"Stop crying my little angel. Uncle Jin is coming with your milk." I cooed her while continuously swinging her.
But it felt like she wasn't stopping any time soon.
"Taehyungie lay her on the changing table hurry." Hoseok Hyung said while Jimin and Jungkook already surrounding the changing table waiting for her.
I quickly placed her featherly on the changing table. And the most hardest hour of our life began.
"No, it not like this."
"No, I'm doing right. Trust me."
"But you put the wrong side of diaper beneath her."
"Ooops.."
"Let me try.. I'm good at copying things."
"Can't you hurry she's crying for like 15 minutes. I feel like passing out already."
"WHY IS IT SO HARDDDD?!!!!!!"
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And finally we all sighed in relief.
Slamming down on the couches and sofas of the living room, we exhaled out in exhaustion. Last two hours were the most tiring hours of our life. The whole house was in chaos as we 7 guys were trying to feed and change the diaper of our little angel.
It was our first time but fortunately we weren't type of boys who would give up that easily. So, we succeeded in changing her diaper and feeding her milk in just two hours and now she was finally sound asleep after giving us the hardest time. Now I was two hundred percent sure that she was mine and Jungkook's daughter cause she was two times more louder in vocals than me and Jungkook used to be when we were trainees.
"Till now, we used to give girls hard time, I mean our fans. But it was the first time a little girl made us go head over heels for her and we gladly did it." Jimin chuckled while shaking his head.
Everyone laughed at Jimin's remarks as smiles replaced our exhausted faces and just thinking about our little angel took away all the tiredness.
"Oh by the way, we didn't name her yet." Jin Hyung said all of sudden getting our attention.
"Oh right.. I almost forgot.. Our princess has no name yet.." Hoseok Hyung added.
"Do you have any name in your mind Taehyungie and Jungkookie?" Jimin asked looking at both of us.
I turned to Jungkook and he was already looking at me. He looked nervous as he gulped before speaking.
"Uhh.. Actually Miran wanted to give her baby a name. So, her name is already decided." Jungkook announced smiling nervously.
"Oh really? What is it?" Jin Hyung asked excitedly.
"Anna Kim." I revealed the beautiful name her mother gave her before leaving this world.
It really was beautiful name. Jungkook told me that Miran wanted this name but I didn't give any response cause I was so in guilt. I didn't want to be part of baby's life. I wasn't over my guilt yet. But after holding my daughter today, I decided to be a good father from now on.
"Wow. It's a beautiful name. ANNA. Wow. What does it mean?" Jimin asked grinning from ear to ear.
"It means favor of God. And isn't it true. She's like a favor of God to us." Namjoon Hyung said smiling brightly.
"It's really a beautiful name." Yoongi Hyung who was quietly listening to our conversation till now, finally spoke out.
It was when the door bell rang, dragging our attention.
"I'll check." Jin Hyung said, indicating us to stay seated as he walked to the main door.
After few second, three people made their entrance causing us to jolt up from our seats.
"Bang Pdnim?"
"Sejin Hyung?"
"Sungdeuk Hyung?"
We all blurted out in surprise. We almost forgot to breath. Pdnim didn't visit in a while, cause he was mad at us. He still wasn't ready to accept mine and Jungkook's relation.
"We thought we should go and greet bangtan's new member. Our new maknae." Pdnim said smiling nervously, swinging the gift bags in air.
His words caught us off guard and we all looked at each other with wide open mouth.
Was it really Pdnim we used to know? Was he really accepting our daughter as our bangtan family?
"Why you all looked so shocked?" Pdnim asked raising an eyebrow, casting us back to reality.
"No, no Pdnim it's not like that. Please come have seat and hyungs you too." Namjoon Hyung got hold of the situation and eyed us to greet them quickly.
We all greeted them, now grinning like idiots.
"Where is our little princess?" Sejin Hyung asked looking around.
"Uhh.. She just fell asleep. She's in her room." Jungkook replied swiftly but I could feel nervousness in his voice.
"Do you want to see her, I'll take you there." I said while grinning sheepily.
"Yes, why not. Let's go." Sejin Hyung got up along with Sungdeuk Hyung.
"Wait.." Pdnim voice made us stop in our track.
We turned to see him, looking very serious.
"I want to discuss something first." Pdnim murmered as tension raised in the atmosphere.
We walked back to our seats and slammed down waiting for him to speak.
"I.. I'm sorry guys. I was wrong. I was so selfish back then. I didn't consider your feelings. Especially Jungkook and Taehyung. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have got into accident. I felt so terrible till today. Please forgive me. After almost losing you, I came to realize how important your existence is in my life. You're my family. You're my kids and all I need is your happiness. Your well being. So, can you forgive this fatherly man for hurting you." He said apologetically, looking at me and Jungkook with remorseful eyes.
"Pdnim, you don't need to apologise. We know you were worried about our future. We achieved everything after so many hardships. BTS and Bighit is as important to us as to you. We made it together. We totally understand you." I said politely giving him a sincere smile.
"Yes, and our accident had nothing to do with you or anyone else Pdnim. It was just our fate. If it wasn't for our relationship, we still had got into accident. It wasn't anyone's fault." Jungkook added moving his wheelchair closer to Pdnim and placing hand over his shoulder.
"I don't have any problem with your relationship now. I don't care about what people will say or do. You can date each other and you've got a big responsibility on your shoulders now. Your daughter. Raise her with lot of love and care. Don't let me down. Okay?" Pdnim warned us, smiling with teary eyes.
"Yes Pdnim. We won't let you down." I and Jungkook said in unison, saluting him, causing everyone to chuckle.
It felt like a big weight just lifted off my shoulders. Finally, Pdnim accepted us. I looked at Jungkook, who was already staring at me with teary eyes. The tears of relief. I took a sigh and smiled at him. He smiled back causing my heart to flutter. I wanted to hug him right now but I couldn't because of everyone around us.
"Oh right, one thing more." Pdnim got back our attention.
"Rumors about bts member having a baby in secret have been all over the social media. Criticism is getting worse with every passing day. You know how reporters are. If we don't give a statement, they'll dig in deep and they may find out about Miran and then things will get out of our hands. We need to make statement as soon as possible." Pdnim said meticulously, looking at me and Jungkook.
"Uhhh.. Actually pdnim we don't want to drag Miran into this. She's not anymore. She don't deserve to be spattered and get hatred. We want her soul to rest in peace. She protected her pregnancy from world and we'll do the same." As I was about to speak, Jungkook spoke before me.
I looked at him in surprise. How did he know I was going to say the same thing? We really had two bodies but one soul.
"Jungkook is right pdnim. Release a statement that me and Jungkook have been dating for a year now. And we have a baby from surrogate mother. It will be enough to kill the rumors." I said with all seriousness.
"Are you sure? You both will be criticised and slandered. Will you be able to handle it?" Pdnim asked with a worried expression.
"Yes, pdnim. We've been through so much. We don't care about public opinion now. It's our life. We don't have to live on what others say." I said staring at Jungkook.
"We'll be fine Pdnim since we have you and Hyungs by our side." Jungkook added, assuring everyone with a big smile.
"we have your back don't worry." Namjoon Hyung said patting my shoulder. And others hyungs nodded in unison.
"Okay, it's done. I'll release the statement by tomorrow morning." Pdnim announced causing us to nod in reply.
"Let's go now we haven't seen our new maknae yet." Sungdeuk Hyung said jolting up from his seat, followed by Sejin Hyung.
This time Pdnim joined them too. As we walked towards Anna's room, I felt blessed. Finally, everything was going back to it's place. After all trials, Jungkook and me were finally opening the door to our happiness. And this time, I wasn't going to let go the happiness that easily.
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