Chapter 30: Chapter 28
****TW: THERE ARE MENTIONS OF SELF HARM IN THIS CHAPTER. THERE WILL BE A TRIGGER WARNING WHEN IT COMES UP. IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE READING THEN SKIP OVER****
Aizawa POV
All for One?
Toshinori started to tremble a bit in his seat, "A-Are you saying t-that he's still alive?"
I turned my attention back to Alex who only nodded.
"Sorry, for the intrusion, but who is this All for One you speak of?" Mic gently asked.
Nezu sighed, expression grim, "All for One is a villain that's been around since the dawn of quirks. It's said that he has the ability to steal and give quirks to people. In a battle several years ago, All Might fought this villain and All for One was assumed to be dead. But clearly, that isn't the case anymore."
Everyone went silent. How could a single person contain such power!? They'd be virtually invincible!
Alex sighed sadly, "I won't share more about him, but there is something important you should know…"
I furrowed my brows. What else? Don't tell enemies with some god…
"That night in Hosu City, when Izu- Midoriya was swept into the air by the Nomu, I saw the two figures on the building. Shigaraki and Kurogiri, I saw them and I know that they saw me," they looked up towards Nezu, "knowing All for One and Shigaraki, they will use this opportunity to gather followers since the League of Villains was reported to be working with Stain. Those who follow Stain's philosophy will most likely flock to the league. They will also probably get rid of the weakness within the Nomu's brain so we can't use it to our advantage. And the final thing is that it is likely they'll come after me or use the weaknesses I have against me and you."
Nezu's eyes squinted a bit, "And what would these weaknesses be?"
Alex broke eye contact and looked at the table, "I won't tell you that…"
"And why is that?" Surprisingly it was Best Jeanist who spoke up. His tone seemed annoyed and a bit angry, but he kept his cool.
"I don't like to talk about it, they are mental weaknesses and they're there. That's all you need to know."
I closed my eyes and sighed, leaning back in my chair. I felt Mic grab my hand under the table and give it a reassuring squeeze. Seriously, this problem child is extremely stressful. It's like they're a bottomless pit of secrets. We haven't even figured out their real name and yet one secret just keeps popping up after the other.
I looked at Mic and smiled a bit and squeezed his hand back.
Tsukauchi nodded. He was taking small notes the entire time on the clipboard in his hand. He looked at Alex, "Based on what we heard from pro hero Native as well as your fellow classmates Tenya Iida and Shouto Todoroki, during your fight with Stain, it seemed as if you knew each other. Care to explain and tell us more?"
"Stain or well I know him by his real name Chizome Akaguro was my mentor and I guess sort of like a friend a while back. He trained me to read people's movements and how to read people in general. He's also the one who taught me how to wield a knife as well as I do. When we eventually split our separate ways, we made a promise to each other. It was "If we are ever to cross paths again we will aid each other in battle, however, if when we cross and we are on opposing sides, we treat each other no different than any other enemy," we kept no emotional or sentimental ties to each other. That I can guarantee if that was one of your concerns."
Tsukauchi nodded again, "How long were you accompanying Stain?"
Alex looked up in thought. After a moment they spoke again, "I would say a bit over two years. I don't know the exact amount, but that would be the estimated time."
Tsukauchi placed his clipboard in his lap and turned to Nezu, "That concludes the set questions we had. Unless you have any more questions Principal Nezu, I will be on my way."
Nezu nodded and stood up in his chair, "Alright everyone, you are dismissed! You may leave, thank you for coming!"
Nemuri, Mic, and me, stood up and began leaving.
"Ah, Alex? I'm going to have to ask you to stay back. Don't worry it will be short."
First POV
When everyone finally filed out of the room I asked, "Why did you have me stay back?"
He smiled as he pulled out a flask from one of the desk drawers as well as two cups, "Tea?"
I was about to refuse, but in the end, I just closed my mouth and nodded. He poured the surprisingly still hot tea into a cup and gestured for me to take it, which I did. I took a sip and let the hot liquid go down my throat. It was pretty good not gonna lie.
"This tea is delicious, but you still didn't answer my question. Why did you ask me to stay back?"
He sat down in his chair again and took a sip of his own cup, "Ever since you gave us that hint about what your true name was, I have to admit I've been quite curious. At first, I thought that maybe your name written looked similar to some of the words in the phrase. A different way of writing either "star" or "crying star" as you said or possibly being the two words scrambled together. However, as I looked into it, none of the profiles matched yours. So, I looked at the beginning of the phrase when you stated "the last" and I looked into families that were all registered as deceased. Specifically, those killed or in accidents while Endeavor was on duty," he took another sip of his tea and looked up at me. Curiosity, wonder, and excitement, all seemed to be oozing out of him.
I took another sip and set the cup down. Quietly, I questioned, "And your point is?"
"My point is that I was able to narrow your profiled true identity to five suspects. Now, I'm going to ask you," we made eye contact as he stated with a smile, "is your real name Hecate Mourningstar?"
I took a sharp breath as I looked down in my lap. I haven't heard that name in so many years, it almost seems foreign to be referred to as my real name. I took a couple of deep breaths to calm my pounding heart, "Congrats Nezu…. You figured out my real name… though I must ask you a favor since you have figured it out."
"Oh, and what is that?"
I looked him dead in the eye. He seemed a bit fearful of me, at least that's what I could tell. He was a master at hiding his emotions behind his smile, "Please, do not tell the others what my real name is. Keep having them refer to me as Alex Kurosaki for now. Please."
His body relaxed as he placed his paw over his heart, "I promise, I will not notify anyone else about this without your permission."
I smiled and quickly finished my tea. Standing up I thanked him for the tea and said goodbye and walked out of the door.
Once, I heard the familiar click of the door as it fell into place. I leaned on the wall to the left of it and put my hand over my beating heart. Tears pricked my eyes as I looked at the bright lights on the ceilings.
"Hey, kid? You okay?"
I was startled out of my daze as I looked to my right and saw Aizy, Mic, and Midnight standing in the hallway, all looking at me with concern.
"Little listener? Are you alright? Why are you crying?" Mic asked softly.
Midnight tilted her head and looked at me with her brows slightly furrowed, "What happened in there? What did you talk about?"
The two kept asking me questions until Aizy cut them off, "Hey you two idiots, you're just gonna overwhelm them. Give them some space."
They obeyed and backed off, but still looked at me with worry.
Quickly, I wiped my teary eyes and said to them, "I-I'm fine. It's n-nothing big, don't worry a-about it…"
Before they had a chance to respond, I walked past them back to my dorm room. Once I got there I changed my clothes into an oversized shirt and some sleep shorts. Grabbing my earbuds and phone, I curled up into a ball under my covers. Music and sleeping are basically my only escapes from reality.
The last time I heard someone say my name was over five years ago. And still whenever someone says it all I can think about is my family. My brother, sister, mother, and father. All I can hear and see is them. All I want is to be with them again, to feel their arms wrap around me again. To go back to those times when we were just another family. When I could watch shows with my sister and annoy my brother. When I didn't have to worry about anyone trying to kill me or who my next target was.
Just peace.
Tears were falling out of my eyes as I hugged my pillow in my arms and blasted the music into my ears. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to feel. Have to have emotions. Sometimes I wish that I was just numb.
My fingernails dug into my skin as the dull pain went through my arm. My thoughts started going from remembering the light and feeling sadness and loss into feeling hate and anger. I remembered all the times that man called my name. All the times he called me to his lab. All the times he called for me to do a job. All of them.
My fingernails were pressed harder into my arm breaking the skin, but it wasn't enough.
****TRIGGER WARNING. SKIP IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE****
I needed something more. Something to make me forget, something to take my mind off it, something to ease my anger. Quickly, I grabbed one of the knives Nezu gave me as part of my hero costume and ran my index finger over the blade.
"It's not the sharpest, but it'll do," I sighed.
I walked into the bathroom, shutting and locking the door. I sat down on the cold tile floor leaning against the wall. Twirling my knife in my hand.
I didn't want to do it on my arms since they would be much more sensitive, not to mention it would hurt and the wounds would probably open if someone were to grab them too hard. Looking down at my legs I showed a bitter smile. I haven't done this in a long time. It's actually part of the reason why I always wear pants. The most revealing thing I wear in front of people is ripped jeans and even then you can't even see the marks unless you look closely.
1 for being useless
2 for not saving my family
3 for being weak
4 for listening to that man
5 for relapsing
6 for existing
I kept going and going until eventually I lost count. My thighs were all cut up, blood dripped endlessly from the cuts. Tears were no longer coming out of my eyes nor did I feel angry anymore. Even if it's just temporary, feeling empty, feeling numb, it's worth it.
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I used some toilet paper and wiped up the blood from the floor and most of it off my legs. Shakily, I stood up and used the wall to support me. I walked over to the shower, stripping out of my clothes, I turned on the water and got in. The hot water stung, but I didn't really mind it.
After about fifteen minutes, I stepped out and bandaged my legs with some wrappings I have in the first aid kit they gave me. I threw on some sweat pants and another oversized shirt, once again crawling into bed. Letting darkness consume my vision as I drifted off to sleep.
(a/n: On a serious note, if any of you are self-harming or having any suicidal thoughts, please seek help and confide in people you trust. Don't hide it or ignore it. Please.) (e/n: And remember to take care of yourself, eat, drink, sleep, you are enough.)
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