Chapter 3: Chapter 1
"Terra?"
"Terra?"
"Little Terra where are you?"
Those voices came from our housemaids.
They were looking for me earlier because this day was important for my dad.
Today is his wedding day and they can't force me to dress properly.
"TERRAVINE GAIL DIZON!!" My dad called me out the door.
He must be mad because I don't want to go outside my room and join them in his wedding.
Is it my fault if I don't want to come? Is it my fault if I don't want to have another mother?
"Are you going outside or I will break this door just for you to come out!!" my father shouted again and again.
Without any choice, I go to the cabinet to get what I will wear.
I look myself at the mirror inside my room. I am now wearing my favorite dress, my favorite gift from my mother…she gave it to me before she died.
I let my hair in its natural wave…When I got satisfied with my look. I head myself to the door and come with my father.
We are in the car now and are currently heading the way to the church. I am silently sitting beside my father thinking about my dead mother while looking at the view outside.
It's been three years when my mother passed away because of her sickness. I am only 7 years old when she died.
In those three years that had past, I don't imagine myself sitting beside my father while heading our way to the church for his wedding, his second wedding.
But here we are, silently looking outside… Maybe father is nervous, but why would he? this is his second time…he shouldn't be nervous.
Or he's mad at me? Is he's mad at me because I don't want to have another mother? Is he mad at me because I don't want him to get married?
Am I selfish?
I asked myself many times.. Am I going to be selfish if I don't support him?
Of course yes! I am going to be selfish because my happiness of my father is what I don't want. The one that he want is the one that I don’t want. And that is also being selfish.
I am selfish right? Am I a bad daughter?
I sigh heavily; we are now at the front of the church…It is one of the biggest churches in our town.
Our family is handling a Multi-millionaire company that’s why he is famous. His wedding is exclusive just for our family and the bride’s family.
No business partners are invited. No reporters.
We enter the church and wait for the bride.
When the bride comes, the ceremony did not last that long. I just witness those exchanging vows and saying I do…
The eyes of my father were shining every time he looks at Anaida, My stepmom.
He looks so happy every time that their eyes will meet. We are now at the mansion for their reception.
"May I request the presence of Miss Terravine Gail Dizon here on front for the picture taking" I felt uncomfortable when I heard my name being called by the Emcee in front.
I shift at my seat and look around, trying to find a place to hide.
Before I can finally stand up to go to the place that I found…I saw my father looking at me, begging to go there and join them.
Without any choice, I go to them and take a picture with them.
"Okay, In count of three… say, Family." the photographer said.
I did not follow him; I just look at the camera and smile a little bit.
5 shots and done…I left them and go to the place where I should be if father did not just call me.
Garden is the favorite place of my mother. When she was still alive, we used to go there and take care of the flowers. At night we always use our telescope for the stargazing.
When I was a kid she always tell me that one day she will go there and she will look us from there, She said that she will give me a star so that I have someone to be with... She also said that, that star will take care of me.
I look upon the stars and extend my arms trying to reach the stars. I accidentally shifted my gaze to my father eating with my stepmother. Even when eating they are so sweet.
"How are you mom? Are you doing fine there?" I spoke while imagining that my mother is one of the stars.
"Dad is now happily married again… I am sure that you can see him from up there." I continue talking.
"He already has the star that you're talking about... He already has someone to lean on…" I can feel that my eyes were now watering. I close my eyes and look at the sky again.
"What about me mom? when will I get the stars that you're talking about?"
Now, my tears are really dripping
"When will someone take care of me? Who is the star that will take care of me?"
I can imagine my dad building a new family with my stepmother…
I can imagine him carrying and taking care of his child.
I can imagine him spending all his time with his new family...without me.
I wipe my tears and calm myself… I look at my father for the last time…
He is now laughing while talking at the family of my stepmom.
I smiled bitterly as I remembered what I had imagined earlier.
I walk and go to the door located at our kitchen…I don't want to use our front door because of some reasons.
I open the door of my room… I go inside and locked it.
I take a bath and change my clothes.. I lie down and close my eyes comfortably.
I change my position…I am now looking at the opened curtains of my veranda..
I look at the sky for the last time before closing my eyes to finally sleep.
A knock from the door woke me up the next day.
I stood up and check myself before opening the door.
Nanny Mena was the one who greeted me when I opened the door, she was our most trusted and oldest server in
the house…I am very close to her because she used to take care of me back when I was a child…when my both parents were busy handling the company..
She stops babysitting of me when I turned 7 years old. Now that I am already 10 years old…she stills care for me especially that my mother is dead and my father has a new wife.
"Terra, your daddy is waiting for you at the dining area" she said while smiling at me..
She is smiling at me like saying that I have to be happy.
I am happy…I am happy for my dad but not for myself.
I am happy for him because he has someone that will take care of him.
While me…now that he has another wife? I don't know what will happen to me now.
Does he going to throw me away? I wonder what will he do to me if my stepmom Anaida get pregnant.
Am I going to be an outsider in this house?
I nod at Nanny Mena at go with her to the dining table.
I saw them eating already…
"Oh sweetie good morning" My stepmother said in such a sweet voice.
"How is your sleep my daughter?" dad asked
My daughter…Am I still going to be called like that even if you have another daughter or son?
Gosh…I am being overdramatic.
"I have a good night, dad…Anaida" I said while looking at my plate..
I still don't know what name I am going to call my stepmom.
What If she doesn't want me to call her mama?
"Mom, from now on call me mom okay Terra?" she said I looked at her and shook my head...
She looks like a bit stunned with my answer.
"No…I will call you mama" I said.
It’s true, I don't want her to call mom because my mom is my mother.
And she is not my mother so I prefer calling her mama.
"What is wrong with mom sweetie?" she asked a little bit confused.
"You’re not my mom"
"Terra." dad called me with a warning tone.
"Sorry…" I apologized
"It’s okay, you can call me in any names that you want but remember that from now on, I will be your mother"
she said while smiling..
I just nod.
But deep inside, I don't know my answer...
New mother...
Am I ready to have a new mother?
I think I am ready to have a new mother, but no one will ever replace my mom in my heart...
My stepmother Anaida? She just has a place there.
Gifts
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received Weekly Power Status
-- Power
Ranking 
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