have you ever felt like a failer before? i do all the time , i felt like a failer to my parents , my family , my friends and even my teachers. is it possible to felt like a failer to strangers almost.
here am i sitting in my bath tub while the water flows on my body , i'm having a flashback of what happen two months ago. i know you must be wonder what happen , well i got raped because i was stupid , on that day my sister beg me to go to this party with her but i was being a goody too shoes and decided to stay home and study for my exams in two weeks ,while i was there studying i heard a crack in my door but i didn't pay that any mind , after a while i felt some strong arms holding me down , i was trying to scream but i couldn't because they were holding me so hard , the three guys starts to pull down there clothes and almost mines . i never knew that being raped could be so mind wracking , i snapped out of my thought when i heard my moms voice "mia are you ready !!" she yell loudly that i think the neighbor also heard her.
"i will be down soon mom" i yelled back while getting out of the bath tub. rushing to my bedroom put my clothes on as quickly as possible , i was wearing blue jeans and a white shirt because i wasn't in the mood to dress up.
heading down stair i saw my mom , dad and my sister Emily all eating around the table. "hey honey are you ready for your first day back to school?'' my father asked with a smile on his face , "yea i guess" i reply forcing a smile on my face ,
"well that's good honey but you girls got to go because your gonna be late" my mom added. "okay mom we are leaving now , bye love you guys" my sister Emily kisses my parents cheeks and walk out the door , I then follow behind her but my moms voice stop me ,
"honey are you forgetting something" , "umm...no i don't think so" , she gave me the look that your mom would gave you when she is telling you not to play with her , she uses her two fingers tapping on her cheeks motioning me to come kiss her cheeks. "ugh , really mom , don't you think i'm a little bit too old for that" , she rolled her eyes at my comment , "no your still my baby now come give your mom a kiss" , i sigh walking over to her placing kisses on her and dads cheeks. "that's better now go to school young lady" i walked out the door rolling my eyes at her , "i hope you didn't just rolled your eyes at me young lady" she yelled , "no mom i didn't" , "good that's what i thought" she sassed me.
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my sister was very popular , she is the captain of the cheerleading team afterall , step into school all eyes were on me ,everyone was giving me pity looks like they felt sorry for me.
though out most of the day teachers and students been approaching me telling me how much they were sorry for me and that they are sorry that i got raped and i didn't deserve it but now i'm starting to feel like i did.
walking past student that are still staring at me , I'm heading to the lunch room , all eyes were on me , i held my head down while walking to a empty table ,
"hey mia come sit with us" i snap my head up when i heard my sister's voice , slowly walking over to the popular section i felt eyes still watching my every move ,
my sister and her friends make place for me to sit, i plotted down beside emily , "hey sis" i smile at my sister , "hey mia i'm so sorry for what happen " one of emily friends said , "yea we are so sorry" another friend said , now i'm starting to really get pissed off by the i'm sorry you got raped comment everyone been giving me all day , i was so angry that i felt my head spinning and the anger in me getting higher and higher ,
i couldn't take it anymore so i hit my fist on the table so hard that i know i gain everyone attention , " i'm so sick and fucking tired of everyone telling me that there are sorry for what happen , for fuck sake i got raped , someone didn't fucking die for me , so why don't all of you bitch go suck a fucking dick and leave me the hell alone" i yelled out in angry , my sister felt that she should get on my nerves more by saying "there just trying to help you mia" ,
"how the fuck can they help me emily if it's already happen" i felt the tears rolling down my cheeks , my sister and everyone else look at me not knowing what to say so i ran out of the launch room heading to the school garden to take a smoke.
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