Chapter 4: CHAPTER 4 : A Dream about the Past
" Son! Are you ok? " the middle-aged woman asked me a warm smile. She has a short height, not even 152.4 cm and a chubby body that reached a little bit fat side.
" Mom, I am ok " I replied to my mom with a smile while brushing my tears.
"That's why I told you that don't run. Let's go, son. We need to prepare for Happy New Year's Party and your father went his car to give homeless people's Charity and your big brother went with him " My mom told me a and she is also preparing for neighbours to give them. My family loved to do Charity and donation a lot.
My mom used to tell me ' This is the way of showing gratitude to God because God gave us wonderful Two sons '.
I helped my mother to prepare dishes and helped her to give neighbours. After that my father came back, he has a very tall height, unlike my mother. My father height is around 182 cm and his face is what they are called the delinquent face. He really looked very scary when he is angry but it only took a few minutes to ease his anger. He is a too good person. My brother took my father DNA and he also looked really scary. He has small eyes like Chinese people when he laughed his eyes disappeared.
We prepared to celebrate the Happy New Year and my father brought the small bottle of wines without knowing my mom. I laughed and has a big smile on my face.
Suddenly the scene changed and I am standing at the dark void. I can not see anything and Darkness are everywhere. I can not even see my own hands.
" That is what Cultivators called Heart Demon that will hunt down you and make you trap in your pasts and feelings " I muttered and I looked at the dark void.
" Damm fucking right. " I shouted loudly and my tears flowed from my eyes a little.
" I thought I already passed the Heart Demon. I probably triggered again because the words of ' New Year's Banquet ' " I muttered.
' My heart still fragile enough to trigger like that. ' I thought silently inside my head. Most of my beautiful memories lie in the Happy New Years' Events and other events. My mother loved to celebrate events and loved to donate.
Both of my parents have works so they can spend money. Truth be told, I resented my parents when I am a kid because I needed to beg to get the toys but they spent willingly to strangers. When I grow up, I started to see. Right now, I can tell that my parents are the greatest parents in millions of Universe.
Suddenly, another scene appeared in front of me. This time, I am watching from the sideline. I have curly hair so my brother used to tease me a lot because every one of my family has a straight hair unlike me.
I successfully passed the high school exam and I entered a normal university. Scenes are changed at very fast pace. I felt like I am watching a movie but I can feel the feelings and other things. Happy memories went slowly and normal memories went very fast. I didn't have that many miserable memories or painful memories.
I got a girlfriend in my first year of university, she is just a normal girl. She has the average appearance and her face is a little cute. For me, my girlfriend's memories are really distant. Probably I didn't love her that much, maybe I am a very cold person in my previous life.
I decided to spend Happy New Year in her apartment. My parents told me to come back home but I chose pussy over parents. I died from a car accident when I am going to her house.
Memories repeated again. This time, scenes focused on my parents. I just watched them from the sideline. It is really pained and very sad to watch but I already knew the pain. Right now, I can understand real love.
When I thought carefully, I hated myself from my previous life . I got too much love from my parents. That's why I became cold people. Human always hoped to receive something that they didn't have. I am also like that my parents never fought before so I wanted to feel the feeling of pain and I faked. Memories replayed and I watched them from the sideline with a smile.
" People always need to move forward. When you decide to look back, you are already behind. Regrets are something that you should proud " My father told me always.
" Because of them, I decided to move forward. I will always cherish my memories even though that is painful. They are already my past, so that is fine for me to move forward" I said with a smile while watching the 5 years old me playing with sand. My father and 5 years old me is building a sandcastle.
" Yes. You are right. My son. You just need to move forward. It will be difficult to move for us but you still have a life to move. You are still young. Don't worry, we will be fine. " My father looked at my direction and said with a smile.
" Impossible. " I screamed and my eyes widened a lot. I looked at my father and looked at the scene with unbelievable eyes.
" Why not? Everything is possible. You are our proud son. You just need to move forward and you don't need to blame something that you can not decide. Stay strong my son" My father told with a big smile and walked in front of me. He patted my shoulder.
" I will. Thank you " I said with a smile. If I cried, it is a disrespect to my father. The scene disappeared and I woke up from a dream about my past or maybe a Heart Demon . I opened my eyes and I saw the moon, stars that are shining the best they can.
" Why are you crying? You are a kid. Are not you Chou Min " Lu Yan shouted me.
' Fuck you motherfucker. I am trying to feel this feeling. You literally destroyed the vibe ' I thought.
" Fuck you. I am not crying. You are crying , your whole family is crying, your ancestors are crying, your tamed beasts are crying. " I shouted him back like a child.
" I am orphan. How do you know my family is crying? and looks my tamed beasts are not crying. They are flying." Lu Yan asked me innocently while pointing the Dragon White Horses.
" Sigh. Are we going to reach? " I asked him.
" Yes. Answer my question. " He replied to me. I ignored him.
" You are really a kid " Lu Yan replied to me like trying to scold like my parents.
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