Chapter 16: Chapter XVI Bench**

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Stupid frozen bench, it won't let me relieve myself on it.

I just want to freeze to death sitting here, it would be better to feel the thousand knives of cold and not your memory fading in my mind and my fault.

For me the sea took your soul and I am left with the worst of punishments to live without you sister.

Every day is worse because you are not here, I want you to feel the cold, and the warmth of my embrace.

As much as I try to bury the pain of your loss, it always brings me down every day and today was the worst of days.

While I was having dinner with Laura's family; I missed so much the same moment with you in a wonderful family.

That is why today I weep bitterly, wishing to die so that your laughter will revive in the world.

I can never heal this pain mixed with intense guilt.

Now I call on you, love, if you can heal me.