Chapter 41: You Are With Me or Not..?
After that stupid dare.. we all are again join the party.. and yeah this time no one is interrupte us.. and this is the best time to talk with Noah that what is going on between my sister and him..
When boys know that it's none other than Ari they feel relaxx even my friends too.. and Mia is the one who show that bitch middle finger which she deserves it.. I know.. and I go laugh at this behaviour of her.. and big slap for queen bee..
When all set.. Ari again join badboys and I other hand grab Noah hand.. and pull him to me.. taking distance with everyone so this time no distractions and we both can talk without any interruption..
" So now I go time to talk about this.. and there is no one going to interrupt us.. if they did I willl kill them cozz right now it is very important to me to know that what is going on between you and Ari.. and you have to explan me right now and right here. So I can understand and try to help you out guy's.. cozz I don't like it the way you guys given each other's cold shoulder.. you getting my point what I am trying to explain to you now tell me what is going on.. " i tell him. And he did nodded. And I know he don't want to talk about this. But I am not letting him go this time..
" Lena.. I seriously don't want to talk about.. " before he complete I snap him again..
" Not again Noah.. I want to know.. and you know that I am damn serious about it.. and how stubborn I am if you don't tell me right now.. I ma not going to let you go anywhere.. so better start explining without giving this dumb excuses.. " I said. And he sigh.. he know that there is no way that anyone can help him to come and get away from me. he do look at everywhere that anyone he can excuse and leave me.. so I did hold him tightly so there is no way he can run away from me that easily..
" So the thing is that.. that day when we all come to you asking about that incident that time the way I said about Nick.. what he done.. she don't like it.. she want that me and nick again be friends the way use to be.. but I never ever be his friends and she demanding me to do things which I don't want to do.. and we do fight about it.. I think she still have feelings for him.. and she just using me to make him come back to her.. which Ari and me both know that not going to happen.." he said to me.. and I don't know what to say.. and how can he think about this.. but his point of view also maybe right who knows Ari did it for Nick to came back to him.. when everyone knows that Ari is so obsessed with Nick so..yeahh but maybe who knows.. we can think or judge her for this.. because that was past..
" I don't think that she has feeling for him.. I think you are overthinking.." i said and than he again cut me off..
" Ohh yeah.. than why is she not talkin' to me.. she don't like when I talk shit about him.. i don't know what that bastard made magic that she is with me. But again his always come to her.. and other hand I'm hers alway last options.. so better not to west my time to in this shit.. I am happy the way I used to be.. I am not looking for any games. And about our parents stupid promise.. I think I will fullfill but not with her.. and did made choice that what I have to do when right time comes.. and I know you will never say no to this to me.. right Lena.. " he said to me.. and I know what he want to trying to said.. which make me speechless.. I have no words to say anything to him.. did he already decided what he want to do.. did he think that I am best for him.. but I am not thinking about him the way he is saying.. and I know he also don't feel anything for me. Than why he is doing this.. when he's hearts belongs to my sister..
" Do you have even idea what you saying.. it's not that game or movie which we are playing role.. it's life time decision Noah.. I mean yeahh you have rights to make decisions and I am always with you to fullfill it.. but you think you will be happy end of the day.. you are hurting yourself even you are hurting everyone too.. and I don't want that after that later in future you will be hate yourself to Making one wrong decision.. I know you are angry right now.. but this is not solution the way you are making decisions that fast that you even don't know what are you thinking and doing.. " I said to him but he didn't let me complete the way he is frustrated and i do understand this..
" So tell me what to do.. what to do that she will understand me.. did she forgot what he did to her.. but for her his the most important priority.. and see the way they both are best friends.. same bond we both are also having but still if I have to chose between you two I never do that.. you both are most important thing to my life.. I never chose anyone.. because I do love both of you in different kind way.. when I ask her to chose she already have answered about this when she did same I explained her that I can't chose.. than she said that think again that what I wanted in my life. Because she already cleared about her thoughts.. so I thought better I also do same.. and trust me lena.. I never regret or never hurt you or hate myself about makin this decision.. I just want to know that are you with me.. " he said to me.. and i am stunned that what to say.. am I with him..
Once upon time I am so blindly falling for him.. that time he never see me or even feel that connection between us or what I am feeling about him.. now when I got time to chance to do that I don't know my heart is not ready for this.. how can I do this.. I know his heart is not belongs to me.. and he never loved me.. when I know he already feel somthing to my sister.. how can I do with my sister.. to me.. and to him..
I know my sister have soft corner for Nick but I do know that she is trying to make things with Noah and take rish and chance with him.. how can I explan to him.. if I did did he believe in me.. if I said this to him.. did he..
" What are you thinking.. tell me I will give your all answers of your questions.. but please don't stay silent.. it's killing me.. " he said to me..I other hand no words to said or talk..
" Noah.. I want to said that.." I said looking at him.. he did looking at me curiously.. I know he deadly want to know the answer that what I am with him or not in this things..
" My sister already are broken by him.. " he again cut me off when I said this..
" I don't want to talk about her Lena.. I just want to hear answer from you.. are you in or not.. " he said.. why he don't give me time to explain things to him..
" I know you want answers but I also want to know this that she is really taking risk and again want to take chance to be with you.. she do want time to trust you that what he did same you don't do with her.. when she know you are greatest play boy in our school.. and if she chose him that doesn't mean she have still feelings for him.. if I do chose you and I said I am in.. you think that I am doing it because you said it.. but you also thought whenever you are alone that why I am ready to sacrifice for this.. no one do that to there best friends.. I mean it's big thing.. but I am not here talkin'about me.. I want to tell you just about my sister that.. give her time.. she do feel somthing to you.. I do talk her about you.. and I know her.. she is just confused give her time Man.. " i said to him.. and i about to go.. he told my hand.. and pull me to him..
" I don't care about her.. I already made my decision Lena.. I just want to know are you with me.." he said to me dangerously.. and this give me no words to said to him.. how can he so stubborn in all this.. I do want to back of and make space between us.. but he didn't leave me.. and pull me more close to him.. this is make me uncomfortable.. I do feel there are many stairs are looking at our side..
" You are my best friend Noah.. and I can do anything for you.. no matter what.." I said to him.. and he relive me.. and sigh.. he is setisfy what I said to him.. and kiss my forehead..
" That's what I want to hear.. and trust me Lena.. I will never hurt you.. I always make you happy.. I know it will get time.. but I know end of the day.. you will never regret this.. so am I..." He said and leave me alone.. and I other side take deep breath thinking about what just happend..
I am here to talk to him about him and Ari.. and here I am what I am done.. what I am agree with to be with him.. when I know the end is not going well.. even my hear is not belongs to him anymore.. I am not feel anything about him.. I don't know if I can ever feel this ever again..
And I can't back off that easily.. that easily I told him that I alway with him..
I join my friends. And they are looking at me with surprised. And I do hug them. And seat with them..
" What is going on between you and Noah.. the way he is acting protecting about you.. is there something going on which I want to know this.." Mia ask me. And trust me I do want to tell her about all this.. my family legacy but I just can't..
" Nothing is going on between us.. and never will anything happen between us anymore.. you know that it's long time gone.. whatever I thought that something is going to happen between us.. and about that.. well I also dont know why he is acting like this.. that make me also uncomfortable and clueless the way he is acting.. I hope that everything go again normal the way it's use to be.. " I tell her she nodded with her head.
" Who know maybe he did realise that you are best think in his life than he can't let you go.. who knows.. " Holly said..
" Ohhh ple-ease.. this is never going to happen.. or if it did.. I don't think that I am going to consider this.. or ever look at him again the way i used to be.. " I said to them..
" Maybe your heart belongs to other.. whom you don't want to say away from him.. but you also want to stay close too him.. we never know.. " and that same time my eyes meet with Nickols.. my whole body shiver whenever we both look at each other with that look.. why he alway looking at me that way.. somthing happen to him..
" Please don't tell me that it's happened to be him.. you very well know your sister will be kill you.. if she find out.. " Mia said to my ear. And my eyes wilden hearing this.. I look at her and she give me sad smile. I know she is right.. or I don't know what to think.. but still why I feel something to him.. there is nothing that I will ever feel somthing to him..
He is just Friend.. we spend time.. talk and Nothing that make me to fall for him or even like him.. even I am not looking at him that kind of eyes.. and how can I forgot that he is badboy.. he is doing bad shits.. we both have different life.. different things to do.. we never will be together.. over things over lifestyle everything is different.. even I am not Belongs to his life.. and we both know that I am too good to him.. and he is to dangerous to me..
Better be not think like this.. cozz it's never going to Happen.. him or me.. no ever.. if it happen before.. I better find Noah.. and change things before I lose my mind my heart my everything... fuck it.. I am in deep shit..
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