Chapter 1: One

Alex catches us red-handed and what I mean by that is naked... He was furious and left walking home without a word to either of us. Nathan left, speeding off after him. In that moment, I knew his best friend meant more than I did. I've been waiting for over an hour, still no Nathan. I decide to shower and clear my head. I can't believe Alex caught us and saw everything. How could we have been so careless? As soon as I get out and dressed there is a knock on the front door. My hair is still wet I reach the front door and as soon as I pull it open it's Alex standing there. His head hung low and his hands in his pockets. I open the screen door, he meets my eyes and says, "Can we talk?" Nodding my head, I reply,"Why don't you come inside." He does as I shut the door behind him as he sits on the couch. His elbows resting on his knees, fingers laced together, hanging between them. He says, "Why Kathryn? Why did this happen?" My heart aches at the utter sadness in his voice, remaining calm. I cross the room and sit down beside him looking at my hands trying to explain as best I could. "I'm so sorry I didn't mean for it to. We hung out and got caught up in the moment. One thing lead to another and before we knew it, we both felt this connection. Alex please understand it was not done to hurt you. It wasn't about you at all. For once I did something for myself." Alex is looking at the floor he won't even look at me. I know what I said hurt him as much as what he saw. "Listen to me when I tell you that we wanted to tell you. We had so many conversations about how and when we should. When you started seeing Jo I just knew she was the one for you. And that maybe you would understand how we felt about each other. Why does it matter so much that it's Nathan? Would it matter if it was somebody completely random?" This hits a nerve he looks up at me and says "It matters because last night I was going to tell you that I was still in love with you. Nathan knew that he's known it all along. He knew that before yall ever started this. He doesn't want you Kathryn. Hail cares about himself and himself only. What could he possibly give you that I couldn't?" my eyes sting as much as my heart does at his selfish words. This strikes me past hurt it makes me furious and I say without thinking. "Let me tell you one damn thing it's been years since we were together and when we were at the end it was always something with you. We had so much in common it was scary but we were also young. We wouldn't have lasted getting married straight outta of highschool. You know this as well as I did. You didn't trust me when we were in the same town, what makes you think you would have trusted me when I went college in a different one? About Nathan he's a good man and hes been through a lot that I'm sure he doesn't even tell you. We also have a lot in common but not just simple things like music or television. He tried to know me and not change me. We think the same and when I'm with him I feel alive Alex. Do you understand what that means to me?" he laughs which is pissing me off more then he says "Well funny thing about price charming Kat, he choose me over you. Did he come back or even call you? No I can answer that he did what Hail does cut and dry. No explanation, it's his way and always will be. Let Sarah have him I did you a favor." he goes to say something else and I cut him off "I don't want to hear anymore. Please just leave." he crosses the living room and before he opens the door he says "I didn't come here to hurt you Kathryn. I gave all my first to you. I wanted nothing more than a future with you. Hell I still do. It could have been different, we could have found the love we lost, but instead you threw it away over someone who wouldn't ever commit to any real relationship. How does it feel to be another on a long list of broken hearts?" Then he walks out the door. My heart is shattered but I will not let this break me. I may never know what really was said between them but I know that Alex was in fact trying to hurt me why else come back before the sun came up to tell me all of this. One thing that is for certain I will not let myself be weak again.