Chapter 2: The Princess Wants to Die Comfortably Chapter 2
Should I just commit suicide?
Unlike my second death, if I died from the beginning, the story will be a little different.
With that thought in her mind, she ran back and forth in front of her dressing table.
The only sharp objects in the room were the thorns of the roses in a vase.
Dying from thorny tetanus is a little… disappointing.
While death would always be the same, suicide is still terrifying. Because it takes a lot of courage to be able to take your own life...
"No, then, if I think about it I'm going to have to regress again, so let's start from the beginning."
Like a childcare romance fantasy story, It's good to start from scratch.
Maybe if I can prevent the harassment of Sitara, I won't be portrayed as a villainess.
"WHY?! why does it happen every time?! every single time?! Why do I always come back to when I'm nineteen? Why…"
According to the background story of 'The Prince Returns', Eute's childhood has already progressed, so why did I come back after it already started?
The first time I possessed Ophelia was when she was 17 years old.
She ruffled her soft creamy hair.
If she had regressed back to when Ophelia was 16, then there would have been any reason for Sitara to killed.
"Ah... Once again I'm back."
No, of course I didn't kill her, though Ophelia did push her to brink of suicide.
But how can I die well? No, how can I die comfortably?
I wanted to die slowly while I slept. Of course, the villainess, Princess Ophelia, does not deserve that kind of end.
I have to fully change my plans.
Don't avoid the original narrative, yet don't follow it, but do die in comfort.
If the death ending has already been confirmed, then the best way is to die as painlessly as possible.
She didn't have the courage to commit suicide because she had already suffered many deaths. And every time she saw something sharp, her heart trembled.
"Princess, Your Majesty, I've brought your breakfast."
"Come in."
As the door gently opened, Amy, who had brought breakfast, stared at her again.
I used to say I hate avocado salad.
Perhaps because of that, there was no avocado salad in the food she was holding.
By now, Eute must be a ten-year-old child, locked away up in a tower, weeping alone.
Between late summer and early autumn. He must have had to overcome the threat of dying several times by now, because of how hot the summer was at the tower.
It was extremely hot inside the tower, and this age there was no such thing as air conditioning.
And Eute always seemed to live a terrible life. Yet he had a vicious life force and survived it all, like a cockroach.
"Amy."
"Yes, Your Majesty."
She ate a spoonful of soup. It had been a while since she ate this food.
It has been already 40 years since I started living as Ophelia Dain Redania.
I return at nineteen and die at twenty-nine.
She lived no more or no less than just ten years. Then repeated that four times over.
Her age and years she had truly lived in her heart is almost half a century
"How long has he been imprisoned?"
"Ah… that suddenly…"
Amy seemed perplexed when Ophelia spoke of Eute's presence, especially that she hadn't even spoken of him in a quite while.
Well, that's probably because I was the one who treated Eute as a monster and locked him in the tower.
Amy bit her lips then lifted her eyebrows. She couldn't tell what she's supposed to say, but she continued…
"It has been just over one year today."
Judging from the series of events already, even if I do good to Eute, I will die.
If we leave him alone in the tower, it won't affect him, and when they try to kill him, he doesn't die either because of the main character's buff.
Even if I have them executed him right in front of you. Eute will survive somehow, no matter what happens.
No, even if I poisoned him, he will stop breathing for a while like in Romeo and Juliet, but then return to life.
Because the main character is not the main character for nothing.
"Can't kill, can't save..."
She took a sip of her soup, leaving Amy's line of sight, who was standing there looking at her in amazement.
If I try to kill him too openly, I'm sure he will get revenge on me and burn me at the stake.
So this time, I'll manage to do it right from the start.
"I'll have to ask him to kill me mercifully."
She muttered quietly.
There wasn't much time left. Only 10 years left from now.
Unless the human brain is that of a goldfish, I should be able to remember what is to happen, but after four or five regressions, I no longer remember the exact dates.
10 years is not a very long time. Rather, the time is too short to build bonds between people.
That was something I desperately realized after I tried to build a relationship with Eute.
Considering the first time I possessed Ophelia, the time to get Eute out of the tower shouldn't be too far off.
So, the first thing to I have to do now is to take Eute out of the tower. It's clear now that even if I do good deeds, I won't be trusted.
One way or another, if I'm to die after I grow up to be twenty-nine, I would hope that Eute would feel sorry for me and kills me as mercifully as possible.
Of course things can't be this easy.
"Uh, Your Majesty, May I ask do you know where you headed?"
Everyone seemed to be busy paying attention to me, probably because they felt my steps were heading towards the tower where Eute was.
In the imperial family, Eute was a nameless being. If they called him 'His Highness, the Prince or 'Eute-sama' in front of Ophelia, she wouldn't stand for it.
However, if they refer to him as 'Eute' or 'It', that would be an insult to the imperial family.
Well, the only remaining in the imperial family in is me, so it does not really matter.
Oh yea, today I had a knife in my hand.
"Yes."
When I said that, everyone's faces turned chilly cold. It was a face that was like they were going to get stabbed.
It seems that those serving the imperial family have misunderstood something.
I have killed people from time to time, but I have never killed anyone with my own hands. At least that was my rationalization of it.
In that sense, being a villainess was hard work.
Growth-type fantasy novels were a thing of the past for me. Seeing people beheaded was hell in its own way.
It's the worst to die as a villainess, but it's also living hell to kill countless people unwillingly.
When I first ordered someone to be killed, I couldn't sleep or eat properly for a long while, but it's funny that I got used to it.
"Greetings, Your Majesty, the Princess!"
The knights guarding the tower greeted me, but I was in too much a hurry to care.
She nodded her head to the knights greeting her then step quickly into the tower.
"Don't follow me."
"Huh? Oh, understood!"
Normally, an escort would have to stick around, but inside the tower, there was no need for that.
Eute's only protector, Shana was the only one there.
Am I crazy to think he want to kill me? Will Eute, who is locked in a cage, kill me?
Even if I try to kill him anyway, he will somehow survive until I turn twenty-nine.
That's of course because I'm the villainess and the final boss of Eute's story in this novel.
After all the hardships that I must live through until my half-brother returns home.
I know what my destiny is.
In my previous life before becoming Ophelia, there was no one who wanted to poison me or tried to bring me down from a throne, but it's different now.
I almost died several times not only at the hands of Eute, but also at the hands of his servants, but not once did I die to them.
That's how I found out that my character's destiny mission is to be killed at the hands of Eute.
It's a life that I have to live, in order to die.
"…Hold on, Eute. Just be patient a little bit more."
She heard Shana's voice talking to Eute.
The sad figure of Shana, who was comforting Eute while holding on to him, flickered in Ophelia's eyes.
It was pitiful. I had seen this many times in my last life, and the life before and the life before that one. It was a situation that could not be watched without coming to tears. That wasn't sarcastic remark because it was genuinely sad.
"You just have to survive somehow, Eute."
That's right. The winner in the ring is the one who survives till the end, and they are also the ones remembered in the history books.
"Eute-sama is the emperor's only son, no matter what anyone says. His Majesty will surely take Eute-sama out of this tower."
I remembered the emperor lying on the hospital bed beyond his sixtieth birthday.
The relationship between me and the emperor was more like a grandfather and granddaughter rather than one between father and daughter.
That old grandpa?
It was very unlikely that my grandfather, who had a hard time taking care of himself, and who had no interest in the affairs of the Imperial Palace, would actually take out Eute out of the tower.
"That would be difficult."
That seemed to have been said too loud. Because Shana turned her body around quickly, when she heard Ophelia's voice.
She had a pale blue face, as if she had seen something that shouldn't have existed in the tower.
She was full of fear, but she was also looking with contempt.
Well, most likely, Sitara who died was friends with Shana, as they were both northern people who came together to work as maids in the palace.
"Your Majesty the Princess..."
Eute with a frightened look caught Ophelia eyes.
How could I have known that one who is now crying and trembling like that, would want to rip my limbs apart when he grew up?
After all, it's hard to believe everything when he's still this young.
Because of her unkempt hair, one could only see a glimpse of his emerald-colored eyes.
"Why have the Crown Princess come to this place?"
"There is nowhere in the Imperial Palace that I cannot go."
Shana hid the frightened Eute behind her back.
For Eute, Shana was like her second mother to him.
I was once the person who voluntarily entered the tower when Eute was imprisoned in the tower, and of course I was also the one who killed Shana.
Shana's death was a bitter event for Eute until the very end.
As Ophelia looked at her ten-year-old half-brother, she remembered the time when she first possessed Ophelia.
What the hell? this is wrong, was what I said she see first saw Eute.
I couldn't get him out of the tower right away like I'm doing now, but I often snuck up every night to see his face and took a great deal of effort to do so.
I was overjoyed when He first started called me sister,
I even raised Eute to take the throne of emperor.
My first life was literally like a flowery road.
Even if it were for my husband.
I never thought it would be a guillotine execution....
Rather, for my first death, I thought I would be mercifully given poison to commit suicide.
... but, even in my first life, it seems that Eute was never sincere to me.
Suddenly, she felt a chill as the thought occurred to her, she then touched his neck. And remembered the strange sensations when she first had her neck cut off.
TL/N: Heyooo, I did another chapter with the help of mech, idk if I will continue, but it seems a lot of fun so far. I have to say that some part were confusing even with 3 MTL apps and dictionaries, so once again I hope you don't mind, if some part are not the most faithful of translation. and I sincerely hope you enjoyed reading the chapter. If you want to help and stuff contact mech on her discord server, link: https://discord.gg/dXwCUJfNKg - Athena
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