A Nephalem's Impossible Path Chapter 42 - Reigniting of a flame 1/2 [R18]

A/N: IMPORTANT NOTICE! This chapter may seem surprising. As it's pretty sudden, but it has to be done to push the harem and R18 side of the story forward. I hope the explanation of why it is all happening will be logical and reasonable enough for you guys. Do remember this is my first time writing lemon too.

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A/N*2*: Also, for those who don't want to read the lemon. Know that some character growth is contained in this chapter. But as I am there, I will make a resume of what his happening with purely non lemon paragraphes. Don't thank me~. For those who want to read with the lemon, do not read this and skip further down.

Chapter without lemon:

Registering what was said, he immediately took in his surrounding. Beginning with turning hinself to the side to see Raynare's face sticking dangerously close to his. Laying at his side on the bed.

He also could feel the other two presences in the room, which he recognised as Kalawarner and Mittelt.

From the hesitation and fear he could sense from the three girls, mainly present in the two newcomers. This was surely some sort of plan, in the goal of seducing him, or at the very least give themselves some worth in bis heart. So that they could assured they would be treated well or that he wouldn't decide to simply dispose of them one day because they were bothersome to keep around.

He felt something rising, and it wasn't his dick. No, it was annoyance, and some confusion toward this very own annoyance.

Not seeing any averse reaction. Raynare looked into his eyes, and despite her own nervousness, still succeeded in pulling of a seductive look as a bit of provocation found itself in her tone. "Are we not desirable to you? Or do you simply not have any desire for a woman body?"

Are you even able to feel lust? Are you even a man?

Were the questions Julian was able to pick up between the lines.

Questions to which Julian had to ponder on for a bit. Why exactly, had he repressed his lust in the past seventeen years? And never acted upon it in the rare case it wasn't supressed?

But... was it really a question worth asking though?

Because, like all of his problems did. It of course all came back to his previous life in the end, didn't it?

And indeed, the reason why he never showed any active interest in sex was merely because of his own bad experience concerning it in his past life. It was yet another stupid shackle he had unconsciously put on himself because of it. Maybe because sex would make him think about his past life? Which was a thing to avoid as much as possible for the him of just yesterday morning.

In the end, it was all pretty simple, his first experience was really bad. Thus, he hadn't been that interested in doing it again.

Yeah, very stupid when he thought about it.

He at the very least inherently knew that he shouldn't base himself on whatever experiences he had in his previous life for anything at all. But his mind gotta do whatever shits it can do in order to 'protect' him.

But he didn't need protection anymore, so it was all null.

Thereby, he was willing to give lust another chance.

He had nothing to lose after all. In fact, he had all to win.

So, like a long lost extinguished fire had suddenly been reignited, Julian found himself pretty eager about the whole situation.

Was it what Mikan meant when she said he had to enlarge the holes in the box he locked himself in?

Julian didn't deign to answer Raynare as he just let them all continue what they were doing. His Gaze going to the other two girls who flinched under it. It was evident that they were way less confident than Raynare was in this endeavor.

But he didn't really care, it was their own choice after all. He wasn't forcing them.

He found his face brought back to Raynare's hands as either offended by his lack of answer or encouraged by not being rejected. She went for a full blown out kiss as she placed her hands arround his head. Even trying to insert her tongue in the kiss.

At that, Julian eyes widened a bit in astonishement as he was taken aback.

Even if he had no true 'experience' about the matters of the heart. He still had some common knowledge.

And so, wasn't kissing something considered rather intimate? Maybe not always, but with how passionately Raynare was going at it. It's certainly seemed equaly fueled by both passion and yearning than lust.

His complexion darkened for a very brief moment before it relaxed again and he closed his eyes.

It was easy enough to deduce where these out of place feelings were coming from.

It came from her own insecurities about it all, provoked by his very self.

It wasn't a question of whether she had been deserving or not of his vengeance. She did, but it didn't change the fact that he should take responsibilities for letting her live. Her past identity almost entirely erased by his own hand in the end.

If not, it would be better to just kill her off right here and now. For both her and his, fragile mental health...

It was with this thought, that he began reciprocating the kiss. And decided to stop being so passive.

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Actual chapter:

"Julian-Sama, wake up~. You've been sleeping for the better part of a day..."

Julian opened his eyes as a warm breath blew softly into his ear.

Registering what was said, he immediately took in his surrounding. Beginning with turning hinself to the side to see Raynare's face sticking dangerously close to his. Laying at his side on the bed.

He also could feel the other two presences in the room, which he recognised as Kalawarner and Mittelt.

Barely had he the time to notice the conflicting emotions present on the ex fallen angel's face, them being trepidation, lust and fear... That she slowly brought her face forward and deposited a kiss on his lips. While at the same time, slid her hand under his shirt, beginning to feel up his muscles.

He felt someone else take his left hand and sliding it underneath some sort of fabric, letting it lay on something big and soft. While a rather light weight made itself known on one of his leg. It was Mittelt, who seemed to be currently seriously hesitating about it all.

It was at this point that he completely woke up, his mind reflexibly analyzing the situation.

From the hesitation and fear he could sense from the three girls, mainly present in the two newcomers. This was surely some sort of plan, in the goal of seducing him, or at the very least give themselves some worth in bis heart. So that they could assured they would be treated well or that he wouldn't decide to simply dispose of them one day because they were bothersome to keep around.

He felt something rising, and it wasn't his dick. No, it was annoyance, and some confusion toward this very own annoyance.

Not seeing any averse reaction. Raynare looked into his eyes, and despite her own nervousness, still succeeded in pulling of a seductive look as a bit of provocation found itself in her tone. "Are we not desirable to you? Or do you simply not have any desire for a woman body?"

Are you even able to feel lust? Are you even a man?

Were the questions Julian was able to pick up between the lines.

Questions to which Julian had to ponder on for a bit. Why exactly, had he repressed his lust in the past seventeen years? And never acted upon it in the rare case it wasn't supressed?

But... was it really a question worth asking though?

Because, like all of his problems did. It of course all came back to his previous life in the end, didn't it?

And indeed, the reason why he never showed any active interest in sex was merely because of his own bad experience concerning it in his past life. It was yet another stupid shackle he had unconsciously put on himself because of it. Maybe because sex would make him think about his past life? Which was a thing to avoid as much as possible for the him of just yesterday morning.

In the end, it was all pretty simple, his first experience was really bad. Thus, he hadn't been that interested in doing it again.

Yeah, very stupid when he thought about it.

He at the very least he inherently knew that he shouldn't base himself on whatever experiences he had in his previous life for anything at all. But his mind gotta do whatever shits it can do in order to 'protect' him.