A heart disease, an agony in my heart that can't heal. Diseases that I get not because I'm weak, or ordeal in a breakup that most girls in my class deal with. I'm just a normal girl whose name means Strong, powerful, and beautiful woman. A tough and self-sufficient girl name 'Avyanna", I always thought it is funny that when we're kids we often remember most of our painful memories, hurtful moments that hunt us through this day and even visit us to our sleep. It's easy to spill dark paint on a plain wall of white canvas rather than complicate things. Some people say that you can learn from people who had the same occurrence as you, yeah they're right, inspirational people pop up from nowhere and motivate you for a short period saying" you're worthy, you're beautiful, you're the best! But does words they say to others often might not have been said to them for a long time. I feel like this is just a sign for me to wait and get swollen by the dark and die that made me realize, the stronger my spirit is the fragile my heart gets.