Chapter 3: ○Chapter 2
I crave the side of that you don't show to anyone else
Larkspuraster
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The parking lot was now empty . The evening wind had just arrived. I could see the hues of sun as it sets. It was pretty accept for this situation.
"What the hell are you doing?" He asked concerned yet there was some traces of anger there.
"Uhhh.. oh you see I lost my car keys and I thought maybe the fell on floor hence why I'm on the floor, " I explained as I stood up. Dusting off some dirt on my pink skirt.
Its pretty reasonable and true-ish. Right?
I hope he believes me but the look he gave me said other wise.
"Its true," I stated batting my eyes. I give home my best puppy eyes.
He's head pointed towards the keys in my hands. Damnit
" That's why I fell I had found my keys but I stepped on something
You know how clumsy, I get " I insisted with my lie,trying to make it more believable.
"I know you were eavesdropping, Kristina, " Did he just use my full name. Why is he angry?
No why in the world would he even use it besides him being angry.
I quickly shook my head receive a whiplash. Denying everything he had said.
Should have put my hair in a bun. "No, I was really looking for my key." I pressed on.
Trailing off "Kristina." He looked exhausted as if had ran a marathon twice. I noticed that he had bags under his eyes. He seems pale. This isn't the time for me to feel sympathetic towards him.
And why is he still using my full name? I'm done with this. He has no right to be angry.
Blue berries
"Why are you late?Did you plan on not coming?" I fired back " Why are you with her? Is she more..." my voice quivered " more important than me? I genuinely wanted to believe she was not. But I knew better.
He's not the type to help anyone but me. He's never missed any of my competitions before. And yet she showed up and he did not.
He was silent for a while. A little longer than expected, I breathed out" Nathan..." I trailed off
I felt like a volcano that has already erupted.
"Your blowing things out of proportion," I smiled, I'm blowing things out of proportion really.
"Nathan, I'm leaving" I heard badger girl interrupt.
Turning around with a full on deathly glare" Why are you with him?,"
She ignored me and just walked away. "Hey!!Hey!! I'm talking to you! ," I bellowed out as I marched towards her.
She has to be reason why Nate came late. I won't let her go that easily. " Honey badger girl!" Calling her as she sped walked away. I increased my speed too across the parking lot
As soon as I was about to grab her hair or anything .Nate pulled me away from her. His arms wrapped around my waist as I struggled to get out of his hold. I won't let her go.
" Will you calm down!" His deep voice was loud it over powered mine.
" I can't," I whispered tears falling down slowly. I felt weak.
What's wrong with me?
" You can, " He replied calmly.My advances soon faltered as minutes passed by. I couldn't. It was useless at this point.
I saw that... that girl drive away with her teammates. They were laughing. Were they laughing at me?
" Why did you come late? We lost you know." I whispered watching the non extant sunset again. Atleast it looks better than this situation.
" Rose needed my help, she's new in town and was lost.To top it off she had to compete today at this competition Since I was heading there I helped, " he explained, his head nestled in my neck.
I turned around,looking at him directly in the eyes. "But you never helped out anyone new from town," I spat out the words with venom.
" Kristi you need to leave," He ignored my previous statement letting go of me.
I scoffed really. I walked away this time.
It was getting late anyway.
Rose. I don't care if your new in town. Everyone knows not get too close to Nate. You should have known everyone does.
His mine. His always been mine.
I got into the car and drove away. My drive home was quite, silent. What I really needed yet hated.
When I finally got home. That's when everything hit me like a ton of bricks, I dropped to the floor. I couldn't breathe. I felt trapped,. I felt lost and weak.
I shouldn't have done that. Why did I do that?
I couldn't control my emotions, I can't hold them back now. It's her fault that Nates angry at me , it's her fault I could lose him. His all I got I can't lose him too.
I ran my hands through my hair.I can't.. I.. I love him. My eyes sting so much but I don't want to cry. I have already shown how weak I was today. I can't show it again.
The frustration was building up. I needed something to help remove this feeling this sinking feeling like I'm drowning alone.
I quickly ran upstairs to my bathroom. My breathing was laboured as I shakingly searched through all my cupboards.
Why can't I find it? Where is it? A small whimper left my mouth. The lump in my throat was unbearable at this point.
I kept on searching for it. As I searched through on of the drawers near the mirror something cut me.
I found it.
My razor. Some blood was trickling down my arm.
I know, I promise Nate I wouldn't use it but it's difficult not, I really need to remove this ...this feeling.
It hurts too much to think about it. It hurts. I need to remove this frustration.
It won't hurt if it's just one simple slice.. maybe two.. okay three would be enough. I'll only do it on my wrist nowhere else so it's not technically breaking the entire promise.
He would hardly even notice they would be small.
It helps, though.
The pain from each slice gave me some kind of relief a sence of peace just for now.
Just for tonight. That's all I needed.
I chuckled, I guess, I really do blow things out of proportion. A lone tear fell.
I'll fix it for him I will. I wiped off the tears.
I hope his okay with that,atleast. I washed away the blood from my arm and razor. The cold water increase the the pain. The wound looked a bit wrinkled the longer I kept my hand in the water.
The lines were still visible . The will leave scars. It's not like he'll see it.
I took a long shower afterwards. I feel numb a good numb. Taking out my pyjamas a simple shirt with some shorts. I dragged my feet out of my closet.
Plumping on my bed. I switched off the lights as I let the darkness trickle in world of dreams. Maybe in there he's not angry at me and we never fought.
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