Home. What a dump!
Beer bottles covered the floor of the living room. The air reeked of alcohol, it smelt flammable. Alice obviously. Using substances to get through life was part of my DNA now. Joshua wasn't home most likely sleeping with some other women. But who cares, because I don't! He could run away with some other woman for all I cared!
Alice lied on the sofa , beer bottle still in hand. It became a part of her. If she loved it so much why doesn't she marry it?! I shook her to wake her up saying, "Mum."
Mumbled slurring of speech mixed with incoherent groans came out of her mouth. Absolutely useless! Just lying there letting me clean up her mess! How helpful!
The door creaked open revealing a sorry excuse of man. His top buttons were undone and his tie loose."Dad, how's Jess or is it Olivia now?" I teased.
"Don't test me Dominic!" he scolded. "Is you mother-?" he started.
"Yes, out cold."
"Thought so. If she asks cover of me."
"Again?"
"Yes again!" He disappeared into his room as per usual. I hate him! I hate her! My mind ran at 30 mph cursing Alice and Joshua for everything they have done. It was just too much so I went to my room.
I started to smoke. My frustration fades as the smoke filled my lungs. Then I remember her. Little miss candy floss. The number I folded in my pocket. I took it out scanning the number over and over in my mind as I smoked. I turned on my phone as I navigated to my contacts. One single name caught me eye. Kate. I completely froze. Every painful moment flooding my mind. I quickly put the cigarette to my lips smoking for dear life. Just forget her and everything that happened.
I got to typing Little miss candy floss's number checking and double checking every digit to ensure it was correct and saved it. Time to construct a message. I cycled through seemingly thousands of greetings until I settled on "🚬" seemed fitting as I was smoking.
I waited for a reply for hours and hours. Until-
"Haha, nice one!"
Her response lit up my screen as a small smile formed on my face. What was I doing? I don't even like her? Do I like her? Of course I don't! You know what happened to Kate so don't do this all over again! A vibration from my phone made me turned to its screen. Little miss candy floss's text read, "So I was thinking we could meet up before school starts!" My mind told me to type 'no' or just ghost her but my heart made the decision for me. I typed "Sure" without a second to process was I did. It's fine! I'll just make her think I care then I'll never have to talk to her again. It was better this way. Right-? Right! Just throw her way like a used toy.
Simply.