Chapter 5: Chapter 5
UNEDITED-
Marisol POV-
"So they are staying with your uncle?" She asked.
"Yeah.. until I get the papers approved to become their legal guardian".. I don't even know why I'm telling her this..
"Can I ask you something?" She spoke nervously.. this is gonna be good..
"Do I have to answer?" I asked.
"Well no but.."
"Go ahead, ask" I gestured nonchalantly with my hand..
"What happened after school yesterday?" She asked, looking at me as we walked.
"That would be telling" I raised my eyebrows playfully.
"Sol just remember I'm the one that covered up your bruises.. you don't have to hide things from me." She sounds sincere but I have been listening to her friends talk crap about me for years.. and I watch her sit there and listen and discuss what they think is going on in my life.. the rest of them I barely ever liked but this is someone I actually cared about.
"Don't get me wrong Alex, I'm greatful for everything you've done for me, but at the same time I can't forget the last few years.." ..I feel like she already knows too much but I just can't stop telling her things.
As we approached the gates somehow with time to spare I stopped to wait for Alex to go in before me.. I know Natasha has already seen us together so she will be asking questions, but it's another thing to walk to school together as well.
Weirdly she stopped with me.. I looked at her confused.. "I'm sorry.. about yesterday.. about everything.." She spoke as she looked to me, to my surprise her eyes were watering.. "I should have been there.. I should have apologised as many times as it took.. I should have at least stuck up for you. I thought you hated me.." She tried hard to contain the tears that had now began rolling down her cheeks, the redness in her eyes somehow made the blue more vibrant.. I can't have her thinking this is all her fault.
"I push everyone away.. I have to admit I was angry when you told Sky.. I mean of all people you told the biggest gossip in the school.. but that's besides the point. Either way I was going to find something to use against you, whether it was that or something else.." Honesty is a skill I rarely get to use, but I guess she has earned a little.
"Can I ask you something else?" She spoke, wiping her tears away with the sleeve of her coat.
"What is it?"..
"Do you think you could ever trust me again?" The audible lump in her throat and tearing eyes was hard for me to witness. I don't know what to do when people cry. I just hugged her for a second without saying anything.. she instantly threw her arms around my waist holding me tightly. I tried hard not to wince in pain, my ribs are still hurting from being body slammed, the bruises have only just started to fade.
"If you keep crying I will have to fix your make-up" I said jokingly as I parted us..
"If I wanted to look like a clown.." She retorted.
"Then you would ask Natasha.." I smiled and she finally did too.
"That's better" I grinned.. "And to answer your question I honestly don't know if I'm capable of trusting anyone. Even now I'm thinking up scenarios in my head of what parts of my messed up life Natasha will try to hurt me with.. she probably already has something lined up since Marcus decided to show up drunk.." I couldn't help but sound pissed off. "Anyway I don't want to give her more reason to give you trouble, or me. So just go in and I'll see you later okay?". She reluctantly nodded and continued on without me.. I heard the bells go as she walked through the gate so I went in too.
My teacher wasn't in for the whole of first period so I went to the library.. For about an hour or so I sat scrolling through various items online that I've always wanted but never been able to afford..or just stupid things like a whole case of peanut butter, 24 cartons of chocolate fudge milkshake.. almost everything I bought was in thought of stocking up my pantry in my new house.. I bought an avalanche of all the foods my brother's love. After what happened last night I can tell Marcus won't be home for awhile to mess up my amazing plan.
I'd asked Samantha if she could stay at my house until I get home, to receive all the packages for me. She said she would do it for free since she has a few days off but I insisted I'd pay three days worth of wages.. what's it to me anyway?. Besides I already transfered it to her. She asked me where I got the money and I told her I robbed a bank.. she called me straight away and I had to explain to her that I was joking, it was a birthday gift.. she finally relaxed and put the phone down. She never did get my sense of humour..
The day was going okay.. lunchtime came around and I was on my own again.. until Rain came and sat nexto me.. "Is it weird if I say I missed your company?" She asked..
"No.." I shook my head nonchalantly "I actually kinda missed you too.." Not caring about how someone perceives you really takes the pressure off. I don't even remember when she started joining me for lunch.. sometime after I left Natashas group.. at first we would barely even say anything to eachother.. just 'hey'.
I was busy eating my dinner in silence listening to the buzz of the cafeteria.. the voice I hated most seemed to be the loudest of all. "It must have been so embarrassing.." Natasha over acted as she sat down.. she should get an award for best bitch. Or worst bitch? I don't even know.
"Did you see that punch though? she really busted a mans nose" Sky chirped up joining the hype. Alex glanced over to me and back to the girls.. I could only see the backs of their heads..
"No Sky I told you I wasn't there!"..."I bet it was her dad.." ..
"Alexa you were with her, do you know who it was?" Sky asked, trying to deflect Natashas attention from herself. I'm glad Willow wasn't there to confirm.
"No I don't know" Alex shook her head clearly uncomfortable.
"You seem to be spending alot of time with that deserter.. just remember girls, she left all of us.. including you Alexa" Natasha hummed like mother hen.. I clenched my fist around my fork, hearing her slander me over and over.. This rage started to bubble up inside.. my breathing sped up and I wasn't sure if I could control what comes next.
"She really is crazy.. you won't be smiling when she comes at you with a cafeteria tray.." Willow chimed in. I squeezed my eyes shut trying to dissociate.. I'm better than this.
Rain gently put her hand on top of mine.. "Breathe.. they are just words.." I slowly relaxed my muscles and took a deep breath.. I relaxed enough for the auburn haired girl to slowly take the fork from me with her other hand.. I kept my eyes closed as I breathed through the anger..
"If my dad smelt like that I don't know what I would do.. and her mother left her. Imagine how messed up you would be." Sky sounded like she was really thinking about it.. What hurts the most is she is absolutely right. I'm so messed up.
Rain squeezed my hand reassuringly.. "I've seen you get through hours of this.. you need to get back to that place.. you're still in control" She whispered to me. I've never seen her be caring before. I didn't know she was capable of it, and for me?
"Natasha.. Sky.. shut the fuck up"..Alex spoke in a voice that said 'I've had enough'. My eyes shot open and her face said the same thing.. "Why don't you just worry about your own lives instead of judging people that you don't even know.."
"Woah, what's gotten into you all of a sudden?" Natasha asked completely shocked..
"I just realised I've been wasting my time with the wrong people.." She replied simply before getting up and leaving the cafeteria.. The whole room was silent.. After about ten seconds it was buzzing again, this time with gossip about Natasha for a change.. I kind of liked hearing about how much of a bitch she is. It took me about a minute of sitting here contemplating what to do before I finally decided to go after Alex. I just want to make sure she's okay..
I walked out the same way she did.. I looked in the empty classrooms but couldn't see her.. I went to the stairwell and she wasn't there either.. maybe she's in the library it's the only other place in this direction. I walked down the various rows and found her browsing the fantasy section..
"Are you alright?" I asked softly as I approached.
"I feel pretty good actually" She glanced to me smiling before resuming her search..
I looked to a book and took it from the shelf.. the synopsis was pretty basic, magic and werewolves.. As I put it back on the shelf I noticed blood on the cover of it.. "Shit" I cursed under my breath after looking at the open wounds on my hand. I didn't realise I had grabbed the fork so hard. The adrenaline had numbed the pain, but now it had began to wear off.
Alex walked over to me pulling a packet of tissues out of her bag.. she pulled three out and passed them to me.. she took another one out and cleaned off the book that I'd held.. "Thank you" I said it like I meant it because I did.
"You shouldn't listen to them.." Alex shook her head.. "Show me" She asked.. I took the tissues away for her to see. She gently took my hand in hers to get a closer look. This is kind of awkward, why is my heart rate increasing? "I think you might need stitches.." She looked up from my hand clearly worried.
"You saw them this morning what's changed?.." I asked confused.. She held my hand at different angles to get a better look. It's still bleeding quite alot.. there's probably a trail of blood that leads straight to me. She let go of my dripping hand... taking the tissues from my other one and balling my hand around them.
"I think it's just going to keep opening up.." Alex gently took my right hand to see the condition of it. "This one is not too bad.." ..All this touchy feely stuff is making me uncomfortable.. I didn't say anything.. I just stood there like a doll as she examined my hands.. for a second I had been worrying about if I did need to get them stitched.. health care doesn't come cheap. Then I remembered.. money is the last of my troubles.
"I'll go to the walk-in centre after school okay?" I offered taking my hand and the tissues back from her to cover my wounds, so that I wouldn't keep bleeding all over the floor. There were only three deep wounds that wouldn't stop bleeding.
"Or we could just go now?.. I don't really feel like staying here, do you?" She asked clearly knowing that I'd rather not be here..
"We?" I raised my eyebrow..
"Would you rather go alone?"..
"No.. I guess not" ...
"Good" Alex smiled and left the library.. something is definetly different about her. She seems lighter. I followed her out of the library and to my surprise she walked by my side through the halls..
"So how are we going to get past him?" I covertly pointed to a man who was standing by the doors, monitoring people going in and out.
"I'll call my mum and ask her to vouch for me.. and I guess you're going to have to write a note.." She clearly didn't like her own plan..
"It's not okay when I do it.. but when you decide-"
"It's not ideal. But, I think it's all we've got.. can you still write properly with your hands like that?" She asked in a serious tone.. I didn't even think about it before.
"Considering I'm left handed, probably not.." I held up my hand.. a line of blood ran to my elbow. "Just call your mum and wait for me outside." I walked away from her and went straight to the principles office.. Her assistant had just put down the phone as I entered the reception area/waiting room.
"Everything alright Miss Sullivan?" She chirped.
"Yes I think so.. is Mrs Benjamin around?" I asked politely. I guess hiding and staying under the radar doesn't matter now.
"Oh you just missed her.. what's the matter dear?" She asked with a sincere expression. She's honestly lovely.
"Well.. yesterday I fell and some glass broke.." I revealed my hand with the balled up, now bloodsoaked tissues in, her mouth opened in shock.. "I thought it could wait until school finished but-" ..
"Should I call for your father to pick you up?.. I'm sure you don't want to go alone.." Mrs Wilson interrupted me. I thought it was going to be harder than that.
"Oh no that's alright.. I'll just ring him on the way.." I insisted.
"Okay.. let me just write a note for you dear.." She said, grabbing a pen and a fresh piece of paper.. she held the folded note in her hand and looked up at me.. "Marisol, are you sure you're alright?" She asked with a look of genuine concern.
"Yeah I'm fine" I smiled as best I could.. "I'll be better when they fix my hand." She smiled back and passed me the note.. "Thank you Mrs Wilson.. I hope you have a lovely day, I should also mention that there is a trail of blood from the cafeteria to the library"..
"Oh my" she sighed, cringing as she shook her head.. "Do try to take care of yourself Miss Sullivan.." she spoke with care.
"I will" I nodded, smiling.
As I walked back through the halls full of people, I noticed Natasha near the exit.. she was with Willow, Sky and Storm.. For some reason Alex was still waiting by the front doors 15ft further down from them. The group stopped talking and looked at me as I walked past.. Storm grinned as she always does. I looked at each girl for a second before casually looking away, unbothered. "Bitch" Natasha muttered under her breath causing a smirk to plant itself on my face.
That's me I guess.. I either cry, laugh, don't care or go into a blind rage. I never really know which it will be.
As I walked towards the doors Alex spoke to me.. "Where did you go?" She asked..
"To get a note?" I answered awkwardly.. I know she went off at Natasha but this is really rubbing it in her face.. I could already feel her eyes burning holes into the back of my head. I saw Alex slyly glance past me a couple of times.
"Okay.. My mum already called the school so can we go before you bleed out?".. I laughed unintentionally but was able to stop myself a few seconds in.
"I'm not going to bleed out.. it was worse than this yesterday.." Mainly because yesterday I was having to deal with both my hands. Today one is scabbed up and the other.. well it's messy. I think it might be worse but I'm not going to tell her that.
"I know.." She sighed, placing her hand reassuringly on my forearm for a second before taking it back.. I can't figure out if that was for me or Natasha.. "Hey you better go first or they'll get suspicious.." ..I nodded and walked out of the first set of doors, showed my note to the door monitor, and left the building through the main door. I'm so glad they are automatic doors, my other hand might not be bleeding everywhere but it still hurts..
I waited outside, a minute later Alex walked up to me.. She pulled the packet of tissues from her pocket and gave me a few more.."Thank you" I threw the bloodied ones in the trash, balling the new ones up in my hand. She pulled a bloodied tissue from her other pocket and put it in the bin.. "Where did that come from?" I asked confusedly.
"I cleaned the book remember?" She spoke like I was a child.
"And you put it in your pocket?" That's weird..
"I couldn't leave it there, and I forgot about till now.." She frowned..
"Fair enough.." Reasonable I guess.. still she could have just given it to me.. This whole time I couldn't get another thought out of my head.. I couldn't carry on with our journey until I spoke my mind.. "Alex?" I asked.
"hm?"..
"Whatever is going on between you and Natasha.. please don't make me a part of it, I'm already the deserter, I don't need to be 'the stealer of friends'.." I said it like it was the title to a shitty movie.
"I don't want to make you a part of it..besides you were my friend first.. we barely even know them before Kingsley.." She replied frustratedly..
"Why did you wait inside for me?"..
"Why are you asking me this?" She asked furrowing her eyebrows.
"I just.. really want to know."..I stopped walking and looked to her.. I can see her car from here, we better get this out in the open before I get into the car with her.
"Fine.." Alex sighed as she turned to me.. "This whole time I convinced myself that you were invincible.. that what they were saying never hurt you because you were so good at acting like it didn't. I saw you today in the cafeteria.. and Rain, she was there for you.. I just want to be there for you, I guess I wanted them to know that aswell.. I didn't do it to make more problems I swear." Wow..
"I can't believe you saw that." I spoke awkwardly as she unlocked her car, walking to the drivers side and opening the door. On the way to the hospital I called Sam to let her know that I was going to be late home.
As we arrived Alexs phone started ringing.. "It's Storm?"
"Answer it?" I replied in the same questioning tone.. I went inside to register with reception before sitting in the waiting room with a bunch of other injured people.. a chubby, balding old man holding a bloody rag to his head sat across from me.. As he was sat by the water dispenser he offered me a cup of water straight away.. bless his heart. I kindly accepted.. "Thank you sir" I bowed my head as he passed me the paper cup with his free hand, he smiled warmly back at me, just as he did a name was called and he got up to leave.. A few minutes later Alex came in and sat down in the seat next to me. "Everything okay?" I asked.
"Yeah.. she said Rain was worried about you. Then she started asking me about your hand.. and I just told her I didn't ask because it's none of my business. At least you got them talking again.." She added.
"Great.." I don't care but I tried to sound convincing.. she just look at me like she knows exactly what I'm thinking.
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Four hours later and we finally left the hospital.. 14 stitches all together. They decided to put 4 in my right hand on the deepest cut, it goes across my thumb muscle. So 10 stitches in my left hand.. that wasn't fun at all, I hate needles. I insisted that Alex leave me there but she didn't. She even offered to pay for my medical bill. I guess she does still think I'm penniless. Obviously I told her I could take care of it. Even though it's not really her money it's a kind offer.
We drove back to my house and honestly I was so exited.. I invited Alex to come in with me, it seemed like she didn't really want to be on her own either. Both of her parents have always worked alot, spending less and less time at home over the years. As soon as we stepped foot inside boxes upon boxes were stacked on top of each other in the hall way. More had been scattered all the way into the living room.
"Sol?!" Samantha called out from in the kitchen..
"Yeah it's only me!" I replied..
"Sol I was going to call you earlier but I thought it was better if I waited until you got home" She sounded worried, her voice got louder as she approached from the kitchen.. pretty soon I saw her coming down the hallway. "Oh it's 'not' only you.." She smiled falsley.
"What did you want to say?" I asked focused on the point at hand as she came a little closer before stopping completely two feet away.
Sam looked to Alex and back to me awkwardly.. failing miserably at being covert.
"Don't worry Alex is a.. friend?" I looked to Alex and back to Sam.
"Is she or not? you're giving me confusing vibes.. I'd just feel better if you were sure"..
"Yes yes I'm sure.. what is it?" I asked..
"Well, I don't know exactly.. follow me" She spoke like she was a detective on a TV show. I looked to Alex and rolled my eyes before following Sam.
We walked around the corner to the hallway that leads to the stairs.. Sam stopped and pointed to the broken glass and drying blood smeared all over the floor.. Shit I forgot to clean it up.. I went to face palm myself but remembered I have bandages on both my hands.
Alex walked up next to me and gasped.. I watched her eyes travel up the wall and her eyebrows raised.. I looked where her eyes were directed and mentally cursed myself for not noticing. A hole the size of my head staring me in the face.. I glanced at Sam who clearly hadn't noticed.. "Oh that.. yeah that's why I was late home.. I dropped the picture and, then I fell" I showed her my hands "Well anyway thank you for doing this for me.. are you sure your okay for tomorrow aswell?" Me and Samantha began walking back down the hallway to the front door.. I looked over my shoulder to see Alex still staring at the hole in the wall, I saw her eyes drop down at the mess again as we turned the corner.
"Yes of course.. especially at the rate your paying me" She winked. "When you said 'birthday gift' I didn't expect you to become rich overnight" she shook her head amused.
"Me neither" I laughed.. We quickly said our goodbyes and with that she left.
I locked the door and slowly walked back to Alex, who was still stood in the same spot.. I didn't say anything.. I just stood next to her for 20 seconds before she finally broke the silence.. "You 'fall' way to much" She sighed closing her eyes.
"Maybe I fell once and I just never stopped.." That sounds more like the truth..
NOTES-
Sometimes it doesn't work like I want it too.. Does anyone else disconnect with their writing so much that they feel they are not even the ones making up the story. Like it's just happing and I'm writing it down.
I hope you don't feel like this is time wasted.. have a lovely day :)
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