Chapter 3: 4th Oct ~ 8th October 2019
4th October 2019
2 days ago, I was at the hospital with my little sister in order to take care of her because she got sick. Well, the fact is when I leant my back on the edge of the bed which was on the feet-side, and my back, especially underneath of shoulderblades area, it was so hurt, it was really, really hurt! Oh, man! I have never felt like this before! It was more painful than usual. I felt that something was on my back like lumps, but phantom, they got stuck. It was hurt, uncomfortable. I couldn't sit comfortably until I took a drap on my back. I believe my wings are growing, but it still a long way to go.
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5th October 2019
HI! I have moved back to my house with new looking. It's looking big, but in my view, it's not looking great. The house design was based on my father's ideas. So I have nothing to say about it. Ok. let's get to the point. I don't want to talk much about other things than my progress.
Last night, I had a shower to clean the sweat. Before taking shower, I had taken off the binder (for people who don't know, I'm nonbinary and I have breast dysphoria so that's why I wear the binder), my back got so itchy, it was much itchier than usual. The first thing might be the side effect from listening to the wings growing subliminals. And the second reason I could think of it could be because of wearing a binder all day in such hot weather like today. And, because my back, mostly in the shoulder, I had to scratch my back to feel better. After then, I found out there were 2 red lines on my back by accident, they were right underneath the shoulderblades aka the scapula. They looked like they were blood coppered. Why did I say that? Because those lines were much redder than normal which made they were not like being bruised.
At first, I was super shocked and freak out. But then I became joyful quickly due to knowing that they must be related to my wings' growth. About 1 minute later, the lines had gotten faded away before I noticed them! I have this question: What the heck was that?? I, I don't get it! Man! I want to know what it's going on with my back so bad!
Okay. That was the last night. Now, next story. Dew days ago, I randomly found that my back seemed like it was hunched. I saw it when I was standing in front of the mirror and turned right to look at the left side of my body. At that moment, my back looked like it was hunched down when in fact I was standing straight. I had tried to fix my back, but it didn't work. No matter how hard I tried, my back still looked the same though I standing straight with a normal straight posture. So then, I took off the shirt and take a look carefully at my back to check out. And I noticed that the longer I looked, the weirder feeling about my back, Then I found out the reason. It was because of the lumps! Yeah! New lumps! Or I have to say that they were the muscle bumps which for bigger, and made my back look like being hunched. Thanks, Lord! My back had no problem, it was just the muscle bumps at shoulderblades got bigger and rounder a bit. Overall, they are small, but now they are kind of a bit easier to seek out if I looked carefully. I hope that this should not be found out by others, or not, it could be hard to tell them what the heck is going on with me, and they may not believe me and think that I'm crazy. I am serious. I take this wings' growth, the fact I am Aviae seriously. I am not lying or joking at all. In the future, I will hide my identity to show my wings to the world.
That is all for today. Bye
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8th October 2019
Last night, I didn't meditate but listened to the subliminal while sleeping. And well, I slept on my stomach for about an hour, I think so. And..... yeah hmm, I remember that when I was sleeping as listening to the subliminals, I had a weird feeling on my back, like there were the phantom wings, and I was kind of uncomfortable at first a bit. Then an hour or 2 hours later, I took off the earphones. Another hour later, I dreamed that I had gotten the lumps, and I was seeing my back with a mirror, I saw me having a weirder feeling than usual like the lumps were poking out further than the last time saw them. When I moved my shoulder blades, those lumps poked out further. At that moment, I was so curious, I wondered why my back was so freaking weird. So I looked for another mirror which was bigger to check my back. And I found that the lumps has grown sharper, more narrow, my skin was bruised and the shoulder blades were poking out weirdly. To make sure whether it was real or not, I moved my shoulder blades a bit to feel the movement and it was REAL! And, and, and... I woke up... Seriously?! How could I wake up at such a great moment like this one? I want to sleep again to see what would happen after then so bad... Hah, man, that's it.
But, whatever, it is still ok to me because I know that will absolutely come up someday in the future, and I also still remember the feeling which I had in my dream. It's so real that I could tell that it will come true. But the only problem is I do not know when it will be, I just know this dream is coming from the future, maybe some years later. I believe so.
Side word: I suddenly felt so itching on my back while I am writing these words. I wonder... Don't know, well, I can't explain.
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Gifts
-- Gift
received Weekly Power Status
-- Power
Ranking 
-- Power
stone