Chapter 2: 2.1 - A Newbie?
"Good Morning class. Welcome back. Hope you all have a memorable final year of school. Make it worthwhile. You will miss it forever once it's over. Believe me, it's something that you will always remember... ", our teacher delivered the usual lecture but this time there was something unusual about it.
I guess it was because this time it did hit me. It actually is the last year of school, the last year that I get to spend not worrying about the world beyond and actually enjoy the time that I have left with my best friends. And what did I do all this while?
Instead of making memories of a lifetime, I spent the past few months loving and crying, over losing someone who was never mine to begin with. I was so depressed that I didn't even realise that my friends tried so hard to cheer me up but nothing worked. I so badly wanted to spend my last year getting close to as many people as possible and making more friends and being happy.
But I started it with a deep love for depression. This depression was making my ability to think even more horrible. I ended up imagining the worst of everything. Kind of like a sad sad pessimist who can't even fake a smile. I stopped talking much to anyone and mostly created assumptions about everything. I was sick and tired of being so helpless and so lost. I needed help. I don't want to be sad, I don't want to grow old as a grumpy woman and die alone with five cats and not have anybody find my body till it starts stinking and my neighbors start to wonder if I'm actually dead . It felt like a darkness surrounded me and I felt trapped. I seriously needed help but my self esteem wouldn't let me ask for it to anyone. Damn, what am I gonna do!
"So everyone, meet your new classmate Ethan. Be nice. Ethan, why don't you introduce yourself?" she said, breaking me from almost dying as a grumpy old woman in my terrific visualization in my head.
Would I be a cute grumpy old woman?
Oh god, I should stop this.
STAAAPPP ABBYYY!!!!!
I finally looked up to see who it was.
Oooooooo, cuteee.
Of course, in the end your first impression is based on appearance and damn it was an impression. I looked at him trying not to gawk. He was tall, maybe a few inches more than me and of a wheatish complexion, you know like those summer beach tanned boys. Nice tan! His hair were styled into spikes (ugh guys and their weird hair trends!) and he wore a tight fitting shirt making sure his teeny tiny muscles are visible. His eyes, dark brown but damn he had better eyelashes than most girls in my class , lol. He looked like he was almost going for a photo shoot next.
Future model much? Maybe. Who knows.
" Hey friends, I'm Ethan Smith. I've just moved from upstate with my family. I'm into sports, mostly football and cricket. I know I'm going to have lots of fun here and I hope we all get along well and have a memorable year ahead." he said and smiled.
'Wow, quite confident.I likeyyy, but who is he? Why join our school in the final year? Won't he miss his friends from previous school? How could he be so confident among so many strangers? How is he so positive that we will have a good time ahead? How can he be sure of anything?'
So many questions were going through my mind but I decided to let them flee because I was no way interested in being friends with him even though he looked yumm. New friends meant more questions, more efforts, more drama and more mess in my life. I was unable to deal with the few ones I had, I couldn't handle another one. Definitely not.
All I could think was if Drake would still want to be friends with me, like before? Even after his girlfriend hates me? Though, I should be the one hating her. After what all happened, I don't think I can live without him. His girlfriend made it clear that she disliked my closeness to him and wanted me to stay away. Even when she used me to get close to him and get him to like her. He didn't even seem to notice my absence. I felt disowned. I felt disheartened by his ignorance. I understand that he does not like me the way I like him but that doesn't mean that he would give up on years of friendship just to be with this new bitch.
My thoughts were suddenly interrupted when Alice said, " He looks quite unusual right? Looks like he is going to make this year interesting. I'm gonna get him into our gang. "
"Whatever! Anything he does will never bother me. I don't care. All for you babe." I said in an annoyed tone.
After all she would check out every new guy. And a cute newbie would be her dessert. She was like Regina from mean girls. The only difference is that I could actually beat her in everything but I don't, keeping in line our friendship. But that does not stop me from leaving in a few comments every now and then. Hehe.
"Yeah right, if you will ever be able to get over Drake. " she replied, rolling her eyes.
Ahuh. Caught that Miss. Jealous lady.
She could never tolerate my closeness to Drake.I knew deep down that she too liked him, well half of the girls in the school did but I never understood it because her feelings used to come and go with her mood. She liked one guy one week and another the next. Shouldn't have mattered much to her.
I wish I could let go of all my sad feelings like that!
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