Chapter 77: The truth hurts, but liberates .
Pov ( third person / Lappland psychosis )
Lappland : " You just talk about what an important part of me you are , and yet you don't know it ? "
Said Lappland in a toneless and lifeless voice , while opening her silver blue eyes , which seemed to have lost any glimmer of life . This action and appearance surprised the reflection , which lowered her blade aimed at Lappland side . However , after this momentary bewilderment , a frightening smile appeared on her face .
Applying the blade to Lappland's side again , the reflection without a word drove the blade into Lappland's side. Surprisingly the scene did not look as it should have because the blade did not even cause bleeding . It looked as if the blade wasn't even material . It just sank into the body of Lappland without any resistance .
With a sudden flash in her eyes , Lappland's pupils narrowed to the size of pins , her trapped and wounded body tightened to its maximum, causing cracking sounds to come from the hands of the statues that held her . The veins on Lappland's neck and forehead were practically ready to come out from under her skin, they were swollen and pulsating so hard and fast that they looked as if they were about to explode . And yet no scream escaped from her throat . Lappland with her eyes wide open and teeth clenched , seemed to be sunk in some kind of trance .
Withdrawing her blade from Lappland side , the reflection watched as Lappland in stillness and silence , out of fatigue once again lowered her head down . The only evidence that Lappland was still alive was the steam coming out of her mouth along with her steady breathing . Looking at her work , the reflection smiled broadly . Then reflection crouched down so as to look at Lappland's face , which showed obvious shock and pain .
Reflection : " I can not kill you or physically harm you . Fortunately, unpleasant memories can sometimes hurt more than a physical pain ..... Even more so , when you are forced to recall themn over and over again . "
Said reflection raising one of the blades in front of her face , so that it is in their field of vision . In the eyes of Lappland the blade covered perfectly the eyes of her reflection , showing her a perfect view of the blade composed of many broken pieces of mirror . That's when Lappland saw and understood .
In the many pieces of mirror forming the blade there was no mirror reflection , rather there was a vivid image , a scene from her memory encapsulated on the broken piece's of mirror . Most , if not all of these memories was most exhausting and mentally painful moments of her life . Looking a little to the side , Lappland looked at the mirror pieces , covered with snow and blood , lying on the ground . And just like the blade shown in front of her eyes , each shard contained something she did not want to remember .
Reflection : " I can't kill you, that's rather obvious , but it's your own mind full of memories with which I can torture you . Although being honest , I don't want to do that to you . I don't want to torment and torture you .... As I said I am just a part of your mind . I wouldn't be doing this and I wouldn't be here if you didn't want me to . "
Says the reflection returning to a standing position .
Reflection : " Now ... Back to what is important ..... Yes I know why you are doing this , I know you as you know me . Nevertheless .... I want to hear it from you ? Why and what is the point of all this ?"
Saying this reflection aggressively grabbed Lappland by the hair , and then pulling on them the reflection forced Lappland to look at her .
Reflection : " You know what my role is ... I just want to know if you are sure of what you are doing ? "
Saying this , reflection looked Lappland in the eyes . At this time Lappland's eyes were filled with tears , hazy and lifeless , her breathing was heavy and uneven .
Lappland: " Do you play as my skepticism ? "
Asks Lappland in a weak voice as tears streamed down her face .
Reflection : " No I don't play ..... Someone of us must be skeptical of the world around us . You no longer have any dignity or awareness about the world around . That's why I'm here to ask you why ? And was it worth it ? ."
Replies reflection . But , receiving no response from Lappland, the reflection gave up , shake her head in disappointment and sighed.
Reflection : " How can you be so sure that Blake's confession is not due to her guilt . People have always sympathized with us and felt responsible ... They felt sorry for us , while acting as if they knew what it was like to be us . However, as soon as we stopped being convenient to their interests ... They treated us like a dog . Only those who cared about us the most stayed with us , however they are a bunch of idiots blind to the monstrosity that we are . "
Reflection says . However, meeting with silence again she let go of Lappland's hair . Then she turn her back on Lappland to look at the cold scenery around them .
Reflection : " This place is all we are ..... It is cold , lonely , abandoned , left to be buried in its own ruins , devoid of anything of value or other than the victims of your violence and destroyed memories covered in snow . Memories that like broken glass hurt us with our every step . Memories that you never had the courage to pick up or reassemble . "
Says the reflection making Lappland eyes to unconsciously turn to the side ,to see a mirror, whose reflection gave a perfect view of the cracked male face of the statue , on which there is clear pain , horror and fear..... Looking at this one face in Lappland's dead eyes there is clarity . In her eyes the face of the statue overlaps perfectly with the face of the young hunter which she killed today.
Reflection : "Yes they are the people you killed ..... You can't forget them and now like stones , their faces , their bodies and their existence weigh on your mind . And you know what is the saddest .... That I don't even have the ability to show you all the statues that you yourself created , and how many you forgot or didn't know about . "
Says the reflection walking up to one of the statues standing nearby depicting a woman in the clear last stage of pregnancy , beside which stands a little boy , whose stone head is missing half a face .
Reflection : " I do not even have the ability to show you the death and destruction that your existence has left . I can only remind you of what you remember , of what sealed your name as the name of the monster People who know you and like you , will explain your behavior with your mental state or past..... "
Odbicie : " However, the truth is that it doesn't change who you are . No reason does or will change that .... You killed not only those who deserved it ... and you did it for someone who ultimately betrayed you . Maybe you were once a victim deserving of sympathy , you had your problems which was understandable . But , now you fully deserve what is happening to you . "
Reflection says as she touch gently , the distraught female face of the statue , which after her touch crumbled into silver dust , which dodged towards the bright sky , changing the daytime scenery , to nighttime . Despite the snowfall, not a single cloud was visible in the sky . This allowed to see the beautiful aurora borealis and millions of stars . The image of such a sky was very familiar and very important to Lappland.
But even the beauty of this sky could not compare with the beauty of the moon , which in contrast to the one normally seen , has a stronger silver glow , which seemed to contain a hint of blue . Looking at that moon visible through the missing part of the roof , the reflection closed her eyes for a moment . Eyes identical to Lappland's eyes and so similar to the celestial body in the sky . After a moment of wallowing in the dawn of the moon , with a sigh , the reflection looked again at Lappland .
Reflection : " Was it worth it ? "
Asks Reflection as she approach Lappland again.
Reflection : " All this sacrifice just to hear .... "
As she spoke , the white hair of the reflection became black , silver -blue eyes became amber . The shape of the face and body changed to those identical to Blake .
Reflection : " ... I love you " .
Saying this , the voice of the reflection was identical to that of Blake .
Lappland : "I understand all this , I am who I am and I don't fight it . I am a monster ... "
Says Lappland to her approaching reflection .
Reflection : " This is the crux of this matter ..... You consider yourself and understand that you are a monster .... And yet you believe that happiness awaits you . You know very well that it makes no sense .... You are with Blake only for the fact that without her you are worthless. You have no family , except Blake's parents ..... All your friends and acquaintances , either left you , betrayed or broke contact with you . And I honestly don't blame them . "
Reflection : " Since we landed on Menagerie , the only reason for our continued life , was just a few thin threads . Mr and Mrs Belladona and Sienna , if it wasn't for them you would have killed yourself ... Still , you didn't trust them because they were too similar to the people who hurt you before ..... That's why you chose Blake as the anchor holding you in this world . When Blake betrayed you , you wanted to die ... "
These words spoken by the reflection caused a sudden silence . The wind stopped blowing , even the snowflakes stopped in the air .
Reflection : " Your aunt was right. . This was not about love ... What happened to you was a sad excuse for love . It was simply a struggle to continue living ..... A struggle for a reason to exist in a world where we really have nothing to keep us here . Lappland you are the perfect representation of words " I'd rather feel pain than feel nothing " . You would rather live in this lie than live with the uncomfortable truth . "
Reflection: " And my proof of this truth is the very fact of how you treated your mother and Trivia . In comparison with the harm done by Blake, they did trivial things. Not to mention that it is thanks to them that you are still alive. Both your mother and Trivia risked their own well-being by keeping you alive . Your mother in an obvious way and Trivia ..... You know very well what she did for you ..... And apart from the two of them, you know, people who would like to get to know you better. They are beautiful and much more your type. "
Reflection: " And yet you remain with Blake , even after what she did to you , you didn't even think to change the target of your " Affection" . However, here is another problem ... You do not know how to love , your feelings do not really matter . You are incapable of love , this is another one of the things your life has deprived you of . So don't pretend to be happy when inside you wanted Blake to die . This is the whole sad truth , you are obsessed with Blake because you obsessively want a reason and purpose in life to live ."
While saying this, the reflection body began to change its appearance again . From the current appearance of Trivia to Hazel , ending with Yang . All of them in tight bandages showed everything their body could . However, it is the last words coming from the reflection , seemed to finally break Lappland. Without any movement on Lappland's part, the hands holding her legs broke , separating from the main bodies of the statues , making her legs hang freely in the air . Then the hands on her torso and abdomen broke . At the very end her arms came free .
Meanwhile while this was happening , the hands of the statues , separated from the rest of the body , began to transform into silver dust , which rose to the sky . Leaving the statues without hands , Lappland fell on all fours on the ground covered with scarlet snow and shards of mirrors , which in contrast to her reflection seemed to cause her some pain .
Pain that seemed to be visible all over the space around them . Instead of white snow , black shimmering red-hot dust began to fall from the sky . Black spots began to form on the surface of the beautiful moon, and its blue glow also lost its strength, defeated by the red.
But what was really most spectacular was the collapse of the part of the building in front of Lappland. However, it wasn't just the building that collapsed , the whole ground slid down to form a huge cliff in front of which her reflection stood . The bottom of this cliff could not be seen because it was either too deep or the silver mist in it made it impossible to see . Interestingly , from the wall of the cliff grew many huge black crystals , from which a red glow was emitted.
Thanks to the collapse of part of the building , the area around and the sky were much better visible . The coniferous forest surrounding the building on at least both sides gained some black crystals similar to those on the cliff . The trees themselves seemed to crystallize into black crystal in some places . As for the starry sky, except for the moon, everything disappeared, obscured by black clouds, through which flashes of red were visible.
Eventually , the very space around seemed to become much more red . It's hard to say whether it was because of the reddish silver glow of the moon , the sky , or the black dust in the air . However, what could be said and one hundred percent confirmed is that Lappland .... was far from being in a good mood .
Reflection : " You will never change ... You hate lying and yet you lie to yourself ."
Saying this, the reflection returned to the appearance of Lappland. On the other hand, Lappland lost her smile . Standing up from the ground , Lappland stretched both arms out to the sides . The next moment, two blades similar to those in the hands of the reflection gathered in both her hands .
Weekly Power Status
-- Power
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-- Power
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