Depression: It just eats you up from the inside out.It's like a monster inside your head that takes over.The worst thing is to know that my family and friends were doing all they could yet i still felt so lonely. Anything that was said to me,i managed to turn into a bad thing.I was literally own worst enemy.I would come home and feel so exhausted from all the voices in my head that i would just sleep to block it out all.i didn't want to wake up help but asking for it just made me feel like a burden.I wanted to be free of meds, doctors, counsellors, hospitals and negative thoughts . I felt as if i had lost myself and wouldn't ever be the same again.I had no motivation to do anything because i couldn't see a future for myself.Anxiety caused me to believe everyone was faking their love for me. 'Cheer up' was the worst thing anyone said to me.Those two words triggered thousands of horrible thoughts and i was beating myself up for not hiding how i felt well enough from everyone around me.
I wanted everyone to know how i felt.but i didn't dare tell them.