Chapter 73: Her Feelings: Heart-wrenching
[Sirzechs' POV]
I have lost her. Most likely forever.
Not only have I lost against that man, pathetically... so fulminating that there was not even a shred of doubt over my inferiority.
But as I saw them kiss and my heart tore to shreds I realised that even if I won, it would have changed nothing.
My parents, everyone is watching me... they know my feelings. All I want is to leave this place now, but even that... I can't, we haven't even reached the main topic of this banquet, my job as a satan is not done here.
"Onii-sama..."
"I'm okay, Rias-chan... now you know that the two of us... aren't that much different from one another. Sometimes fate can't be subverted with strength".
My dear sister looked at me, her situation completely different from mine. She was engaged to someone she didn't want to be with, and she was seeking strength to subvert it. I thought I needed strength in order to recover Grayfia, but... I don't know if even all the strength in the world could help me against his foe.
It is a lost battle... but I hope I can at least speak to her one last time. Even if just to say farewell. I know he won't allow me to approach, but no, the moment I step in that range before I even transform into a super devil, I will be dead, he won't even care about the guests.
That's why I needed something else... and what I needed was coming up the stairs right at this moment.
I'm sorry Layla, please... help me again.
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[Layla's POV]
I saw my big sister enjoying her master's lips in front of everyone as I entered the banquet, several gazes moved away from them towards me to whistle and gasp, but my sight, my attention... was focused on them.
I don't know what I feel.
Envy, jealousy...?
Whenever I see my brother-in-law there is something different now. Mother suggested it.
'Why don't you try getting on with your brother-in-law?~'
She suggested that to me; it was outrageous and downright wrong, but... I was not against it.
He is overwhelmingly attractive, extremely powerful and reliable, it brings me the security to know that he is with us and not against us. As for wealth... you could say his body is literal gold.
There is no woman in existence that wouldn't be attracted to him, there were many other good points about him. How he is somehow clumsy and a country bumpkin amuses me, he also has a lot of wisdom.
There are so many things I like about him, but...
I'm married, I have a child with Sirzechs, I love Sirzechs, he is my sister's man and he will eventually leave the underworld.
There are also many other subjects that prevented me from moving forward, Millicas being the main one.
I love my son with all my heart... and he loves his father, Sirzechs is also a great father to Millicas even if he is not a good husband to me.
Chasing after Richter-sama would be selfish of me.
Exhaling deeply I took my sight away from Richter-sama and focused on my husband, walking his way. He was together with mother-in-law, father-in-law, Rias-sama and Millicas.
His gaze was fixed on big sister with sadness and unwillingness, no matter how obstinate he is, he can only give up now. But...
I stopped midway, thinking.
'Is this really what I want...? now that... now that my big sister is out of your reach, only then will you come for me?' I felt hurt thinking that way, no woman would ever want to be the second choice, but I have no option, for my child's sake... I must endure.
"Layla, you look beautiful, dear~" Lady Venelana was the first to greet and hug me.
'Thank you for saving Sirzechs' life, I have no words...' she whispered to me along her warm hug, Lord Gremory also nodded my way, none of the two has been bad to me in all those years.
"Onee-sama!" Rias-sama hugged me next while my son's gaze looked at me mesmerized, I smiled, he's still mummy's boy.
"You look breathtaking, Layla... thank you again" Sirzechs finally smiled my way and extended his hand, I rejoiced at his show of gratitude and held his hand as he pulled me into an embrace.
'Layla...'
'Yes, Sirzechs-sama?' I wondered why his word sounded so sombre with that whisper, he even set up a barrier.
'I'm sorry for this... I need a last favour from you dear'
An ominous feeling enveloped me as he hugged me.
'I need you to distract Richter Golden-Haze. Take him somewhere and buy me enough time... I need to speak a few last words with Grayfia, I won't try anything reckless, just talk to her. Would you do that for me?'
He caressed my hair and spoke with soft sweet words that any other moment I would have followed blindly, infatuated in love and desiring to serve as a proper maid.
But now, I felt something crack inside me... something that would never again be repaired.
Perhaps, this is the last push I needed.
I bit my lips, concealed my tears and instead, did what a good maid would do in this situation, follow my master's will.
'I will try to do whatever I can, Sirzechs-sama... you should know that he won't be happy, and it could also cost you your life doing so' I remarked, separating from him, and recalling the collar that I was supposed to gift him.
'I'm conscious of it, but I won't try to touch her or anything, just... I want to say my last words to her, this is my loss and I can do nothing but accept it, would you help me?'
'Hmn'.
I nodded and looked towards Richter-sama's back, ignoring my mother-in-law and father-in-law's words towards me, the party, everything.
Only his silhouette was in my eyes as I rubbed my son's shoulder.
'I'm sorry, Millicas... it seems... mommy will try to be selfish for once'.
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