I was in grade 2 my grandfather was sick that year I saw how it broke everyone to peaces so I tried to be the glue of the family to make them smile again no matter what to the point were I even forgot to understand my own emotions, around October my grandfather dead my dad and mom came back from the hospital with the news at first I didn't know how to feel until I saw my dad's face and my mom's sad behaviour I realised that it was true his gone just like that but I didn't have time to cry I had to be there for my dad he didn't dare to cry in front of us but I heard him during the night after all it wasn't just his dad but his best friend and he was also my best friend. My mom told me I couldn't cry because if I cried who is going to caught all of their tears as a princess I couldn't do that I had to be strong for everyone. The funeral came and passed like it never happened I did everything they asked I went up and down giving people food making sure my granny, uncle, mom, cousins, aunty, siblings and dad, I did it I didn't show any sadness I was happy the whole 2 weeks but after the funeral I just lost it for about a week I couldn't control my emotions anymore I felt alone I wanted to sleep forever, every little thing made me cry I wasn't a good daughter I made my parents worry and sad...