Chapter 1: Chapter 1

when these troubles will end, will my whole life be like this? Will my life be spent on suffering, late night silently crying,listening harsh words from others, fighting with loneliness, fighting with my weakness, fighting with my faults, fighting with my own self," She whispered sobbing, "why, why, why, FUCKING WHY AM I BEARING THIS, just why", She let out such a painful scream and started crying badly. Hiding herself in a corner of her room like she is hiding herself from someone, sitting on her knees she bended her head down and putting her head on her knees, she started crying. She said" What sin have i done for which I am being punished, neither my parents want me nor the rest of the family want me, even if I go outside everyone sees me with pure hatred and disgust in their eyes and some of them eye me from up to down whenever I go anywhere, even when I go to work, the other workers who work their are also jealous of me and always do something to ruin my reputation and cause my boss to scold me even when i work hard but still no one cares for me. Why am I such a burden to anyone, I didn't do anything wrong, why my parents don't love me why my father doesn't love me anymore Am I that bad? Why I am living in this hell? why mom(my aunt) didn't take me away with her why? (sobbing badly)I don't want to live here anymore I want to die. Why my father changed all of a sudden, Now he only cares about her lovely wife and his another children, and now his only priority is his wife and his another children and about my biological mom ( she sarcasticaly chuckled) She never ever cared about me for once, she is such a greedy and selfish woman who only care about her self. She has tried to kill me several times when i was a child Just because she wanted to get divorce with my father so that she can live life freely just the way she want, because if she will give birth to his child so their is no chance to get divorce. And that's the reason she doesn't want to birth his child so she can easily get free herself from him. And about why she doesn't want to live with my father (sigh) well this is an another story. Because her father forced her to get marry with my father. When my father saw her first he already fell in love with her. Love at first sight. So he simply asked her hand with her father and he immediately agreed with my father because my father was a wealthy man not that much rich but still a good gentleman who belongs to a very noble, descent and honourable family, while my mom doesn't belong to a wealthy family, she belongs to a low class family, her family and financial conditions were not good and they were living their lives with so much struggles. So when my father asked her hand from her father so he immediately get agree for this but when he asked her daughter she totally refused and said" I will never marry with him, I don't like that man and i don't want him as my husband. I already love someone", Her dad said" I know how much good person he is whom you love the most. What does he have? Tell me? He doesn't have any house nor money nor reputation nothing. He is only using you. I saw him with my own eyes. Yesterday I saw him kissing a girl. What do you think about your so called lover now? What do you think i am lying to you? I only want good for you. Dear Melissa try to understand, the person whom I choose for you is a good for you. He is such a gentleman. He has everything that any good man should have. He has nice reputation with such a noble family. He will always keeps you happy. And he already love you so much he can give you anything you want, you will live there like a queen my dear, everytime I always to you and never disagree with you but this time you have to listen to me wether you like it or not. If you are thinking that I am forcing you for this then think whatever you want but you have to obey me no matter what I am getting older day by day and I don't have that much strength for bearing your burden at this age. You have to listen to me this time and don't force me to do anything wrong with you so you better understand while I am being nice with you" She start to get angry while hearing this and suddenly she shouted at him and said: What do you think of yourself huh? Did you own me or what that whatever you throw your order on me and I will silently obey. NEVER EVER get that thing in your mind, you can't force me to do anything and if you think you can force me to do accept this marriage then listen! I will kill him along with his family and burn them alive with my own hands. I will only marry marry a person whom I want to so don't you dare to force me for this. Hearing this her father starts to beat her and threatening her and said if she doesn't get agree with this marriage so he will burn her alive along with her mother and her sisters. But she is still keep saying no to him so he became aggressive and started to treating her more badly. After so much effort he finally made her agree for this marriage. At marriage ceremony her father kept saying her that don't mess up with them, they are very respectful and honourable family so behave with them nicely and don't show your true colours infront of them, always respect them, obey their commands. Always take care of him and his family and always show your love to your husband and don't disrespect them, I know what type of person you are so is better for you to be always in your limit and try to change yourself because the person whom you are going to become his wife is belong to a very noble and wealthy family. So always be honest with them. Consider yourself as a lucky that you get such a gentleman as your husband and loving and caring family like them. I hope you will remember this and obey this whatever I advise you. But she kept rolling her eyes and cursing him in her mind. When she ger married. My grandparents, my auntie's ( my father's sisters) and my uncles all of them really take care of her. Always make her feel like family. They never make her do any work or house chores. She also respect all of them except my father bcz he was sometimes get horny and always get need for her and sometimes threatening his family for always take care of her, don't make her do any work ,if I hear any complain about you from her then I will (abounded) throw you all from my house. She doesn't like his behaviour towards his family at all but that doesn't mean she care about them at all but what triggers her is his love for her and that makes her angry because she never like his touches and his gestures towards her or whenever he tries to show her love towards her she starts to get annoyed with him. She never tried to get any kind of feeling towards him. And now she starting hating him more and she wanted to get rid of him as soon as possible so she started to behave rudely to every members just to make him hate towards her but he never complained her nor he said anything about it. Because he was so madly in love with her and he doesn't want to leave her. Whenever she want to start fight with him he always finds a way to avoid this fight, He always silently listens her every harsh word but never ever says any word towards her. When she noticed that whenever she trying to do fight with him he always finds a way to avoid this fight and her all efforts are going vain. So when she get know about that she is pregnant so she thinks that this is a golden chance to make him hate towards her by killing his first child but seems like luck was not on her side . Whether should I say unfortunately or fortunately I born safely but when in my brother time. Now this time she become successful in this time and my brother didn't safe himself with his cruel mother dangerous hate and her hate eat my brother alive and he didn't survive himself. After miscarriage she become more aggressive because my father still didn't said anything nor he blame her for his death and that makes her more anger. So she try to harm my father and threatening him if he didn't give divorce her so she will kill him along with his family and his daughter (me) so he just accepted her with his broken heart. When she was leaving a broken heart and a innocent soul she come towards my mom (my aunt) whom was unmarried she said while looking at me while I am in her embrace she said: I am so shocked that how you take care of her when I didn't even want her in my room, I don't care that I am leaving my child here because I notice that the way you take care of her, the way you get worry for her and just the way you love her so now I am leaving her to you bcz I know you can take care of her more than me bcz I just see in your eyes how much you love her. My mom said: yes that's true that I love her but I have reasons also the first reason is that she is my brother's daughter, and second reason is that she doesn't have any mother nor she have any siblings, she is a innocent child who doesn't know about anything that what life is actually doing with her, you never cared about her I can't even see tears in her eyes but you, you even try to kill her just bcz you don't want to live with your husband, you never ever try to show your love towards your own child, what kind of mother you are, how can a mother can be this cruel towards her child even monster never eat her child but you are more worst than a monster, even monster is better than you atleast she also protect her child but you, I don't have any word now just go that's all what you wanted right now go. Hearing this she silently left and after that she never to contact us. and after that my aunt was become my whole world. She was the only one who take care of me like a mother or should I say more than mother and my father he also take care of me and he also loves me. Every thing was going fine but one day everything became change. When my father get married to another woman and she is now become my stepmom. She only pretend sweet infront of my father but whenever he isn't at home so she start to show her true colours infront of us whenever we are alone. And when my father and my step mom alone she always badmouth about us and always making fake innocent face infront of my father and always blame us that we can't tolerate her and his another children in this house, we always make her do house chores and we always treat them badly etc. And my father start to get hate towards us and always starts fighting with my aunt and also me and always threatened us that: This house is not only belongs to you my wife and my children have also right on this house and my other inheritance. This is my house if you want to live in my house then you have to behave with them nicely or if you can't then I can throw both of you out of my house and you know that I'm capable of it.