Chapter 12: Chapter 12 A Dad?
Angelica
I lightly knock his door, "Zeke?" I called out.
"Mommy it's unlock you can open the door," He replied behind the door.
I slowly opened the door and peeked. "Hello, love. What are you doing?" I said and close the door behind me, "Can I sit?"
"Of course." He smiled sweetly, "Come, Cuddle with me."
I kissed his forehead and he snuggled close to me, "I'm watching 101 Dalmatians," He said, "I have a question Mom is that okay?"
A pounding heart inside my chest, I manage to say, "Yeah, what is it?"
"This dog right her is the mommy, right?" He pointed at the female dog, "And this one is the Daddy dog," He pointed the other big dog, "And this are puppies," He pointed the pups, "So in human form, I'm the pup, your the mother dog, but who's the dad?"
I didn't answer.
"What's a 'dad' mommy? Why do I don't have one. I've seen a dad a lot but I notice I don't have any." Zeke said, still looking at the movie questionably.
"It's hard to explain, love." My voice came out almost like a whisper. "I do hope one day when you get a lot older I'll explain everything to you."
"I'm 6 I can handle it." He said confidently. "I just wanna know what a 'Dad' means..."
I sat up from the bed, "Okay..." I started, "Every family has a Mom and a Dad, like 101 Dalmatians do, Do you know any stories or movies that has a family?"
"Yeah, Pandington, Finding Nemo, I forgot the rest," He smiled.
His innocence beamed right through me, "Some family has a complete family but some people don't, like me and you." I pointed my self and him, patting his browned hair like Nicholas. "There are a lot of reasons why some families are incomplete, let's use finding nemo for example. From the first few scenes, Nemo's Mom was there right?"
He nodded, "Yeah she was and she was gone when there was this big fish came by their home." Zeke said, "I think she was eaten by the big fish."
"Yes, if you put it in human version, The mom was dead either by an accidents or got car accidents or in many other ways that is very harmful to us." I shouldn't be explaining him about death and stuff but Zeke is just too smart and I know he understand what I meant.
"Is that the only reason why they left?"
I shook my head, "No, some people left because they run out of love by their partners."
"Partners?"
"Yes, partners. Notice the 101 Dalmatians the Mom and Dad they were partners, aren't they?" I smiled, "They were partners because they love each other and because of love, the puppies were born, a child has born." I emphasize the word Child while pointing at him.
Zeke just look at me and trying get all the information in his head, I continued. "You were born because of my love and your father's love, Zeke. We were in love then." I looked back at his green grayed eyes that look so much a lot like Nicholas, "I loved your father so much, Zeke."
"But if he loves you then mommy, where is he right now?"
I don't even know the answer myself, "Because some people run out of love, Zeke."
"What does that mean?"
"You'll know when you get older and you will understand what I'm saying, that's it for now." I said kiss his brown hair.
"I wish I was older so I can understand grown adults conversations." He huffed and crossed his arms.
No bud, don't grow up.
"Don't worry love you'll get there okay?" I said.
"Okay.." He bowed down and played the end of his pajamas, like there was something bothering him.
So I asked, "Do you have any more questions though?" I lift his chin.
"What does my Dad look like?"
"I don't have a picture of him," I said but then I remembered the journal I had when I was 16 and wrote all my small adventures when I was in London, "Actually there is. Wait here."
I went directly to my bedroom and open the oldest suitcase I've been using since I was a teen. It was just a small suitcase, you can just literally pick it up, I use it for my toiletries and panties. I can't throw the old thing away it has a sentimental value to me, it was given by my grandma, who passed away when Zeke was only 5 months old. I opened the back of the suitcase and there it was, my old journal. I opened the journal and saw the picture of both of us in the fair with cute mascaras on our faces, I grab the photo and showed it to Zeke in his bedroom.
"This was us when we were 16 years old, we were at Fair, we played a lot of games and stuff. " Staring at the old picture, Nicholas was very different from now. I know I've said he hadn't change but the thing is, he does. He looks so young on the picture and so was I, he's a lot masculine now. If Zeke would see him now I know for sure he will not recognize him, and the picture was a bit blurry and faded since its been stuck in the journal for so long.
"I can't see the face that well, It's blurry." Zeke said and hand me the Photo back, "But I think we have the same hair," He said as he grab a hair on his head.
I chuckled, "Yeah, you have. You also have the same eyes, lashes and eyebrows. The way you walk is just so much like him," I cupped his face, "But I know for sure that your intelligence belongs to me," I laughed.
Zeke smiled, "I agree on that," Zeke hugged me and burry his face on my chest, "Thank you for showing me the photo, Mommy even though I can't see a thing." I giggled, "And thank you for telling me what Dad means."
"You are very welcome, I'm here whenever you need help and questions okay?" I kissed the top of his head and he nodded in agreement, "Always know that I'm here for you always."
"But Mommy?" He asked, "What does Jeff have to do anything?"
"Well..." I started, "he's my boyfriend,"
"Do you love him?" He asked,
I nodded, "Of Course."
"But you just said you loved, Dad." Zeke frowned.
"Yeah I do when we were partners but that was a long time ago Zeke." I said.
"Okay," He said and watch his movie again, unbothered.
I stood up and excused myself, I went to my bedroom and return the journal to my old suitcase. I flip a random page to insert the photo but I saw bold sentence sayin,
"I prayed to the heavens that to whoever man that I will fell in love with that If me and him stare at the stars and the full moon together will be my forever and always."
I looked at the corner of the page there was a note that says:
"- July 22
We went to a night picnic and we stare at the stars and moon. I knew from the very start that he will be my Forever and always."
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