Chapter 26: 26
"no".
You feel that you must be dreaming. After all, cats cannot talk in reality. You push it a little irritably:
"Fanbo is there, do you know her? Let me pass."]
[Firefly still shook its head, it stubbornly blocked its body there, its beautiful fire-colored eyes stared at you closely. ]
["Okay." You spread your hands:
"Since you won't let me go, please tell me where should I go?"
It answers in your mind:
"Then it depends on where you want to go first."
"I don't care where I go."
"So it doesn't matter where you go."
"As long as it's where the sails are."
It nodded, then grabbed your collar in its mouth. In your exclamation, it threw you downstairs. Its last words that came to your mind were:
"Then any place will do. Anyway, it's her unconscious nightmare, no matter which one it is, it's the same."]
["Okay, although we have met many times, I would like to introduce myself first. I am Kusaka Ayako. You don't need to be too nervous or care about my identity. I am just a listener now. Hello. Friend." The female psychiatrist, about thirty years old, spoke gently to the girl sitting opposite her. Even in the room where there was no one except her, she still looked insecure and hugged her tightly. She was on her knees and seemed to be holding something in her hands. Under her messy bangs, only a pair of blue eyes were peeking out at her.
Kusaka Ayako sighed reluctantly. This girl named Ichinose Honami has become the biggest difficulty in their psychological treatment center these days. She is already the third psychiatrist to come to consult her. The first two A colleague, one was kicked out of the house screaming because she said her name was Ryoko Beidou when introducing her name. Another colleague who is famous for bringing some incense to comfort patients was let out again because he lit a certain rose-flavored incense stick. The girl was silent for a whole day. ]
["I hope to hear you tell me again why you came here."
She brought up the topic as gently as possible. Kusaka Ayako held a form she had filled out before:
"It's because you saw something scary, right?"
The girl began to tremble again, and the psychiatrist quickly held her hand, hoping to convey his warmth to her:
"Don't be afraid, it's over, I'm here."
"Anything can only be said out loud. Just say it out. Saying it out means acceptance."
"...Don't I accept it? Didn't I admit it?"
Ichinose Honami tilted her head, and she suddenly sneered:
"It's written on the paper in your hand. I've said it a long time ago. I killed someone, and I admit it! I plead guilty! Is that enough?"
By the time she said the last sentence, she almost roared. Ichinose Hanami covered her eyes with her hands, and water flowed from her fingers:
"Is it enough? Not enough?"]
["But Miss Ichinose, your psychological problem is the key to determining the verdict. In fact, the victim's mother has been urging the trial of the case, but your mother insisted that you would not do such a thing, it just happened to be at that time In an abnormal mental state..."
"and."
She looked directly into Ichinose Honami's eyes:
"In fact, after that day, you can't fall asleep without the help of medicine, can you?"]
["Your mother and your sisters are waiting for you, think about them, they have been worried about you."
Kusaka Ayako gently guided the topic:
"That's why we need to understand your psychological state, like what happened that day? I hope you can tell it yourself."
Her eyes seemed to fluctuate slightly when she heard the words mother and sister, and she spoke slowly:
"I, killed, my childhood sweetheart, Kitagawa Ryo."
After a long silence, Kusaka Ayako did not ask any further questions. She knew that this was the greatest progress in the past few days of psychotherapy. She looked at the layers of bloodshot eyes in Ichinose Honami's eyes, and Ichinose Honami was trembling all over. She fought and stared at her hands. These pale hands were now empty. Time is the best bleach, but in her eyes, they were still stained with bright red... blood.
"No...right?"
Honami Ichinose chuckled nervously:
"The person I killed should have been Megumi Karuizawa. How could it be Ryo? Ryo had already flown abroad. Before he left, he even wrote me a birthday card and promised me that he would be there next year. Come watch the fireworks display with me before your birthday."
She stretched out her palm in front of Kusaka Ayako:
"Actually, we have watched countless fireworks displays since childhood. Look, I'll count them for you."
"When I was six, he bought me candy apples."
"When I was seven, he gave me a cat."
"At eight years old, I caught more goldfish than he did."
"When I was nine, he bought me a large portion of takoyaki."
"When I was ten years old, he complimented me on how beautiful my new yukata was."
"He bought me marshmallows when I was eleven."
"When I was twelve, he gave me a big black umbrella."
"oh."
She pressed down her raised fingers one by one. Ichinose Hanami took the pen from Kusaka Ayako's hand and wrote in her left palm:
"I."
Write on the right palm:
"K."
"The handle of that umbrella is engraved with I&K, which is the abbreviation of our two names."
"and after."
She also took the watch from Kusaka Ayako's hand and folded it into a paper crane with brisk movements.
"Ah, I forgot."
Kusaka Ayako looked at the other party in silence and regretfully opened the paper, and scribbled a large stroke on the line of "causing the death of Kitagawa Ryo":
"I like you."
As a psychiatrist, Kusaka Ayako rarely admits her failures, but facing Honami Ichinose, she experienced the sense of helpless loss for the first time. She walked out of the room, looked at the paper crane in her hand and thought like this .
She cast her gaze into the empty room.
Honami Ichinose fell asleep holding the birthday card in her hand, with the corners of her mouth raised, as if she was having a sweet dream.
ps: Episodes 1, 2 and 3 are related. The second episode deliberately skipped the ending. In fact, it was all foreshadowing_(:з」∠)_
The Summer of Ichinose Honami Reappears: Chapter 29: Again
[You push away the picture in front of you with your hands. You are in a long corridor filled with dream fragments. Various music is playing on the surrounding walls, ceiling and even the ground under your feet. Fragments of:]
["No...no way." In the park in late autumn, Ichinose Honami refused to confess to someone. ]
["We don't want it anymore. If you keep it, you might throw it away as garbage, so please take it back." In the temple on the mountainside, Ichinose Honami handed an unopened marriage lotus back to the monk. ]
["Since Ryo is fine, I'll go back first. Mom will be worried if you come home too late at night, and I have to tell Maki about your current situation." In the snow-white ward, Honami Ichinose came in the rain. I only saw someone once and then left in a hurry. ]
[And finally, the shadow of Honami Ichinose was reflected on the ground by the rising fireworks. The instantaneous brightness and darkness of the light caused her shadow to lengthen and enlarge in an instant. The shadow twisted forward, ferocious but weak, holding a hand tightly. A knife. ]
["Good... familiar feeling."
You think of the last words that Hotaru said in your mind just now:
"Then any place will do. Anyway, it's her unconscious nightmare, no matter which one it is, it's the same."]
["Is this the nightmare that Fan Bo unconsciously had?"
"But it's too real."
You move forward step by step. No matter how bizarre a person's dream is, it must be transformed from some prototype in reality or an event that has happened. However, in the sea of nightmares of Ichinose Honami, there are It always gives you a feeling that it really happened.
"It's like another parallel time and space."]
[You raised your eyes and looked at the light curtain in front of you. After the theft, Ichinose Honami closed himself off for half a year before finally entering Tokyo Higher Education High School. ]
[This seems to be the only world line where I don't have a figure.
You stood there quietly watching Ichinose Honami's struggle.
"If Nagumo-senpai can lend me four million personal points to ensure that Class B will not be expelled, I can agree to Nagumo-senpai's request for a relationship."
Ah, how strange.
How could someone make such a statement without considering themselves at all? You reached out your hand and brushed this image away. ]
["If she is really in trouble, I want to help her. No matter who it is for, I will do my best to the best of my ability. Even if this behavior will push myself into a desperate situation sooner or later." Ichinose Honami said declared.
It's so strange. Is Honami Ichinose such a girl? Hey, this is not a leader at all. If an opponent notices such an obvious trick, he will never be able to turn around.
"It's been a little lonely just for me and Honami to have lunch recently. After all, the student union has so many affairs that we can't do anything about it, but the good thing is that we can talk to each other when we encounter troubles." The annoying yellow-haired man at your feet has a fake smile that makes you feel a little nauseous. You stepped on his face and continued walking forward. ]
["No, you can't find it like this."
You feel more and more information rushing into your brain. Even if your mind is much tougher than ordinary people, it doesn't mean that you can write down all the information here in one breath, and then distinguish the authenticity one by one to find one. The clues that Kunise Honami left for himself.
"If this is Ichinose Honami's dream."
"So, under what circumstances do people put their fantasies into dreams?"
"What kind of person puts his hope in a dream?"
"What kind of person is Ichinose Honami in your memory?"
You simply ignore all the information surrounding you, use the toughest and most violent thinking method to integrate the remaining memories in your brain, the elements that constitute the current situation, clues, answer candidates, and judgment materials, and return to the end of the problem. A pristine place. ]
["There must be, there must be clues that I missed."
"If the first dream I entered without memory was Ichinose Honami's most primitive dream, then there must be some clues that I haven't found yet."
"But how should I return to that dream now?"
You hit your head and let yourself focus on this one problem.
"Assuming that the first dream is recognized as a real reality by 'Ichinose Honami', it is indeed a world line that she may have imagined. For example, I just saw her stabbing me to death with a knife. In that world line, she who committed the crime of killing her childhood sweetheart should long for such a sweet dream. I did not leave him in the dream, and then fell in love with her and got married... If a person wants to return from the dream to reality, Would it be a good idea to commit suicide in your dream?"
You slowly covered your mouth and nose with both hands, suppressing your breathing little by little as if you were a child competing with children to see who could hold your breath longer. Soon, your lungs began to scream again.
As if to curb this self-harming behavior, his heart beat much faster than before, and his brain was also screaming, trying to bring his body back to reality.
The strength of the knees and the strength of the body are all gone. Feeling of exhaustion. Or...a feeling close to nothingness wells up from your heart.
The boundaries between life and death began to gradually blur.
The human body longs for survival, but your strong consciousness suppresses your survival instinct at this moment.
The dream in front of me is still playing in a loop over and over again.
"If Nagumo-senpai can lend me four million personal points to ensure that Class B will not be expelled, I can agree to Nagumo-senpai's request for a relationship."
How can a girl say such self-deprecating words, let alone you are Honami Ichinose, even in a dream.
"Again."
As your vision gradually darkens, your lips, which have turned bluish-white due to suffocation, are raised upwards, outlining a smile full of expectation. ]
["Whirring whirring."
You suddenly woke up from the bed, panting like a drowning person taking the first breath of fresh air. You straightened up your upper body and let out a heavy breath in fear. The woman sleeping next to you was awakened by you. She You dimly turned on the bedside table lamp, and the bright yellow warm light instantly enveloped the two of you. ]
["Did you have a nightmare? Liang."
Honami Ichinose also straightened up and held you in her arms. It was not a nice thing to be woken up by the person next to you while sleeping, but she didn't seem to care about anything and just gently included you in her. embrace, and spoke lazily and softly:
"So I said don't take those weird medicines prescribed by doctors before going to bed. Forget it, I will throw them away tomorrow."
She gently patted your back with her hands, and brought her delicate lips close to your ear:
"It's okay, it's okay, I'm here, I've always been here."
While sorting out the chaotic memories in your mind and calming your heartbeat after facing death, you asked cautiously:
"Doctor? Is it Dr. Sakayanagi?"
"Of course, I have long said that this psychiatrist's words are mysterious and untrustworthy, not to mention that there is nothing wrong with Liang after losing his memory. Since we got married half a year ago, I have the responsibility to take care of Liang. Moreover, I can take good care of Liang."
She put her hands along your armpits and around your back, and you felt Ichinose Honami rubbing his face against your chin.
You looked around and found a box of capsules sitting on the bedside table on your right, with a piece of paper like a medication slip underneath.
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