Chapter 20: Hating You is Impossible {R18}

And once more, he claimed my lips hard to the point I felt my knees buckle and I had to wrap my arms around his neck hanging for dear life.

What was happening?? I couldn't find the right words to explain it, his sudden approach, my unexpected response, has it always been like this?

Has he always thought of me this way? what's more shocking was how fast my body responded to every touch of his as he pulled away only to end up dropping tiny kisses on my eyelids.

I opened them up, gazing into his dark pupils which held those unknown emotions I've been trying to understand in his eyes, those emotions he had kept hidden under those impassive gaze of his were coming to light, I felt a little tingle in my heart as he gazed at me this way and I thought I would melt under those cherished gaze.

"Have I been distracting enough?" he asked and I opened my mouth to speak.

"What type of distraction is this?" I heard the breathlessness in my voice with a little sense of dismay and he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear, his slender fingers tracing my face, making my skin go scorching hot but I used the little sanity in me to stop him.

"If I'm being punished, how come you don't hate me like everyone else? why take me back as your disciple? why not leave me to die once more in that cave??"

I poured out all those questions and noticed the guilty look in his eyes, the world went silent as well, all that was heard was the silent breeze rustling wistfully through the grass outside. Deep down, I wanted him to tell me it's cause I was special to him, that he couldn't bear to loose me.

"Shanxia." he started keeping his gaze low, "Alot has happened which I have come to regret as well, I won't make that same mistake twice." the sudden cherishment in his tone made me blink at him wondering if this was still my master who I had stayed with this whole time.

"But...."

"Shhh." he placed a finger to my lips to silence me and I felt every breath in me seize at his words.

"You are not to blame for anything, this was why I didn't want to tell you, cause you'd blame yourself and that has always been you Shanxia, even if others haven't come to terms with it."

The moonlight grazed through my window, casting a moon shadow light of black and white over us, showing off his clearly defined features and I felt my heart race violently against my chest, why was he saying all this to me and why was I feeling this way?

I lowered my gaze trying to understand the situation at hand but my mind went blank when his beautiful fingers lifted my chin up so I'd stare at him and I felt the whoosh of my sharply dragged inward breath.

The touch of his finger was already burning my skin and left a craving need in the depth of me, a need that seemed trapped and finally coming out to gain what it's wanted.

Him.

The hot flare in his eyes already made his actions known to me, he loosed the pin I used in holding my hair in one piece, watching it flow across my back to my waist and it stunned me how such a little act could feel so nerve racking.

He kissed me and I didn't protest, slowly parting my lips and giving him the opportunity to slid his tongue straight in, hot and welcoming, he pulled me close to erase the space between us like we wanted to make up for those years of being apart.

My hands slid up to his neck, moving upwards to get tangled with his hair, they were so soft and silky under my palm and it seemed my little action tend to have done alot more than it should, in one quick swift movement, I was being swept of my feet and a gasp escaped from my lips as I stared at him, breathless.

"After tonight, I bet you won't have time to think about bitter memories."

He met my gaze with an irresistible wild smirk and I could feel my cheeks burn, turning Scarlet red at his teasing words.

He took me straight to my bed and laid me gently on it, at this moment I couldn't care less about anything, it all felt right and I could feel my hands itching to touch him while he gazed at me as I laid on the bed, my hair spilled across the pillow and my face all flushed, I wonder how I looked like in this state cause his gaze seemed to turn hungrier by the minute.

He got on top of me with his long hair cascading down on me, I could still feel my body shivering but with unsatisfied desires, like it was being awakened inside of me and wanted to feast on it's victim.

I closed my eyes, parting my lips the same time craving for his kiss but instead, he traced my face tentatively with his fingers, moving down to my throat.

I tilted my head up giving him more access and those burning fingers moved to the side of my neck, pulling the cloth off my shoulders till my collarbones became visible but he didn't stop till until I felt a little bit of air brush slowly against my cleavages making me take a quick breath

I still had my eyes closed and felt something cool and soft on my cleavages as he dropped tiny kisses on them and the sudden sensation that jolted through me at such little touch startled me, he placed another one at my collarbones and I stiffled a moan, his wicked tongue skillfully traced up to my neck, my throat and the side of my face.

A soft sigh escaped my lips, he was leaving me intentionally unsatisfied just to make my body crave more of him and it was working cause I couldn't hold back and claimed his lips on mine, pulling him down on me and letting our tongues dance against each other.

"master." I spoke in his mouth, he pulled away staring at my flushed face and I lowered my gaze, he frowned a bit seeing the worry that suddenly carved on my face.

"What's the problem?" he worriedly asked.

"Do you really not hate me?" I asked hesitantly, it must be stupid of me to even ask such a thing because all of this was happening and I was still asking a question that was very unecessary but I couldn't stop myself, I felt insecure and I can't be blamed for it.

He wasn't upset by my questioning and his expression eased. He leaned closer, brushing his nose intimately against mine, his gaze was always comforting and most of all, he was gazing at me like a lover.

"When it comes to you Shanxia, hating you is impossible." his eyes glittered with emotions and I couldn't stop the tingle of delight that overwhelmed me at those raw affection in his telling words and he claimed my lips once more.