Chapter 127: CHAPTER 127
"Don't blame yourself too much, Killian."
"I will carry this guilt until I die."
"No. You really don't have to blame yourself. . . ."
He was just a character in this novel, so he couldn't escape from the flow of the original. The reason you can see all of this now is because I've met the level 3 exception conditions, and the original flow of this story has become very weak. Not only Killian, but perhaps Cliff, the Duke and Duchess are also under this influence. However, the future is more important now.
'The voice said, the flow of the original story the no longer has the power to control this world, but the probability will be the main power to control this world. right?'
Just because the relationship between the author and her original work has been destroyed, it doesn't mean that I will suddenly become the main character in this world. Rather, what will happen from now? You will not be able to predict the future of this world. Even if you have read the original story. But i don't have to be afraid.
'It's because from now on, i can finally create my own life!'
For me, this is the beginning of the main story! But before that, I had to confess everything I couldn't tell Killian before. I wanted to tell him about me without hiding anything from him anymore. I wanted to be understood and loved by him as my true self.
"It's a little late, but I have something to tell you, too."
I pulled my hand out that he held and placed it on the back of his hand. And this time, I held his hand tightly.
"I don't know if you already noticed it, but i, Edith Riegelhoff. . . ."
"No, your name is Edith Ludwig."
Oh, look at his straight face, he angry?
"Yeah, anyway, I grew up being abused since I was a kid in Riegelhoff family. All the bad things I did at the party were something my father forced me to do."
"Why didn't you tell me in advance?"
"There are two reasons for that. First, I wasn't sure whether you and the Ludwig family would accept me even if you all knew about my truth. I was a hostage for the loyalty of the Riegelhof family, and if you all know I'm an empty chaff, i can't fulfill that function. . . . "
"Edith. . . . "
Killian looked down. Because he can't deny what I said. But now it doesn't really matter anymore. What's more important now is my second reason which i don't know how to explain it, because it's quite difficult.
"And the second reason is. . . . "
Until this moment, I wondered if I could reveal my truth and, if so, how to explain it.
"Killian."
He raised his head with puzzled expression. He must be wondering why i calling him instead of talking.
"By any chance, do you believe in supernatural phenomena?"
"Why are you asking me that all of a sudden?"
"Because that's the second reason I didn't tell you about myself."
"Tell me so I can understand."
I took a deep breath.
"I have all Edith memories. At the same time, i had a human memory as Choi Soo-na."
"Chessna?"
I laughed for a moment when he pronunciation those names.
"No. Choi, Soo, na, and it's me. She was a 28-year-old woman living in a country called Korea. Her parents farmed in the countryside, she worked in the capital and made money, but her bastrad brother asked her for money. So, she had no money to save. On top of that, she suffered from a serious illness when she was young and her health wasn't really good. . . . It was a difficult life, but she still tried to live her life like everyone else."
Just a year ago, I was Suna Choi. But that already feels like a distant past. Is this also a side effect of the possession?
"Actually, my life at that time was not much different from Edith's life. What is different in my life then is had a biological parents. But you know what? Even though they are my biological parents, they never have an affection towards their children's. They didn't hit me, but they almost ignored me and my brother. Even my older brother at that life was worse than Shane Riegelhoff."
When I brought up the name of 'Choi Soon-na', Killian couldn't close his mouth with a furrowed brow and just listened to my story blankly.
"Do you think I'm crazy?"
When I asked with a smile, Killian closed his mouth and shook his head.
"No. Not at all."
"I'm glad you still look good. Then, for now on, I need to tell you something more interesting. . . ."
"Please do it."
As soon as I coughed in the field, Killian poured me some water from the bottle on the bedside. His listening is great.
"I was possessed by Edith a week before I married you. I died in an accident in that world. It is different from this world."
"A Possession. . . . ?"
"Yes. Another soul enters a person's body and becomes the owner of that body. They also say that it is like being possessed by a ghost. . . ."
"You. . . . Are you a witch?"
"Oh, oh, no! I don't have such things like great power! It's just. . . .When I opened my eyes, I was already like this. It's not even my will."
Did I mention this for no reason? Is work also a world where witches are hunted and burned exist. . . . ?
While I was getting nervous, Killian stared into air for a while, then sighed softly and changed the topic.
"What kind of accident did you get? I mean the accident that killed you at that world."
"Uh. . . .when I got home from work, I found my brother waiting for me drunk in front of my house door."
The memory of that day is still clear on my head. A narrow staircase in an old multi-family house that smells rather damp. Every time I get off at my work, I often imagine that there is an unknown robber might wait for me on the stairs. I didn't know that robber would be my brother. . . .
"He asked for money that day, too. But I was in a bad mood that day, so I said I didn't have enough money."
"And then?"
"Then. . . .my brother slapped me hard in the face."
At that moment, Killian's fist tightened.
"Unfortunately, I was just about to get to the top. . . I fell backward, and when he slapped my face. I think I fell on the stairs. . . .it felt like i hit my head something so hard, so I passed out and closed my eyes slowly. When I woke up, I was already inside Edith's body."
Killian started to open his mouth again, he's looked so surprised.
". . . . .Ta-da!"
I added childish sound effects by stretching my arms left and right like a magician performing a successful magic trick.
"Anyway, that's why I'm a bit reluctant to reveal Edith's past because it's something I've experienced in the past. I wonder if I have the right to recount the misfortunes of others."
"Haa. . . ."
Killian made a noise that i didn't know whether he was a laugh or a sigh. Actually, though, I'd like to reveal Edith's hidden settings. I can't do that because to tell those stories, I have to explain to Killian that this world is the world in the novel I read. Also, I have to explain to him that the original author of this story is like a god and has given me a variety in my character. So I decided not to talk about it that far because I'm sure that Killian would probably be more confused, and it would be hard to tell that this world is the world in the book.
"It's alright if you don't believe it. Since I'm already living as Edith, I'm just Edith, and my mysterious experience isn't important. I told you this because I don't want to hide anything about me from you."
"Honestly. . . . "
Killian was lost in thought for a long time after opening his mouth. I understand that. It's might be the first time he heard something like this in his life. Is she crazy? Does she have such a realistic dream that made her confuses with reality? Or is she mocking me? All kinds of thoughts crossed my mind, seeing him like that. I waited for his words with open mind.
"It's hard for me to believe everything you say. But the story is too specific for not believing it at all, and there's no reason for you to deceive me with such a story."
"I don't mean to confuse you, but. . . .if we go to Ryzen territory, let me help you with all your work. Because Choi Soo-na memory can help you. The world i lived back then was a more advanced place than this now."
"Linan says you have a lot of dreams to develop Ryzen territory, and it's true."
Killian finally laughed in joy. He didn't understand everything, and he didn't believe my story, but it seemed like he was trying to respect my story. He held my hand carefully and kissed the back of my hand.
A tingling sensation ran from the back of my hand to my arm and to my heart.
"Don't worry. From now on, no matter what you say, I won't be upset. I'll try to understand you, and i don't understand, I'll keep answering. Because i don't want to make the same mistake again."
"What if I say something absurd?"
"Even if they say that a spirit from another world has possessed you."
Perhaps the words I wanted to hear from Killian weren't recklessly saying that he loved me or he would do anything i wanted, but the words that he would do anything to understand me. That's why I feel so satisfied and confident now.
"By the way, have all the misunderstandings about me been resolved? How about Duke and Cliff. . . . ?"
"Most of it, yes. Especially my father, he felt very sorry for you."
"What. . . . Well, as the head of the family, the duke must be careful even in small matters. I understand that."
"You shouldn't be given opinions so easily in that way. I'll make sure you get your share when we go to the Ryzen territory later, so please be aware of that."
I giggled with Killian, and then we talked about some more stories. All the leaders involved in the treason, including Archduke Langston and the Riegelhoff family, had their heads hanged on the wall of the imperial palace this morning, and Anna had also decided to go to Ryzen as a maid close to me, and the story goes to the Duchess, who was lying her bed almost every day since the kidnapping incident, barely got up yesterday and Linan still need to recover for another week. Killian, who was telling such a story, said as if to conclude.
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