Chapter 8: Everything will be fine
Sakura Miko likes to see herself as an optimistic person, one of who people associate with positivity and laughter.
Yet here she is, cutting her own wrist in a futile attempt to escape the pain and failure she has brought upon to the people around her, a shame truly.
As the sharp knife tear open the soft flesh of her followed by the liquid of life pouring out on the table, she strangely didn't feel any fear of it, as if she is merely watching a doll mutilating her own body, as if she is just a spectator to everything that is happening.
The pain coming from the knife begins to kick in, warning its brain about the harm it has encounter. The owner however ignores it and continue her doing, continue to tear apart herself
Strangely, she felt as the pain in her heart is soothing away as the physical pain take over her mind, like it's encouraging her to continue doing this.
And before she knows it, the wrist of her is already in horrible states, cover with blood that is still flowing out.
She suddenly feels drowsy.
She realized this may be the last moment of her.
'Sorry, that I've been a failure all this time.'
And that is the last word she has in mind before losing her consciousness, before descending into the peaceful darkness and unknown, hoping the world on the other side will be kind to her.
"...Hmm?" Eyes opening, Miko sees the familiar ceiling that she has woken up to for a year or so, plain white and boring, the only sound heard is from the rotation of fans who release cracking voices due to its speed and old age.
"...Is everything just a dream?" Murmuring to herself, Miko tries to regain her memory from yesterday, wondering if everything is real. That is when a sharp pain from her right wrist begins alerting Miko of the reality when she instinctively tries to move her hand.
Looking towards it, her wrist is now crudely bandaged with cloth with bloodstain still being visible. She finds her right hand without strength and is unable to move, with the pain signaling Miko that not all things are well yet.
"You've awakened it seems." That is when a certain female's sound comes into Miko's ear, sound clearly giving off a vibe of tiredness. "You've been quite a hassle to handle you know."
The female is a girl who looks quite young still, pink hair tied up in a ponytail, wearing office suited clothes. Her face round and cute, pink iris staring at Miko with worry and questions.
"Who are you?" Asking with a dry throat, Miko doesn't remember this person at all. "And how did you get inside my house?"
Gulping in an attempt to hydrate her throat, Miko doesn't remember knowing this female in the past.
"My name is Anemachi, I'm your newly assigned manager from Hololive, a pleasure to meet you by the way." Anemachi proceeds to sit onto Miko's bed to make herself comfortable. "Though you had left quite a first impression to me, I almost fainted from the amount of blood I see when I try to bandage your hand, be grateful alright? "
"A-chan sent me to check you up last night and you didn't lock your door, so I figured something must have happened."
"I see." Turning her head from Anemachi Miko proceeds to look down on her bedsheet, mind still in a midst of chaos. "I see..."
'So someone saved me from the door of death huh...But is this what I wanted?' Thinking to herself, Miko isn't even sure what to do next. Attempt another suicide? She doesn't think she has the courage again to do it, as yesterday's suicide is all originated from the sudden influx of negative emotion.
Thinking back now, she knows it's quite a stupid thing to do.
'But...still, what should I do now?' Looking down, Miko finds her eyes being fill with water again, emotion proceeds to be released from all the things she has been through. The betrayal, the disappointment she left behind, the stupid her who mess up everything. Her mind begins to be filled with the very things that cause her misery. 'Everything is falling apart, nothing will go well either, so what's even the point for me to continue living?'
Sniffling as her mind goes darker, she breaks down completely.
"Wahhh..." Tears begin to drop on the bed as Miko tries to cover herself with a pillow to hide her face, word of sorrow follows as she releases her inner thoughts. "Why, why...Why do all these happen to me...Why am I so useless..."
"Why, sniff, why..." Continuing dwelling in it, Miko's cries of sadness and confusion echo through the closed room, head inside the pillow she closes her heart from the world, the world that hasn't been kind to her so far.
She remembers the cold family she had, the company that deems her a failure and eventually transfer her to the branch that is Hololive, and the heartless partner that had betrayed her last night.
The world is cold, so cold, and she is tired of it.
Meanwhile Anemachi on the bed looks at the broken girl silently, eyes filled with sympathy and sadness. A girl who is about the same age as her little sister in such a stage, even attempting to suicide, it break her heart in a certain way. She wonders what she has gone through for her to become like this.
Anemachi can't imagine what she will do if Suisei is the one that had this happening to her.
"It's alright...it's alright..." And thus, Anemachi brings herself closer to Miko, eventually hanging her hand around Miko and bringing Miko's head upon her chest. "Let it all out, it's alright now."
She may not know what Miko had been through, but she can provide Miko with some comfort, at the very least.
Anemachi's finger goes through Miko's pinkish hair, brushing it slowly yet steady, like a mom comforting her child from the cruel things she had experienced. Miko who is still in her arms however heart refuses the touch of warmth that she desperately wants, struggling to release herself from Anemachi's arm but fails due to her weak body.
"Le-leave me alone, sniff, release me" Miko's head still on Anemachi's chest says. "You know nothing about me, you don't know what I've been through, this is just your first day meeting me."
"I don't deserve anything from you, nor I can trust you from helping me at all." Eyes with tears, Miko just wants to be alone. "Just, leave me, please..."
"Please..." Repeating another time, Miko's tears continue to fall upon Anemachi's cloth, making it slightly uncomfortable to Anemachi. Of course not like she cares about it now.
"Indeed I don't know about you much" Arm still holding Miko, Anemachi however didn't plan to leave this poor girl alone. "But it doesn't mean that I couldn't give some kindness to people who need it."
"Moreover, it's a sin for me to leave such a cute girl like you alone who is in this condition." Face with a smile Anemachi continues to give warmth to the girl, as she used to do when Suisei is down. "Just assume that I like to hug cute girls alright, teehee."
With laughter escaping through Anemachi's mouth, she proceeds to continue comforting the weak and exposed girl, giving her time and affection that she desperately needed, a motherly smile on her face. Sometimes people just need a bit of time and cuddling, which some often do not have the luxury of.
Miko on the other hand realizes that Anemachi won't let her go and eventually gives up on the idea, accepting the hugs from Anemachi and continues to release her pent-up emotion. All the bad things that had happen, deep down she knows she wants someone to listen to her thoughts, even if this someone is a complete stranger.
Followed by a peaceful silence with occasional sniffing for around half an hour, the pink-haired girl eventually becomes stable from her emotion as her sniffling fades away. Eyes still watery, she managed to gather her thoughts to talk to the girl in front of her.
"...Thank you." Rubbing her eyes, Miko expresses her gratitude to the girl after calming down. "Sniff, mind letting me go now? I think I'm fine already..."
"Sure." With that Anemachi removed her arm from Miko's body, letting Miko settle back on her bed. Untidy long hair lying all over the bed, bandaged hand reminding everyone of what just happened the night before. Rubbing off the leftover tear with her left hand, Miko turns her head to Anemachi.
"Your name is Anemachi, right? Thank you for being with me and saving my life. I feel...better, for now. Sorry for letting you take care of me in this state." Now calm, Miko somehow manages to muster up the strength to force a smile on her face to face Anemachi. "And letting you see this side of me, really sorry about it."
"It's alright, everyone has their moment of weakness." Shaking her head, Anemachi stands up from the bed knowing Miko has calmed down. "Let me bring something for you, you must be hungry after all of that."
"I will cook something light for you, give me some time for it."
As footsteps proceed to leave the room follows by the sound of the door shutting, Miko is finally alone for a while, eyes staring at the closed door.
'Anemachi huh...' Thinking to herself, Miko removes the thought from her head as she lies on the bed again, wanting some rest.
'I wonder if I can trust you.'
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