Chapter 9: A Talk With Nuna

Every time when I think about all those unhappy things, I was just torturing myself for no reason. I should have stop thinking about those things long ago. After I finish my homework, I lied down on my bed thinking about what had happened today. Everything just feels so surreal. As I was thinking, my phone popped out a notification. It was a message from Nuna.

From: Nuna

Are you doing anything this weekend? Let's go out for a movie.

To: Nuna

I already have some plans but you can come along if you want to. I'm going somewhere with Ji An.

From: Nuna

Where to?

To: Nuna

Just wait for me at the school gate by 8 o'clock on Sunday.

From: Nuna

Alright. You have plans too tomorrow?

To: Nuna

No. I need to finish up my homework tomorrow. This week our teacher went crazy giving us homework for every subject.

From: Nuna

Alright. I'll just laze around at home tomorrow.

To: Nuna

Hmm.

From: Nuna

How are you lately?

To: Nuna

I've been feeling quite down. I don't know why but for some reasons that my mom is trying to avoid to talk to me as much as possible. It just feels like she's holding a grudge against me.

From: Nuna

Did you do something to her lately? Or did anything happen lately?

To: Nuna

No. Nothing much happen.

From: Nuna

Hmm. Then that's really weird. Have you tried to talk to her? Maybe she has some problem?

To: Nuna

Maybe. I don't know. After that incident, I have always felt insecure and worried over things that I shouldn't be worrying about. I think I'm being over sensitive.

From: Nuna

Your situation can't be blamed. You were not the one who wanted that to happen. Don't push yourself too much. Don't make it so hard for yourself. If you don't want to talk to her then let it be. Unnie (1) just want you to be happy ok?

To: Nuna

Alright. Unnie I felt so sleepy already. Got to go to sleep. Good night. Sweet dreams. Love you and BTS.

From: Nuna

Good night. Sweet dreams. Love you and BTS too.

After that, I put my phone aside. Talking to Nuna really makes me feel a whole lot better. At some point of my life, I felt that the person who truly understands me is not my own family but an outsider who don't even have a single blood relationship with me. I felt so comfortable with her to the point of telling her every single of my problem every day. And the best thing is that she doesn't find me troublesome. IT just feels so nice having an elder sister. I don't know what time did I fall asleep until I heard my alarm blaring at 10 o'clock in the morning. I switched off my alarm with plan to continue sleeping but I just couldn't sleep back. Feeling frustrated I went to the bathroom to wash up. I went down for breakfast then scroll to my Instagram before I started doing my homework. Luckily no one is at home today because my mother and father had brought my sibling out to the amusement park. For me I am more willing to go with my friends than my family because I couldn't play what I want so there's no point of going. I started doing my homework while listening to songs.

Around 12 noon, I was feeling hungry so I stop doing my homework and went downstairs to cook instant noodles for myself. As the aroma of the soup of instant noodles filled the atmosphere, I start drooling. I couldn't wait to eat. After eating, I continue working on my homework. When I heard the doorbell chimes, I choose to ignore it thinking that it might be some salesperson trying to sell something. When the doorbell didn't stop after 5 minutes, I went down and take a look. It turns out to be Ji An.

"Oh my. Ji An how come you're here? You didn't tell me that you were coming." I said.

"I came over because I don't know how to do some questions for Additional Mathematics and Physics. Have you finish this two homework? Let me go in first. It's so hot outside." Ji An said. I could see her face is already so red after standing for 5 minutes under the sun. It's understandable because the weather had been really hot recently.

"Sure sure. Come in. Yeah, I finished those two already. Let's go to my room upstairs." I said.

As soon as we settled down, I asked her what she doesn't know and taught her how to do it. Luckily, she was quick to understand what I was teaching her so the both of us continue to do our homework while taking break from time to time. Since Ji An had been to my house frequently so she treats it as her own house already and I don't need to go through so much trouble to bring her drinks or snacks. She knows where were those things placed so she can take it on her own. Around 5 pm, she left after completing most of the question that she didn't know. I was happy that there's someone to actually accompany me to do my homework or else I'm going to go crazy actually. Before she left, I reminded her about tomorrow. I need to text Jin about tomorrow. I don't know whether will they agree about me bringing Nuna along. I really hope that she could come along. She had also been longing to meet them for quite some time already.

To: Seok Jinnie

Hello, Jin oppa (2). This is Lilac. Tomorrow Ji An and I are going over to your place. If you guys don't mind, I would like to bring along another friend of mine. She's also a big fan of you guys.

From: Seok Jinnie

Oh. Hi Lilac. Your friend is also our friend. Just bring her along. The guys don't mind

To: Seok Jinnie

Ok. Thanks, oppa.

Translation:

1. Unnie-sister in Korean(For girls)

2.oppa-brother in Korean(For girls)