Chapter 45: I Love You
***Warning! There will be mature content in this chapter. Read only if you are comfortable. You have been warned.***
"I hate you..."
I should have known. Of course he was going to hate me. What did I expect after all that I've done to him? That he would happily accept me after I lied to him, hurted him? I would be angry at myself too so why wouldn't he? I silently cried as I stared off into space, feeling nothing but numbness now.
"I hate you so much Hani..." He breathed again into my ears. His panting and chest heaving heavily.
"But do you know what I hate the most right now..."
He pulled back and his eyes landed on to mine. I stared into those dark brown orbs that I caused tears to leave from. I wanted to wipe away those tears. I wanted to kiss them away, but I know he would never let me. Not anymore.
"Even after all you've done to me. All the lies and hurt you caused me... my heart still flutters and beat only for you..."
And his lips connected with mine.
His hands no longer on the door but on my face as he tilted his head and moved his lips against mine. He moved in closer and kiss me so roughly, so hungrily. My hands found their way on to his back as I pull him in and kissed him back. His aggressiveness slowed down and he pulled away from the kiss breathlessly. He leaned his forehead against mine.
"I hate that I love you so much Hani. So much that every particle inside of me is loving only you. My thoughts are filled with nothing but you. I love you Hani," he whispered ever so softly to me.
And his lips were back on mine. He pulled me away from the door and guided us towards my bed, his lips never leaving mine. I leaned back on to the bed as he moved forward and leaned on top of me. I parted my lips as I kissed him and his tongue found the opportunity to enter my mouth.
"Hyung, I-" I breathe out to him as he kisses me.
"Don't hurt me anymore..." He said in between the kisses as he deepens the kiss between us.
His lips soon left mine and he trailed kisses down to my jaw and towards my neck.
Our breaths and hearts were beating as one. He sucked at a sensitive part of my neck causing me both pain and pleasure that I have never felt before. I let out a breathy moan. He paused for a few seconds before continuing his suction. He pulls away from the hickey that he had just given me and his lips were back on mine.
I knew where everything was leading towards and I was fine with it because I love Hyung.
My legs slowly spread apart as he leans in closer in between my legs. I could feel the hardening of his member poking at me. He slowly starts to grind into me and I could feel myself getting wetter by the second. My body reacting to his touches and kisses. He pulls away from the kiss and hovers on top of me.
His lip was still brushing lightly against mine teasing me in a way that was torture.
"Hani, I don't think I can control myself anymore..."
His breathy and deep voice gave me chills.
"I want you Hani..."
I nodded giving him permission because I wanted him just as badly. I wanted to feel his body against mine. I needed him.
One by one, our clothes left our body and soon he was in me. We made love and the room was filled with our moans of pleasure and gasping for oxygen. I lost my virginity to the one person whom I love tonight and I never felt more blissful.
I woke up the next morning feeling really sore. I noticed that I was still completely naked and Hyung was laying in bed spooning me from behind.
I could feel his slightly hardened member resting near my butt and one of his hand was cupping my breast. I blushed at the memories of last night before I tried to get out of bed to clean up, only to get snuggled back into bed by Hyung. He hugged me close and tiredly breaths into my neck.
"Stay.."
"Hyung, I need to shower."
"Hmm, you can shower later. Let me hold you a bit longer. You're finally mine now."
I smiled at his cuteness and turn around to face him.
"I love you Hyung," and pecked his lips lightly. I didn't want to scare him away with my morning breath. He smiled with his eyes still closed and kissed my forehead before snuggling some more into me.
"I love you too."
"Hani, are you up yet-"
The door swung open and I turned my head around and my eyes grew twice as big as Mi-Young shrieked out loudly before it turned into laughter and she quickly closes the door on us. I groaned in embarrassment and broke away from Hyung's warm embrace.
"Get up Hyung!" And I got up and limped my naked self to grab a towel and headed to the bathroom.
I was about to enter the tub when a knock was heard on the bathroom door.
"Hani, open up. Let's shower together."
I blushed at what he had requested and said no. Mi-Young is home and I was already embarrassed enough getting caught sleeping together by her.
"But I miss you. I don't want to spend any second away from you."
I bit my lips nervously. I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around myself.
"Only if.. Only if you promise that we will just shower," I called out to him.
He was quiet on the other side of the door.
"No promises guaranteed," he replied after a while.
"Then no showering together..."
"Okay! Okay, I promise. Now open the door."
I opened up the door to a fully naked Hyung and I flushed red as a tomato as he grins widely at me and pushes past me into the bathroom.
"Why the towel? It's not like I didn't see all of you already," and he pulls the towel away from me leaving me nude in front of him again. I blushed even more than I already have and ran into the tub. I just wanted to shower and get out of there as fast as I could. He follows me and enters the tub and pulls the shower curtain closed.
I bent over to turn on the water and I could feel him lurking behind me as he attempted to move in close. I turned my head and glared at the boy and he cutely frowns at me before stopping. The water came on and I showered facing away from him, terrified that I might be the one to attack him if I kept on seeing his toned abs and sexy body.
I finished first and got out of the shower. I dried myself off and wrapped myself with the towel and then proceed to brush my teeth. Soon after Hyung finishes showering and pulled the curtain away revealing his exposed and wet self. I could see the sexy smirk on his face as he makes his way over to me through the mirror. He snatched the towel away from me and while grinning widely, he starts to dry himself off.
This boy obviously loves seeing me flustered and red. I avoided his gaze and continued to brush my teeth. He came behind me and his hand wrapped around my tiny waist.
"Do you have a spare toothbrush?" He asks as he held me from behind.
I froze as I could feel his member rubbing against my butt. It was starting to get hard and I turned around to face him and push him away.
"Hyung-"
"Stop pushing me away..." He pouted at me before his eyes trailed on to my neck and a smile appeared on his handsome face. I remembered the hickey that he had given me the night before. I turned back to the mirror and looked at my neck to see the purplish bruise on my neck.
Aishhh.. Mi-Young is going to make so much fun of me and not let me live...
I quickly finished brushing my teeth and grabbed the spare toothbrush for Hyung. I grabbed the towel back from Hyung and covered my body.
"Hurry up Hyung. Mi-Youngie is downstairs."
And I left the slightly turned on boy as I exited the bathroom and closed the door.
"Okay fine! But I get to do whatever I want, whenever I want when we're alone!" He calls out behind me through the door, and yes once again I blushed violently.
To Be Continued...
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Shookieillegirl Forgive me for I have sinned! I try to stay away from writing smut, but somehow felt it was needed to show how much Jimin and Hani longed and craved for one another. I hope it was not too cringy and to all my nonsmut readers, I am sorry. I had never planned on writing smut for this fanfic. It just sort of happened. And I'm not the best at writting Smut but I hope I did okay. lol...
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