Chapter 5: Chapter 04 - A little GET to know ME

I started as a shy kid with so much to offer. I started singing when I was very young. It was a healing time for me when I was really struggling and it help me somehow to keep it together. I was a very obedient and I always hide to my mom whenever we go for a vacation outside our home. I felt dependent on my mom, she was my savior and a very good listener.

I got famous because my middle school bestfriend was taking videos of me whenever we sing on our karaoke that my mom bought for Christmas. She would brag it to her social media account and we'll sing together and upload them. Many agencies tried to scout me but I was very shy back then and I don't have the confidence to really sing in public.

I continued my studies until I was home schooled and there I tried to sing whenever I was bored and I got famous again. The very first time I sang on public was on valentines. She didn't ask but I can see that she really wanted to hear me sing for first our anniversary. I really like her and I boosted my confidence thinking that I'll impress her so I sang and many people gathered on the plaza and it made very confident.

I am a fast learner and when I tried dancing for the first time, they were shocked because my body just move on its own. They were thrilled and asked me if I wanted to be a singer. I wasn't sure at first but Jericho told me to face my demons and I thought it was easier than said. I try to blend in with my schoolmates upgrading my status to Vice President of the student council.

I was elated thinking that I could change just by having the people I dear the most cheering me on. I started taking serious upload every week and scouts are there waiting for me to choose. I thought it will be best if I choose the very popular candidate but when Jericho said he wanted to be my management.

I never blinked and I agreed. Until now, I haven't regretted any of that decision. I worked hard to learn more moves. After a couple of months, I released my first song. It went viral and it views became the most number on YouTube.

From then on, IAN COLLIN BLACK, was born. Starting to pursue music wasn't really good at first, I had to face countless of insults and probably paparazzi attacks. I can't move to one place because they were quick to follow my house. I had to hire a lot of security for my safety.

Even until now. I was showered with love because of my fans. I still, get countless of aggressive fan attack, haters and I can't really say that I am pleased but this is the life I am living now. I was able to hide a few things about me. I had to hide my parents and how my background was still kind of unknown.

Starting out as a 15 years old was quite hard. Everyone was trying to control you life with everything that at stake. The people I met at that age took advantage of the fact that I was very famous and when I can't return the favor. They post anything that will tarnish my reputation, it gives me the chance to really look into the people around me.

It was hard dancing and singing at the same time. It takes a lot of energy and pain are inevitable. At first, Jer told me to just sing country song because it will be easy for me. I thought it was boring but then I kind of liked it afterwards. We started planning and recording and I felt like it wasn't me but I had to follow the order because it was my first time trying it out.

My first single was a country song but we had to change it to a pop on my first album because I was into dancing and I loved moving myself. It became a hit and I was working nonstop. I had to go to a lot of places wherever they take me. I wasn't really excited to go to tours because before that I was very in a bad condition because of things I can't still process at the time. Thankfully, Eli was with me all the time and Jer supporting me in an occasions.

Looking out for me was very hard too. Eli kept on looking for me everywhere because I always hide and just relax my self. I am an introvert so I had hard time meeting new people and blending with them. I got used to it because Eli was with me but when I am alone or I'm not doing any shows. I always lock my door and just feel the small freedom I was given.

Time passes and I kind of looked out for myself as well. I met people alone, hang out with girls and friends. I got a little overboard dating Sue, My first girlfriend in the industry, we hang out everyday and just chill in her house for a long time. I was reckless because I forgot that I was an artist.

I tried to blend in like a normal person, which I am not, and got carried away doing some night outs in the clubs and just getting drunk every time. I was a little bit worried afterwards because I found myself regretting that I went overboard on my limits.

Everyone kept telling me to just break up with her and that it will be a great news for everybody to know that I am out of the gutter. I felt like there's more to us than just ending it like that. For a while, we continued dating, we enjoyed our moments together without partying and just knowing one another. I found myself almost loving her until I found out she just slept with her president. She tried explaining it and I found more evidence not connecting what she said to the evidence presented in front of me.

I tried to be understanding but I was just 16 years old. I didn't know that I was giving up the girl I almost love after leaving Sophie. I thought we had it, we were the power couple atleast that lasted us a year and 2 months. I was happy and it was hard breaking up with her, knowing that I almost opened up for her.

She can't accept the fact that we're breaking as well. She said that she made a mistake and that I figured out she is better off with her year level. We broke up when I was 17 and she was 20 years old. It was quite a journey we travel but it was also a good decision to just end it than be in each other arms but knowing that it may happen again will definitely breaks your heart.

After my break up with Sue, I never dated anyone for 3 years. Sophie made contact and we dated secretly, as she was a very private person. Paparazzi was quite quick to notice and she breaks it up before it went online. I was upset that she broke up with me because of that. I found myself, learning to know other people more and I hang out more with girls. I was quite adventurous so I took a time really dating anyone seriously.

I was quite famous at that time and I was the big talk of the town. I met Shelby, the youngest popular actress who is almost unreachable, and I was quite impress that she was a bit introverted out of camera. We became friends and I started acting for some scenes on her shows and knowing her world made me loosen up some grip. I tried to court her for a bit long, maybe it was around 6 months until she accepted to take our relationship into another level.

We were the power duo of some of my hit songs and I went to her thing and she was with me at my second tour actually. We enjoyed just a little bit of our time and we became the Superstar couple. I was pressured when we became too popular. I had to give more attention to her because of the pressure that we need to be present at each others affairs.

We had to build the best couple impression. Shelby seemed quite tired of the sequence of our relationship but thankfully, she didn't give up on me. We actually made more memories and I thought I was really making taking this one seriously. I gave her the trust I was so selfish to give to people.

We became just a couple trying to deal with everything at a young age. I thought of just giving her everything. We actually tried living together but it didn't last long because Eli was very against it. She said it may turn into something more, I thought I want to make more memories and I actually asked Eli of her opinion with the idea of proposing at the age of 20, almost 21 but she was very angry and was very determined to make it work for five more years just dating.

I wanted to propose desperately and I secretly invite her somewhere nice. I was very discreet but paparazzi found me again. It became a hit after they saw that we are getting ready to unite as one. Jer didn't say much at the time but I can also see the disappointment in his eyes.

The issue was resolve after Shelby broke up with me. She said it wasn't healthy anymore to just be together. It was a big burden and that it won't make a sense if we aren't going forward with just us friends, I got the message in what she meant. She was ready to be my wife. I was just making it more difficult.

After realizing that I can't really protect the woman in my life with my current situation. I decided to just focus more on just doing what I can and that's music.

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