Chapter 1: why I did what I done

I was under my mom's care which means my dad wasn't taking any part of my upbringing, yes death took him very early....I was on my adolescent stage when I got pregnant, I could see my future smashed into small particles on my dreams,and disappointments on my mom's face, how will I face my family, friends and teachers?I was a disgrace to my family, worst part my sister didnt have any baby so i was too forward or irresponsible.i couldnt imagine my moms reaction if I tell her,she was looking up for me and hoping only the best from me,so abortion was only thing I could think off, I would do breath in the whole day and starve myself for days. I spend most of my days crying wondering how could this happen to me, stupid me yes it happened because I had unprotected intercourse. I went through abortion alone not because the guy was irresponsible or what no because I kept him very distance from me,I convinced him in all ways that abortion was the solution and not that he tried to stop me....I went through abortion alone secretly, I was scared and ashamed to be the only young girl on that ward, it was so scary but I was coward to take responsibility of my actions. I did what i did because i was afraid of rejection from my family, to live lies and pretend that I'm not part of this teenage pregnancy , I was scared o of what people will say, the judgemental individuals.