Chapter 79: Drive to Khadija's

Ya Allah!

The heartache and affliction I've incurred in my heart is sincere; please, I don't want to feel this pain no more!  Please help me to become stronger, as I know feeling the way I do is wrong.  You know the grief and rage I feel; I'm truly exhausted and fatigued.  I want to feel energetic again, to be able to share the love and happiness I have within, to my family and the man I love. 

I want to be able to feel free again and become the best Muslim I can ever be; to prostrate to You and pray until sleep overtakes my tired eyes.  Please Allah, forgive my anger and negative thoughts, for these are feelings from the Shaitan – I'm in danger!  Please bless upon me peace that I yearn for, so I can spend time dedicating and devoting time to You and my future husband Insha'Allah.(If GOD WILLS).

Thank you, Allah, for hearing me out and guiding me into taking the right path.

Khadija: