Chapter 11: Realising

Making sure he had left she checked the door and threw herself on the bed. She lay there listening to the clock ticking on the wall. It was as if something was trying to tell her that time was running out. Without any warning she burst out in tears not knowing the reason. She hated crying. It made her feel weak and useless but it really hurt. When she was little she would cry a lot but no one cared. When she was hurt it was brushed aside and swept under a rug. Her heart felt empty but heavy at the same time. The feeling of emptiness hurt as much as the weight and pressure she felt from her peers. At this point in time it felt like she was alone. As in there would be no one in this world to comfort her. No one in this world who cared. She never told anyone but these few days had been hard. Locking away her feelings she put on a smile and carried on. It had been hard that everyday she wanted to disappear. The feeling of being useless made her feel hatred for herself , for being so weak.